Serylda may have been raised to disregard the death of those around her without remorse like her Ishgardian adoptive blood, however the compassion in her heart inherited by her real kin was never something she could easily keep from surfacing.
- How does your character deal with killing?
She deals with it with the mindset of "it must be done." Everything she does is in the name and honor of her foster family. However this does not change the fact she does not like killing, and that she thinks very highly of life.
She tries very hard to avoid this, but she will almost always tear up over having to kill a human or a beast after the deed is done. Her heart is far large than the steel she wields, proving to be a large weakness of hers.
She also deals with each kill by writing the name/being/appearance of whom she took down.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Probably one of the few, if not only, times she ever really broke down. She was made to kill a mere rabbit, and yet she felt as if her duty far out ranged her abilities and emotions. She worked to overcome that, so she could also prove that she was just as worthy to hold the duty of being the chosen Dragoon of their clan as her brother. She has since come a long way.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
She killed beasts long before she had ever killed any humans, and in those times when she was still just a child, she did find that those she ended would stay in her thoughts. When she was much younger, she would have nightmares on the beasts she killed, her guilt practically consuming her. Her family, wanting to obviously try and help her overcome this, gave her a journal to record who she killed. They stated that in Ishgard, for those who would struggle with keeping a calm mind in the midst of these situations, they needed a place other than their mind to keep these thoughts so they could focus on their priorities.
This method was typically used among very young Ishgardian children; however seeing as she was not of their blood, being detached was not a trait that could be easily obtained if not already inherited/learned by mid teens.
She has since recorded every kill she has had to commit. She has come far where she feels little remorse for killing smaller beasts, but still writes the names [if she was able to learn their name] and appearances of any humans or large beasts she takes down. She considers this her way of honoring them, so they would not be forgotten.
- How does your character deal with killing?
She deals with it with the mindset of "it must be done." Everything she does is in the name and honor of her foster family. However this does not change the fact she does not like killing, and that she thinks very highly of life.
She tries very hard to avoid this, but she will almost always tear up over having to kill a human or a beast after the deed is done. Her heart is far large than the steel she wields, proving to be a large weakness of hers.
She also deals with each kill by writing the name/being/appearance of whom she took down.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Probably one of the few, if not only, times she ever really broke down. She was made to kill a mere rabbit, and yet she felt as if her duty far out ranged her abilities and emotions. She worked to overcome that, so she could also prove that she was just as worthy to hold the duty of being the chosen Dragoon of their clan as her brother. She has since come a long way.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
She killed beasts long before she had ever killed any humans, and in those times when she was still just a child, she did find that those she ended would stay in her thoughts. When she was much younger, she would have nightmares on the beasts she killed, her guilt practically consuming her. Her family, wanting to obviously try and help her overcome this, gave her a journal to record who she killed. They stated that in Ishgard, for those who would struggle with keeping a calm mind in the midst of these situations, they needed a place other than their mind to keep these thoughts so they could focus on their priorities.
This method was typically used among very young Ishgardian children; however seeing as she was not of their blood, being detached was not a trait that could be easily obtained if not already inherited/learned by mid teens.
She has since recorded every kill she has had to commit. She has come far where she feels little remorse for killing smaller beasts, but still writes the names [if she was able to learn their name] and appearances of any humans or large beasts she takes down. She considers this her way of honoring them, so they would not be forgotten.
