I'm going to try really hard and avoid getting too personal with this. Forgive me if I go too far, though; not sure I can offer anything else given what's already been said.
People with extreme social anxiety and confidence issues... we deal with this all the time. I know you think I'm better at managing it than you, but truth is? Every time I send you something of mine to read, I'm deathly afraid of being rejected no matter how overwhelmingly positive you've been before. I honestly am.
It's hard, it really is. If I could take that feeling away, I would, because I know the pain and stress it causes all too well. It gets even worse knowing full well that there are people that would judge you for your roleplay. They do it to me and they'd do it to you.
Does it hurt? You damn well know it does, especially when the reasons aren't even justified. They usually aren't. But at the end of the day, it's not going to stop us from doing the very things we love so much.
That's what always brings me back. Telling stories isn't just a hobby for me. It's both a lifelong dream and a therapy, more so when I can involve other people with it. To spend a few hours in the mindset of someone else, someone completely different from I am... it's therapeutic, mind opening even. I've never gotten the feeling that we differ much here, so in my opinion? Embrace it. Hard.
Also know that I will never, ever judge you, Rila. I love you and your characters. To have a chance to interact with them is a blessing that I respect to the fullest. I don't care that you take a few minutes to respond to me. You're a wonderful writer with beautiful ideas and a penchant for fleshed-out, three-dimensional characters that understands what I'm trying to do better than most ever will.
Playing Final Fantasy XIV was worth it just to meet you, so try not to doubt yourself, please. If not for me, then yourself, because you deserve it.
People with extreme social anxiety and confidence issues... we deal with this all the time. I know you think I'm better at managing it than you, but truth is? Every time I send you something of mine to read, I'm deathly afraid of being rejected no matter how overwhelmingly positive you've been before. I honestly am.
It's hard, it really is. If I could take that feeling away, I would, because I know the pain and stress it causes all too well. It gets even worse knowing full well that there are people that would judge you for your roleplay. They do it to me and they'd do it to you.
Does it hurt? You damn well know it does, especially when the reasons aren't even justified. They usually aren't. But at the end of the day, it's not going to stop us from doing the very things we love so much.
That's what always brings me back. Telling stories isn't just a hobby for me. It's both a lifelong dream and a therapy, more so when I can involve other people with it. To spend a few hours in the mindset of someone else, someone completely different from I am... it's therapeutic, mind opening even. I've never gotten the feeling that we differ much here, so in my opinion? Embrace it. Hard.
Also know that I will never, ever judge you, Rila. I love you and your characters. To have a chance to interact with them is a blessing that I respect to the fullest. I don't care that you take a few minutes to respond to me. You're a wonderful writer with beautiful ideas and a penchant for fleshed-out, three-dimensional characters that understands what I'm trying to do better than most ever will.
Playing Final Fantasy XIV was worth it just to meet you, so try not to doubt yourself, please. If not for me, then yourself, because you deserve it.
