
Does Edgar want children...?
A tough question to ask of the poor fuzzball. Edgar has a lot of things going against him. For starters, he has very little grasp of what a normal family is. His biological parents were murdered in cold blood, with his father being a bastard Tia rejected from his sept who physically and emotionally abused his mother, who he had abducted from a Keeper clan. His conception was an error on the part of the father, one he tried to correct as soon as he got the chance (He attempted to throw Edgar overboard). After all this, he was adopted into a Hyur family, with no siblings, and a father who was obsessed with what he saw as a prodigal son, to the point of poisoning and destroying his own relationship, leaving Edgar with practically no family to call his own by the time he was an adult, and therefore little concept of what a family without dysfunction looked like.
Only recently have circumstances swung around in his favor, having been adopted into Jajara Jara's clan as a "younger brother" of sorts, and having managed to successfully track down the Keeper clan that his mother hailed from, allowing him to gain some concept of Keeper rites and family structure. Unfortunately, Edgar has a hard time applying it to his actual life, being both a mixed breed and a city-born. He is terribly confused as to which side of him to embrace, let alone how it is applied to a monogamous relationship. And that's assuming it is with another Miqo'te. He swims in and out of relationships, engaging in chance sexual encounters that he cannot truly say  if he regrets or not, and seems to assume in a lot of situations that love and sex are tied to such a degree that one instantly assumes the other, despite what logic would often times dictate, Edgar being a very logical man. Combined with social awkwardness inherited from an isolated and, some might say, introverted lifestyle, and it's safe to assume Ed has a hard enough time just getting into a healthy relationship, let alone consummating and having children.
But does he want them? To be frank, Edgar is still young, and has only recently come of age where, if he were in a tribal/clannish setting, he'd be competing for breeding rights. So, the urge is definitely there, but when it comes down to Ed's opinion on the matter, he is so terribly confused by the current state of affairs he is not even sure there is room for children in his life. If there is, Ed still fears the premise, because there is simply no way to "test the water" in regards to this, and if he messes it up, he faces not only ruining his own life, but destroying the life of someone else (who also happens to be his own flesh and blood). Ed certainly has a wealth of knowledge to share, and whoever is raised by him would be clever, indeed, but Ed is not sure he'd be the best parent. If the proverb "We are our parent's children" is to be believed, Edgar had terrible parents, and therefore, would be a terrible parent himself.
A tough question to ask of the poor fuzzball. Edgar has a lot of things going against him. For starters, he has very little grasp of what a normal family is. His biological parents were murdered in cold blood, with his father being a bastard Tia rejected from his sept who physically and emotionally abused his mother, who he had abducted from a Keeper clan. His conception was an error on the part of the father, one he tried to correct as soon as he got the chance (He attempted to throw Edgar overboard). After all this, he was adopted into a Hyur family, with no siblings, and a father who was obsessed with what he saw as a prodigal son, to the point of poisoning and destroying his own relationship, leaving Edgar with practically no family to call his own by the time he was an adult, and therefore little concept of what a family without dysfunction looked like.
Only recently have circumstances swung around in his favor, having been adopted into Jajara Jara's clan as a "younger brother" of sorts, and having managed to successfully track down the Keeper clan that his mother hailed from, allowing him to gain some concept of Keeper rites and family structure. Unfortunately, Edgar has a hard time applying it to his actual life, being both a mixed breed and a city-born. He is terribly confused as to which side of him to embrace, let alone how it is applied to a monogamous relationship. And that's assuming it is with another Miqo'te. He swims in and out of relationships, engaging in chance sexual encounters that he cannot truly say  if he regrets or not, and seems to assume in a lot of situations that love and sex are tied to such a degree that one instantly assumes the other, despite what logic would often times dictate, Edgar being a very logical man. Combined with social awkwardness inherited from an isolated and, some might say, introverted lifestyle, and it's safe to assume Ed has a hard enough time just getting into a healthy relationship, let alone consummating and having children.
But does he want them? To be frank, Edgar is still young, and has only recently come of age where, if he were in a tribal/clannish setting, he'd be competing for breeding rights. So, the urge is definitely there, but when it comes down to Ed's opinion on the matter, he is so terribly confused by the current state of affairs he is not even sure there is room for children in his life. If there is, Ed still fears the premise, because there is simply no way to "test the water" in regards to this, and if he messes it up, he faces not only ruining his own life, but destroying the life of someone else (who also happens to be his own flesh and blood). Ed certainly has a wealth of knowledge to share, and whoever is raised by him would be clever, indeed, but Ed is not sure he'd be the best parent. If the proverb "We are our parent's children" is to be believed, Edgar had terrible parents, and therefore, would be a terrible parent himself.