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Ryanti's '100 Questions'. I hope this teaches you a bit about Ryanti's character!Part 1: The Basics
1.What is your full name? "Ryanti Veanysus."
2.Where and when were you born? "Ul'Dah, 1559."
3.Who are/were your parents? (Know their names, occupations, personalities, etc.) "My father is the greatest living being alive who fought in the Flames. He symbolizes everything about a man that I desire to be. My mother runs our dinnerware business... she loves me but she is overprotective of me."
4.Do you have any siblings? What are/were they like? "No, as far as I know... That is always something I think about. From time to time."
5.Where do you live now, and with whom? Describe the place and the person/people. "I live in our Family Estate.. the rooms seem infinite as the space inside them.. I live with my Mother, and my Father... and we have four servants of the home, including a Butler, whom is reaching a high amount of years but... always had a warm smile."
6.What is your occupation? "I am in the Officers Training School for the Immortal Flames."
7.Write a full physical description of yourself. You might want to consider factors such as: height, weight, race, hair and eye color, style of dress, and any tattoos, scars, or distinguishing marks. "Yes.. well, to please those who would know, I am rather tall for a Miqo'te.. around 5'9''. My weight is about 136 phulms. I am a Hyur and.. ughn, Miqo'te half-breed. My hair and eye color are that of my father's. A pearly white, and aquamarine eyes. I prefer soft clothing, and I dress as a miracle of nature should dress. I adourn myself in which I believe showcased the miracle of myself existing."
8.To which social class do you belong? "The Upper Class. Such as they say."
9.Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses? "I-I'm not sure.. I haven't really been out much. I think that would require me being in the pit of nature.."
10. Are you right- or left-handed? "I write with my left hand, though I fight with my right."
11. What does your voice sound like? "A drop of silver on a completely still patch of water."
12. What words and/or phrases do you use very frequently? "Here's to the wind!" "I am a Veanysus." "It's nothing." "Let fate decide my own."
13. What do you have in your pockets? "A Ceruleum Pocketwatch.. a cleaning equipment for my sword.. a pen.. a traveler's journal, and a formula guide."
14. Do you have any quirks, strange mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics? "Sometimes I tend to become a bit germophobic and ultra-hygenic, scoffing at filth, whether it be physical or mental.. sometimes I tend to fear the idea of sunburn, and yet still ignore my injuries like a stubborn one indeed. Sometimes I tend to go to big lengths to prevent permenant scarring.. and yet still I am unable to fully overcome my squeemishness."
Part 2: Growing Up
15. How would you describe your childhood in general? "A hell disguised as heaven. A lonely, unfufilling, sensation of being stuck. Where the lack of friends and sense of time passing got to me."
16. What is your earliest memory? "Standing in the living room, playing. Running around. Being hyper.. the images of my father and mother in the room with me... the only memory I ever have of being hyper."
17. How much schooling have you had? "All the best in private tutelage. Sacrifice your youth for obtaining the book knowledge of someone that be accused of witchcraft by the less educated if he stepped out of his house and said too much."
18. Did you enjoy school? "I did not at first. But as I grew.. I began to. I enjoyed the philosophy of what knowledge can do to man. To society as a whole. However, it stole my teen years. Just as my family name stole my childhood years."
19. Where did you learn most of your skills and other abilities? "I learned them from myself, as I grew up with too much time on my hands. I learned all of my.. performing arts from being forced, however. Such is the woes of higher education for those gearing up for high society. All of my physical training was brought onto me from my destiny of following my father's footsteps in the military. That was a wake up call..."
[b]20. While growing up, did you have any role models? If so, describe them[/b]. "My father.. he is everything I desired to be. Strong. Handsome. A leader. Someone who lifts the reigns of man on the same level as himself whenever he is around people. He set an example for everyone, including myself. Other then that.. I suppose the Allagans and the Garleans.. but I would get in trouble if I mentioned the ladder."
21. While growing up, how did you get along with the other members of your family? "I did not see my father much.. he was always away.. when he would come back, it would always be those blissful few days for me, that kept me going. My mother.. we love each other. But... I can't relate to her. There is something there, whether it be her ears or tail or my own.. there is this, distance.. that keeps me from being nurtured by her."
