I actually have a lot of insecurities when it comes to roleplaying. A fact that surprises me because I do not really have any at all outside of said roleplay.
The whole idea behind roleplaying makes me nervous and I often question if it's something that is even for me. When I do actually roleplay I have a million questions and thoughts going threw my head.
Am I doing this right?
Is my character interesting enough?
Am I interrupting this person?
Oh God, they para rp and I'm struggling to think of interesting replies.
"Why have they not answered my /tells for rp the last few days?
Am I boring to them?
Do they not like me OOC?
That person is really popular on the RPC, they'd have no time for me.
*sigh*
Man that list just goes on & on.
These questions usually cause me to re-roll my characters into something that I hope is more interesting. But even doing that has had a real negative effect on my roleplay, of which is a different topic for a different time.
Last night I got to roleplay with 2 people from the forums here. One of which I consider to be a very good OOC friend. And, even roleplaying with her makes me anxious that I will do something dumb or stupid and be looked down upon for it even though I know she'd never do that.
But for some stupid reason, the fear is still there.
Oh man, where did all this honesty come from!?
The whole idea behind roleplaying makes me nervous and I often question if it's something that is even for me. When I do actually roleplay I have a million questions and thoughts going threw my head.
Am I doing this right?
Is my character interesting enough?
Am I interrupting this person?
Oh God, they para rp and I'm struggling to think of interesting replies.
"Why have they not answered my /tells for rp the last few days?
Am I boring to them?
Do they not like me OOC?
That person is really popular on the RPC, they'd have no time for me.
*sigh*
Man that list just goes on & on.
These questions usually cause me to re-roll my characters into something that I hope is more interesting. But even doing that has had a real negative effect on my roleplay, of which is a different topic for a different time.
Last night I got to roleplay with 2 people from the forums here. One of which I consider to be a very good OOC friend. And, even roleplaying with her makes me anxious that I will do something dumb or stupid and be looked down upon for it even though I know she'd never do that.
But for some stupid reason, the fear is still there.
Oh man, where did all this honesty come from!?
