Basically spent my time since I transferred to Balmung too bowed by insecurity to do more than 2 single pieces of RP, both of which were pre-planned and with friends.
I'm worried my character comes off as boring unless I tell you his whole backstory, and obviously if I did that he'd come across as too attention-grabbing, and I'm worried he has too many NPC-based connections to seem fair, that he has too many skills to seem balanced, that people are going to yell at me over him having the Echo, that people are going to work out or find out he's not cisgender and direct crap at me over that (or if I tell people up-front to avoid misunderstandings, direct crap at me over "shoving it in their face"), that I made his character concept too narrow to fit into anything, that if I made it any wider he'd be even more OP than he probably already is, that people will think I'm bad for making him from a fan-made tribe rather than trying to fit him into one of the lore-approved ones, that people will see stuff I wrote on my blog and assume I'm doing public RP with him as WoL (which I'm not)...
Every time I think "oh hey, maybe I could go to that event" I end up talking myself out of it and ending up at "they probably won't want someone like my character there; I'll spare them the trouble of fitting me in". Regardless of how well the event actually suits my character.
Like, I could probably see a listing for an event being like, "meeting of xaela fishermen who do bodyguard work on the side and are secretly associated to the Dutiful Sisters", and still somehow convince myself I'm not welcome or that turning up would be a nuisance for the organisers. >_>
I'm worried my character comes off as boring unless I tell you his whole backstory, and obviously if I did that he'd come across as too attention-grabbing, and I'm worried he has too many NPC-based connections to seem fair, that he has too many skills to seem balanced, that people are going to yell at me over him having the Echo, that people are going to work out or find out he's not cisgender and direct crap at me over that (or if I tell people up-front to avoid misunderstandings, direct crap at me over "shoving it in their face"), that I made his character concept too narrow to fit into anything, that if I made it any wider he'd be even more OP than he probably already is, that people will think I'm bad for making him from a fan-made tribe rather than trying to fit him into one of the lore-approved ones, that people will see stuff I wrote on my blog and assume I'm doing public RP with him as WoL (which I'm not)...
Every time I think "oh hey, maybe I could go to that event" I end up talking myself out of it and ending up at "they probably won't want someone like my character there; I'll spare them the trouble of fitting me in". Regardless of how well the event actually suits my character.
Like, I could probably see a listing for an event being like, "meeting of xaela fishermen who do bodyguard work on the side and are secretly associated to the Dutiful Sisters", and still somehow convince myself I'm not welcome or that turning up would be a nuisance for the organisers. >_>
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