How does your character deal with killing?
Zutoto has actually been around 'death' as a concept a while. Being the child of a fisher and a chef she learned very young that some animals are pets and some are food, and had seen her parents gutting/butchering their products since early childhood. Still, obviously, that's not the same as killing a fellow sentient creature.
She's a magic user, and magic is very powerful and dangerous, she accepts that even when she's 100% in control death could come to the people she fights. Because of that she's fairly slow to fight at all, seeing her magic as a weapon that has to be handled with care (and her interest in Black Magic sure is reinforcing that). She has killed, she was a pirate for a time after all, she doesn't have a big body count but it's a non-zero amount.
How did your character feel after her first kill?
Tired. Her first 'real' kill (assuming grilling a fresh carp for dinner doesn't count) was in a pitched battle with another, much more vicious, pirate crew. It was a long fight from ship to ship that left a lot of people hurt or dead. She didn't even know she killed anyone until someone pointed out that she 'had her first' and congratulated her. She wasn't happy about it, but it was a 'them or me' type thing so she didn't exactly lose any sleep over it. She really just wanted to rest.
Does your character mull over it later on?
Yes. Even when it's justified killing takes a heavy toll on someone not raised for it, Zututo has had more than a few sleepless nights from flashbacks or the like. It doesn't dominate her life, but she pretty surely has some issues that she's currently avoiding working out.
Zutoto has actually been around 'death' as a concept a while. Being the child of a fisher and a chef she learned very young that some animals are pets and some are food, and had seen her parents gutting/butchering their products since early childhood. Still, obviously, that's not the same as killing a fellow sentient creature.
She's a magic user, and magic is very powerful and dangerous, she accepts that even when she's 100% in control death could come to the people she fights. Because of that she's fairly slow to fight at all, seeing her magic as a weapon that has to be handled with care (and her interest in Black Magic sure is reinforcing that). She has killed, she was a pirate for a time after all, she doesn't have a big body count but it's a non-zero amount.
How did your character feel after her first kill?
Tired. Her first 'real' kill (assuming grilling a fresh carp for dinner doesn't count) was in a pitched battle with another, much more vicious, pirate crew. It was a long fight from ship to ship that left a lot of people hurt or dead. She didn't even know she killed anyone until someone pointed out that she 'had her first' and congratulated her. She wasn't happy about it, but it was a 'them or me' type thing so she didn't exactly lose any sleep over it. She really just wanted to rest.
Does your character mull over it later on?
Yes. Even when it's justified killing takes a heavy toll on someone not raised for it, Zututo has had more than a few sleepless nights from flashbacks or the like. It doesn't dominate her life, but she pretty surely has some issues that she's currently avoiding working out.
