I'm scared that my ideas suck. I'm scared my spontaneous events suck. I'm scared my DMing combat sucks. I'm scared my plotlines suck. I'm scared I don't somehow manage to involve enough people.
I get told the contrary all the damn time but like....ugh. Make it go away. Like I'm open to criticism and the people I'm with have offered it to others before I've heard them but there is usually none for me and I don't know if that means I'm doing a good job or if I suck so bad they don't wanna touch that shit.
Like the bar I set for myself is sooooo fucking high. I don't pull the trigger on any idea or event unless I have meticulous amounts of thought put into it about who might do what and contingencies upon contingencies and weave plot and ideas into each other and into other characters backstories to try and loop them in and give everyone a chance to feel important and try to feel like they matter while still getting the general ideas across.
Ironically though, I have the most fun with just a general concept and I'm just flying by the seat of my pants with someone I like and trust.
/diatribe
I get told the contrary all the damn time but like....ugh. Make it go away. Like I'm open to criticism and the people I'm with have offered it to others before I've heard them but there is usually none for me and I don't know if that means I'm doing a good job or if I suck so bad they don't wanna touch that shit.
Like the bar I set for myself is sooooo fucking high. I don't pull the trigger on any idea or event unless I have meticulous amounts of thought put into it about who might do what and contingencies upon contingencies and weave plot and ideas into each other and into other characters backstories to try and loop them in and give everyone a chance to feel important and try to feel like they matter while still getting the general ideas across.
Ironically though, I have the most fun with just a general concept and I'm just flying by the seat of my pants with someone I like and trust.
/diatribe
