A lot of things have been going through my head. Was it the right decision? Will he miss me? Should I even care?
Spending time with the company has helped. Alona gave Fearless some gifts to help me sleep. It seems to be working.
I met with him last sun. I don’t know what I was expecting. I think I’m not sad about it anymore, however. He was never meant to be with me…only with her. For that, I feel foolish, to think that I could compete against her. I should have known better. What hurts the most is knowing that he didn’t even wait a couple of suns before running to her arms. And yet he says he loves me…what of love when you can put it aside so easily for other desires? I’m beginning to feel as if he never loved me at all. I was just a nice person to have around until she returned his affections. Alright…maybe I’m angrier about the whole thing than I thought. He was right about one thing…he cannot love me in the way I deserve. At least I’ll have the common courtesy to have a mourning period over our relationship. Not that there’s anyone who’s eye I’ve caught. So few people look at me in that way…not like him. Ah well. Menphina will not lead me astray. It is in Her hands now.
Then there is this business with Rio. I need to meet with Commander Mtoto sooner rather than later before she thinks that Corvus is a part of her plans. I don’t plan on giving them the satisfaction of dealing with her, however. She is…was one of ours, and she has betrayed us all. If anyone gets the final say, it should be us.
I need to be strong. For me. For the company. For Eorzea. These are pressing times ahead. I cannot let myself get distracted again. Thank the Twelve for blessings in disguise. I shall harden my heart and persevere. I will do what is necessary. We will thrive, we will prosper, and we will live to see Eorzea through another day. This I swear.Â
Spending time with the company has helped. Alona gave Fearless some gifts to help me sleep. It seems to be working.
I met with him last sun. I don’t know what I was expecting. I think I’m not sad about it anymore, however. He was never meant to be with me…only with her. For that, I feel foolish, to think that I could compete against her. I should have known better. What hurts the most is knowing that he didn’t even wait a couple of suns before running to her arms. And yet he says he loves me…what of love when you can put it aside so easily for other desires? I’m beginning to feel as if he never loved me at all. I was just a nice person to have around until she returned his affections. Alright…maybe I’m angrier about the whole thing than I thought. He was right about one thing…he cannot love me in the way I deserve. At least I’ll have the common courtesy to have a mourning period over our relationship. Not that there’s anyone who’s eye I’ve caught. So few people look at me in that way…not like him. Ah well. Menphina will not lead me astray. It is in Her hands now.
Then there is this business with Rio. I need to meet with Commander Mtoto sooner rather than later before she thinks that Corvus is a part of her plans. I don’t plan on giving them the satisfaction of dealing with her, however. She is…was one of ours, and she has betrayed us all. If anyone gets the final say, it should be us.
I need to be strong. For me. For the company. For Eorzea. These are pressing times ahead. I cannot let myself get distracted again. Thank the Twelve for blessings in disguise. I shall harden my heart and persevere. I will do what is necessary. We will thrive, we will prosper, and we will live to see Eorzea through another day. This I swear.Â
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