A black leather book, small in size, lay upon an oak desk. Inside the pages writing could be found in a language reminiscent to Doman… though it did not look recognizable. The letters were far too intricate, far too curved in their structure to be proper Doman.
The handwriting was also childlike in nature.Â
Only a few weeks ago, I was living a completely different life… Things were familiar, the same every day… I could feel myself drowning in complacency, my words started to have less and less meaning. I was drunk on the comfortability that I was provided.
Perhaps my soul was wishing for a change, for I found my existence here turned upside down. My life that I had known vanished before me in a blink of an eye. I awoke with nothing, except more questions to add to my list of haunting thoughts that will never leave me. I thought I would drown in darkness. I thought I would never see the stars in others eyes again. I was ready to subject myself into a world of isolation and stagnation, to become a victim of circumstance. I had prepared for this day when the light around me flickered out. I was ready. I was expecting it.Â
Then why…. Why…Â
Why, while I am still plagued with thoughts of what happened,why have the gods provided me with such enriching experiences? Why, while I was finally ready to receive the judgement of the world at large, why did I receive such light and kindness from others? Why now? Why does my heart threaten to overflow with joy, though my eyes are weeping with sorrow? Why do I feel more alive in this moment than any other?
What did I do to deserve this happiness I feel?
In this short time of painful transition, I have met wonderful people… People who have filled my life with compassion. I have seen things I never thought I would see unless I was daydreaming… This feeling brought to me solely by others simply being who they wish to be. I now understand the need to protect others in this world, something I was unable to truly grasp in concept before.
I believe… humans have eyes in the front of their face to always look forward, and not behind us… I want to look ahead of me with a mind clear of the what ifs, buts, and if onlys…
Though my heart weighs heavy, I will work towards the future you fight so hard for, I will believe in it with every fiber of my being.
That is the truth of my universe. Â
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The handwriting was also childlike in nature.Â
Only a few weeks ago, I was living a completely different life… Things were familiar, the same every day… I could feel myself drowning in complacency, my words started to have less and less meaning. I was drunk on the comfortability that I was provided.
Perhaps my soul was wishing for a change, for I found my existence here turned upside down. My life that I had known vanished before me in a blink of an eye. I awoke with nothing, except more questions to add to my list of haunting thoughts that will never leave me. I thought I would drown in darkness. I thought I would never see the stars in others eyes again. I was ready to subject myself into a world of isolation and stagnation, to become a victim of circumstance. I had prepared for this day when the light around me flickered out. I was ready. I was expecting it.Â
Then why…. Why…Â
Why, while I am still plagued with thoughts of what happened,why have the gods provided me with such enriching experiences? Why, while I was finally ready to receive the judgement of the world at large, why did I receive such light and kindness from others? Why now? Why does my heart threaten to overflow with joy, though my eyes are weeping with sorrow? Why do I feel more alive in this moment than any other?
What did I do to deserve this happiness I feel?
In this short time of painful transition, I have met wonderful people… People who have filled my life with compassion. I have seen things I never thought I would see unless I was daydreaming… This feeling brought to me solely by others simply being who they wish to be. I now understand the need to protect others in this world, something I was unable to truly grasp in concept before.
I believe… humans have eyes in the front of their face to always look forward, and not behind us… I want to look ahead of me with a mind clear of the what ifs, buts, and if onlys…
Though my heart weighs heavy, I will work towards the future you fight so hard for, I will believe in it with every fiber of my being.
That is the truth of my universe. Â
Original:Â http://xiou.tumblr.com/post/166086539075...und-book-1
