(04-25-2016, 11:34 AM)Kibu Wrote: I'm a painfully shy person IRL, and I've been out of the RP scene for years except with a couple of friends through forums or IMs that turn into something more like collaborative writing. I worry that I'm so new to this game and so rusty with RP that anything I do is going to sound totally noobish, contrived, and un-engaging.
I got to do a little RP with some amazing players the other night who were absolutely fantastic. But going into it I almost had a panic attack, even though we'd talked a bit before and I'd been invited into it. I still spent a good 5-10 minutes shaking like a chihuahua in front of my computer and almost broke and ran. I feel like I'm a burden and doing anything with me is a waste of time, partly because I take too long to ponder my response and so it feels like I'm replying excessively slow and partly because I really just don't know things.
I guess overall I'm just exceptionally insecure all around.
*hugs*
I would like to tell you that you're never going to mess up, but to mess up is to be human. Instead...Just don't be afraid to fail. It might happen, but you will never know if you don't try. Like you said, there are some amazing players out there and this server is full of understanding people. Really? 9/10 times people would much prefer someone who isn't sure of themselves make a mistake than to deal with people who are arrogant and won't listen to advice. You obviously don't want to be a bother, which shows you care about how others experience your RP than just what you get out of it. That's caring. That's becoming rarer and rarer so don't think that is a flaw. You'll get in the swing of things. Just give it time. I'd be happy to RP with you anytime. : )
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