Oskar,
What words can I say or write to make you understand, to make you hurt less? If I knew them, I would write them. If I could go back and tell you sooner, I would have. But I can’t do any of those things. I can only live with the decision I made, and for that, I’m sorry. I don’t know when I’ll have the courage to give you this to read, but I know that it is a step in the right direction. You suggested to me once that I write out what I could not express, and that is what I have done here. Maybe it won’t make any sense to you, but I want you to read it anyway. They’re my thoughts and feelings, and maybe it will make a difference.
Whether you believe me or not, I trust you. I was scared, and I couldn’t think of any way out of the situation I had buried myself in. I told you once that I wasn’t perfect. I’m sure you believe me now. I am flawed and faulty and not nearly as strong as I wish I was.
I don’t know what else to write. I suppose I’ll let the entries speak for themselves. I hope that in time we can get back to where we were, I pray to Menphina that that will happen. Until then, know that I love you.
AlothiaÂ
What words can I say or write to make you understand, to make you hurt less? If I knew them, I would write them. If I could go back and tell you sooner, I would have. But I can’t do any of those things. I can only live with the decision I made, and for that, I’m sorry. I don’t know when I’ll have the courage to give you this to read, but I know that it is a step in the right direction. You suggested to me once that I write out what I could not express, and that is what I have done here. Maybe it won’t make any sense to you, but I want you to read it anyway. They’re my thoughts and feelings, and maybe it will make a difference.
Whether you believe me or not, I trust you. I was scared, and I couldn’t think of any way out of the situation I had buried myself in. I told you once that I wasn’t perfect. I’m sure you believe me now. I am flawed and faulty and not nearly as strong as I wish I was.
I don’t know what else to write. I suppose I’ll let the entries speak for themselves. I hope that in time we can get back to where we were, I pray to Menphina that that will happen. Until then, know that I love you.
AlothiaÂ
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