You never really know what full acceptance feels like until you get it. I think that I had never been more surprised than that moment…when his love hit me like a runaway chocobo. I almost lost it right there at the little restaurant, in front of everyone…assuming that there were other people there. I don’t even know if I noticed anyone else. In that moment, it was just the two of us.
Let me backtrack a bit. Khale invited me out to meet him in the shop of a merchant on Sapphire Avenue. He was investigating the avis poisoning, and he went there looking for answers. When I walked in, there were a feww Brass Blades littering the floor, and Khale held the man in the air by his throat. Without thinking, I threw the man against the wall and bound him there with Air while we discussed what to do.
The rest of what happened is between he and I. Needless to say, we got the information out of the man. And I ensured he wouldn’t go telling anyone else about what happened there.
In the moment, I didn’t think anything of it, but when we left the shop and I thought about the things that I had been through with other people. I remember when I killed Joshua, and the look that Para gave me afterward, like I was going to turn and kill him next. I suppose that always stuck with me.
But Khale didn’t harden his gaze or look at me as if I were going to hurt him. Instead, he accepted that part of me. The part that is cold and distant from the task at hand. I am what I am when the world causes me to be that. And while I have acceptance from people like Lily, it has been so long since someone has loved me in the face of that. In spite of, or maybe because of the fact that that is who I am.
I am who I am, nothing more and nothing less. Thank you for loving me.
Let me backtrack a bit. Khale invited me out to meet him in the shop of a merchant on Sapphire Avenue. He was investigating the avis poisoning, and he went there looking for answers. When I walked in, there were a feww Brass Blades littering the floor, and Khale held the man in the air by his throat. Without thinking, I threw the man against the wall and bound him there with Air while we discussed what to do.
The rest of what happened is between he and I. Needless to say, we got the information out of the man. And I ensured he wouldn’t go telling anyone else about what happened there.
In the moment, I didn’t think anything of it, but when we left the shop and I thought about the things that I had been through with other people. I remember when I killed Joshua, and the look that Para gave me afterward, like I was going to turn and kill him next. I suppose that always stuck with me.
But Khale didn’t harden his gaze or look at me as if I were going to hurt him. Instead, he accepted that part of me. The part that is cold and distant from the task at hand. I am what I am when the world causes me to be that. And while I have acceptance from people like Lily, it has been so long since someone has loved me in the face of that. In spite of, or maybe because of the fact that that is who I am.
I am who I am, nothing more and nothing less. Thank you for loving me.
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