Orrian Servais
So he agreed. [a single inkblot]
[The following entry is written somewhat in a more messy scrawl, tinier than usual, and almost off to the side of the page more like a note than anything.]
... I've never been faced with such a possibility. That there might be a cure for my.. situation. Yet.. what would it mean for me? That I would have myself entirely under control? That I would no longer need to worry of the pain, of the- [blot] the episodes? The loss of consciouness, the feeling of elsewhere, the [blot] crystals? The paralysis? The exhaustion? What would it cure exactly, and what would be lost? What would be the cost?
I am curious for Knowledge, of course, how can I not be? I want to know.. why. But at what price? Will I [blot] will I give up myself? To have to rely on another yet again... I don't know what I should do. I am curious, but it is dangerous. And he is a duskwight. What if he knew my Family? They never wanted any to know of me, of my... situation. They.. they always claimed they sought to help me, but ne- [blot]
[a few spots]
I don't know what I should do.
I want to Know for the sake of Knowledge, but it.. it is the sort of Knowledge I know will change me. Will Change what I am, somehow, it will bring me new truths, or new lies, and they will be of something so deep I'll need to - [spot]
Or not. Who is to say aside from myself what I allow to affect me so? Will I allow something else to determine my.. my own perception when I do not wish it? I [spot] I have before. But that was because I was powerless. What if I can No, I don't want to cage it. I don't want to restrict it, I want it to agree with me. I want us on the same side, to befriend it, if it would have me. And if not, let us agree to disagree.
But for that.. for that I need to know from where it comes, or came. I wish to learn why. I would like to know.. if I was right. If I am wrong. If I know nothing at all. Or if it's somewhere in between.
So I've come to a decision.
[a few blots]
Should I-[spot]
[a few more blots]
But only one.
- Duskwight
- Knows my name, unclear if familiar with the Family
- Looking to have a book bound for his research
- Aetherical anomalies; others like myself
- Looked to be a member of the Thaumaturge's Guild by garb
- Respected curiosity for Knowledge
- Wishes methods kept secret
- Serious by tone, smirked on occasion
- Reminds me of R
- Goblet ward 4, plot 30
So he agreed. [a single inkblot]
[The following entry is written somewhat in a more messy scrawl, tinier than usual, and almost off to the side of the page more like a note than anything.]
... I've never been faced with such a possibility. That there might be a cure for my.. situation. Yet.. what would it mean for me? That I would have myself entirely under control? That I would no longer need to worry of the pain, of the- [blot] the episodes? The loss of consciouness, the feeling of elsewhere, the [blot] crystals? The paralysis? The exhaustion? What would it cure exactly, and what would be lost? What would be the cost?
I am curious for Knowledge, of course, how can I not be? I want to know.. why. But at what price? Will I [blot] will I give up myself? To have to rely on another yet again... I don't know what I should do. I am curious, but it is dangerous. And he is a duskwight. What if he knew my Family? They never wanted any to know of me, of my... situation. They.. they always claimed they sought to help me, but ne- [blot]
[a few spots]
I don't know what I should do.
I want to Know for the sake of Knowledge, but it.. it is the sort of Knowledge I know will change me. Will Change what I am, somehow, it will bring me new truths, or new lies, and they will be of something so deep I'll need to - [spot]
Or not. Who is to say aside from myself what I allow to affect me so? Will I allow something else to determine my.. my own perception when I do not wish it? I [spot] I have before. But that was because I was powerless. What if I can No, I don't want to cage it. I don't want to restrict it, I want it to agree with me. I want us on the same side, to befriend it, if it would have me. And if not, let us agree to disagree.
But for that.. for that I need to know from where it comes, or came. I wish to learn why. I would like to know.. if I was right. If I am wrong. If I know nothing at all. Or if it's somewhere in between.
So I've come to a decision.
[a few blots]
Should I-[spot]
[a few more blots]
But only one.
