To be honest Rila, I'm surprised you're new. You've always come off as a natural, accomplished rper to me with what few scenes we've had together. Any Rila comes across to me as a vibrant, rather charismatic woman, not a caricature in the slightest.
I've only been at this 4 years, which makes me relatively new compared to some folks. I still come up with characters that I feel are completely flat, and I quietly shelve them away. I still have scenes with established characters, in which I feel I am not really tapping into my characters head, and that I am boring the other person(s) to tears. I get frustrated. I cut scenes short. I take a break from rp for a day or two and recollect my creative drive.
What it boils down to for me is two things: 1 - I really want to entertain other people. That is the main drive of rp for me. If others appear to be entertained, then I am entertained, and everyones having a good time.Â
2 - I am my own worst critic. This comes from wanting to be a writer. If I feel the scene I am in is flat, 90% of the time I blame myself, and feel I'm not doing enough to create a dynamic spark. Or worse, that I'm boring the person(s) I'm with ^.^; (that is my number one rp fear: that I'll be boring)
With time and practice, I have overcome many of the things that trip me up with rp. I still have days and sessions where I feel like I'm just not contributing anything to the scene, but those are fewer and farer between (I don't know if farer is a word, but dagnabit, I'm gonna use it!)
Just try to take a deep breath and let yourself ease into it, and expose yourself to your doubts, while simultaneously working to overcome them. And ljsten to your peers! They are very helpful!
Wouldn't qualify myself as a 'peer', but even so, I think you have a terrific character and a great writing voice!
I've only been at this 4 years, which makes me relatively new compared to some folks. I still come up with characters that I feel are completely flat, and I quietly shelve them away. I still have scenes with established characters, in which I feel I am not really tapping into my characters head, and that I am boring the other person(s) to tears. I get frustrated. I cut scenes short. I take a break from rp for a day or two and recollect my creative drive.
What it boils down to for me is two things: 1 - I really want to entertain other people. That is the main drive of rp for me. If others appear to be entertained, then I am entertained, and everyones having a good time.Â
2 - I am my own worst critic. This comes from wanting to be a writer. If I feel the scene I am in is flat, 90% of the time I blame myself, and feel I'm not doing enough to create a dynamic spark. Or worse, that I'm boring the person(s) I'm with ^.^; (that is my number one rp fear: that I'll be boring)
With time and practice, I have overcome many of the things that trip me up with rp. I still have days and sessions where I feel like I'm just not contributing anything to the scene, but those are fewer and farer between (I don't know if farer is a word, but dagnabit, I'm gonna use it!)
Just try to take a deep breath and let yourself ease into it, and expose yourself to your doubts, while simultaneously working to overcome them. And ljsten to your peers! They are very helpful!
Wouldn't qualify myself as a 'peer', but even so, I think you have a terrific character and a great writing voice!
