The past few suns had been rougher than expected on him. Between the entire Jin'li incident and trying to stay social, it was mentally exhausting. More so than ever, he just wanted to go home. No, not to Kage's house, where he'd made a nice room, but back to Garlemald.
But where would he even return to? He didn't even know his own name, where he lived, or any of the people. At least, not in any reliable sense. The only person he could even place a name to was Lydia. But what would she think of him? Gone for the past five years, hit by amnesia, a freakshow by Garlean standards, she was probably better off thinking he was dead. And what of his daughter? He couldn't even remember her name? What kind of parent could face his child, and know absolutely nothing? Sure, the occasion dream here and there would give something back, but he may never actually have his "whole" memory back.
The idea that he'd be stuck in Eorzea for the rest of his life had mixed feelings. The people weren't exactly bad, and sure, there would be disagreements, but it wasn't as if his way of life was difficult, or life-threatening on most days. The only thing he'd need to keep up was the eye glamour, at least for now. But the thought of missing memories bothered him to no end.
But where would he even return to? He didn't even know his own name, where he lived, or any of the people. At least, not in any reliable sense. The only person he could even place a name to was Lydia. But what would she think of him? Gone for the past five years, hit by amnesia, a freakshow by Garlean standards, she was probably better off thinking he was dead. And what of his daughter? He couldn't even remember her name? What kind of parent could face his child, and know absolutely nothing? Sure, the occasion dream here and there would give something back, but he may never actually have his "whole" memory back.
The idea that he'd be stuck in Eorzea for the rest of his life had mixed feelings. The people weren't exactly bad, and sure, there would be disagreements, but it wasn't as if his way of life was difficult, or life-threatening on most days. The only thing he'd need to keep up was the eye glamour, at least for now. But the thought of missing memories bothered him to no end.
