- How does your character deal with killing?
Being raised on a farm Zac was no stranger to killing animals for meals, but he never enjoyed or felt neutral towards it. It always made him feel guilty. This didn't mean he stopped doing it, he simply never lingered on it. When he came to Eorzea though and began needing to kill living breathing people is when he started developing. . . . problems.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
It was a Limsan pirate he first killed when he was sailing to Eorzea. The ship he was on was attacked, and while Maelstrom guards on the ship did a fine job of keeping the pirates away from where the passengers were, one slipped by. In all honesty, it was a complete fluke he managed to kill the man. On of the pirates apparently lit a blackpowder bomb in the adjacent room during the fighting, and when it went off it took out a section of the wall, causing both Zac and the pirate to be knocked back. The pirate got up first and lunged at Zac only to fall on the point of his sword. When the fighting died down, Zac was thanked by his fellow passengers, but was in shock over the entire situation.Â
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
He likes to pretend it didn't happen. he's quick to change the subject when people bring it up and even quicker to walk away when they insist on not letting the matter die. In rare situations he can even get violent over people not allowing the subject to change or allow him to flee the situation. In all honesty, Zac's terrified of death and all its trappings. When ever he sees a dead body he starts seeing the people he's killed and begins thinking about who they were, and if they had a family. If there's anyone to mis them and so on and so forth.
To be forgotten is worse than death
