At first I wondered who to answer this as...but for now I'll just do Lho'a, and maybe later come back to this as one of the others just to see.
How does your character deal with killing?
Lho'a talks a big game about killing. He knows his overchanged magic usage is a trump card in the chance to take a life, and will boast about how easily he can do so....but he has yet to ever actually kill anyone. In fact in the instances that have come up around him that involved someone dieing, he seemed overly anxious and nervous at the outcome. I've plans to write a scene about it and post it eventually...his inability to even kill a rat scurrying through his room. Despite this he still fancies himself as quite the dark one.
How did your character feel after his first kill?
I guess we will see someday, if and when it happens. The first time he saw someone killed was when his Matron slew an attacker who had started a fight in their home. He'd watched the whole encounter and demanded no one step in, but afterwards he was quite thrown off at the sight. He used what healing he could to ease the woman's pain as she passed, knowing he couldn't actually save her...and then he curiously moved his fingers through her blood and licked them clean. He claims he wanted to consume her last memories and feelings, but I doubt he can actually do anything like that...
Does your character mull over it later on?
These days he spends a lot of time trying to preserve life. While his people fuel battles and draw out conflict, he works to resolve things so that everyone walks away with their heads, to the point of actually saving the life of one who is likely one of his Clan's worst enemies at present. He has no idea were he stands on things, and panic drives him to action. He is doing his best to never have to decide which side of the coin he has to fall on..for now at least.
How does your character deal with killing?
Lho'a talks a big game about killing. He knows his overchanged magic usage is a trump card in the chance to take a life, and will boast about how easily he can do so....but he has yet to ever actually kill anyone. In fact in the instances that have come up around him that involved someone dieing, he seemed overly anxious and nervous at the outcome. I've plans to write a scene about it and post it eventually...his inability to even kill a rat scurrying through his room. Despite this he still fancies himself as quite the dark one.
How did your character feel after his first kill?
I guess we will see someday, if and when it happens. The first time he saw someone killed was when his Matron slew an attacker who had started a fight in their home. He'd watched the whole encounter and demanded no one step in, but afterwards he was quite thrown off at the sight. He used what healing he could to ease the woman's pain as she passed, knowing he couldn't actually save her...and then he curiously moved his fingers through her blood and licked them clean. He claims he wanted to consume her last memories and feelings, but I doubt he can actually do anything like that...
Does your character mull over it later on?
These days he spends a lot of time trying to preserve life. While his people fuel battles and draw out conflict, he works to resolve things so that everyone walks away with their heads, to the point of actually saving the life of one who is likely one of his Clan's worst enemies at present. He has no idea were he stands on things, and panic drives him to action. He is doing his best to never have to decide which side of the coin he has to fall on..for now at least.