(04-29-2016, 05:02 PM)Knahli Wrote: That my character is too boring for anyone to ICly or OOCly find any interest in speaking to her for any extended period of time.
I've met a few people who feel this way, and the very ones who say it are the ones I enjoy RPing with the most. It's have to have confidence sometimes, but I find when you lose your fight that your friends remind you of your worth. Still, I'd love to RP with you sometime even if it's just a normal, random conversation in Ul'dah.
(04-29-2016, 04:55 PM)Lutra Wrote: I guess I will put myself out here a little bit. Who knows, maybe it'll help? :3
In terms of roleplay, I fear the spotlight. It's silly, really, just how paranoid and overthink-y I get when it comes to my characters doing something that some might see as showing off or being an attention hog. It has actually gotten so bad that I have almost lost my interest in roleplay altogether the past year or so. I have been fighting desperately to set up other things for my FC to do, along with attempting to participate in others' plots, only to find myself often giving up for lack of motivation.Â
It's essentially like I've phased myself out due to my own fear. I've done what I've told countless of my members NOT to do--and that is get too invested in what others may or may not think of my characters or roleplay. I'm not involved in anyone's side stories, in my FC or elsewhere, and it is not due to other people's fault--in this regard it's purely in my head.
Sure, I've had bad RP experiences, just like probably everyone else here. Plots going awry, OOC feelings getting hurt for IC reasons--it happens and I move through it. I'm not particularly burned in one way or another. It's just this constant, creeping feeling that what I am doing/writing is pissing someone off IRL in some way.
As such, I am trying to get back out there, both with Rhesh'ir and my alt, The Wasp. It's difficult to overcome, even though I have sort of isolated the problem.
It sounds like you know the answer and what you need to do, but you are afraid you will fail. Is it because something specific happened? I know I've felt that way when someone I trusted turned out to be fake or I felt betrayed. It can shake your foundation and next thing you know you are questioning yourself.
The only real advice I can give is that there are countless different people in the world. And all of them are going to act different. At the end of the day, you have to sleep with what you've done and what you are responsible for. What's right might not always be popular or easier, but you feel better about yourself. I'm kind of shooting in the dark here because Idk what brought you to this, but I know your struggle. When it gets bad I just take a few days and then come up with another concept. I'm sorry that this might not help too much, but if anything you are around people who care and would like to help.
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