Pretty much I always feel like I have something to prove to everyone, maybe especially myself. But, I also want to rp. So, fuck it, if I see someone interesting I send them a pm and just hope that they'll be forgiving enough of my eccentricities and vagaries to want to keep rping with me. Some people ditch me after awhile, others stick with me for years (and I always have this nagging feeling that I'm being annoying, but eh). The only thing you can do is keep pushing and keep moving forward, because the other option is to not move forward at all. To me, the latter just isn't acceptable. 