22. As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up? "An Allagan. I just wanted to be some sort of... higher being."
23. As a child, what were your favorite activities? "I remember fondly...I used to enjoy tending to the garden in the back yard. I remember vividly having to.. help my mother do it. I would sit there with the box of seeds as she planted them..
I remember punching through the air, trying to imitate what I saw in the city.. of the fighting men. But my kind of punching always ended up turning into some kind of meditative flowing movement..
I believe the only thing that.. I still do is stare out of my folding window. Every single night. Track the moon phase, track the stars.. track the men and women entering and leaving the city. Trying to remember them. Trying to simulate the ways of the world using only my head... those, were the good memories of my childhood, I suppose."
24. As a child, what kinds of personality traits did you display? "I.. was a lot more energetic. A lot more bold and a lot more fiery. I believed in everything and anything.. and I had faith."
25. As a child, were you popular? Who were your friends, and what were they like? "Absolutely not, I was treated like waste. Like impure, which I am. My blood is dirty and I was treated as a dirty object would be in a world of pristine cleanliness.
I had one friend, and he was like the only kind of possible influence that kept me from offing myself. Does that make sense? I don't know.
He's dead. My parents were the only ones that treated me with any decency.. that told me they loved, and... gave me a sense of safety at home."
26. When and with whom was your first kiss? "I can't believe this.. people take such things for granted that they ask me questions like this as if it was the norm to have that experience already! Stop teasing me with things I may never have!"
27. Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity? "I said stop! Believe it or not, there is such a thing as individuals whom never had the privileged of being valued by somebody else enough to be touched!"
28. If you are a supernatural being (i.e. mage, werewolf, vampire), tell the story of how you became what you are or first learned of your own abilities. If you are just a normal human, describe any influences in your past that led you to do the things you do today. "The influence of being sheltered for most of your life allowed me to observe the small things in life become the big things. From looking in the looking glass from the outside in, I see the world through different lenses. That different perspective in life influenced my behavior today and defines a large part of who I am on the outside."
Part 3: Past Influences
29. What do you consider the most important event of your life so far? "The day.. I don't wish to talk about it, actually."
30. Who has had the most influence on you? "My father. He has painted everything in my life picture that I desire."
31. What do you consider your greatest achievement? "... I think, just... I don't know, really.. I don't think I have any.. really."
32. What is your greatest regret? "... Letting him go."
33. What is the most evil thing you have ever done? "I looked upon absolutely heinous acts with dead eyes and ears.. those kinds of things, they don't sensitize me anymore.. I grew up with them... my thoughts and my actions, sometimes.. I am very evil in many ways, really."
34. Do you have a criminal record of any kind? "No. I was a good boy."
35. When was the time you were the most frightened? "I.. can't remember. It was some years ago.. But just trying to think about it.. I don't want to. I really don't want to...I can't remember."
36. What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you? "I was once stripped of my clothing, collared, and forced to bark for people lest they lash me dry.. being forced to act like an animal.. and the such. Far from the only time.. but probably the worst time."
37. If you could change one thing from your past, what would it be, and why? "That I was born a pure Hyur Midlander. So that my entire life could be rewritten. So that my life wouldn't have been such hell."
38. What is your best memory? "My first memories. When my dad was home and my mom was smiling and I was their golden boy.."
39. What is your worst memory? "I think of bad things, and ...I have a feeling that something very bad happened but.. I can't, I don't really know. If it was real or not.. or if I'm remembering it correctly.. I remember a face, that of an angel's.. that's all."
Part 4: Beliefs And Opinions
40. Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic? "Pessimistic.. but not by nature.. not by nature at all. It was forced on me.. and I'd rather see the greener side of the lot if I'm allowed to."
41. What is your greatest fear? "That I... am nothing. That my purpose on this world is.. nothing."
42. What are your religious views? "I believe that there are higher forces on this planet and I intend one day to be able to communicate to them on a high enough footing to be able to do so.. though I do not blindly worship any god and expect favors, or dance for them like puppets.. I expect them to come to me. I expect to EARN their favor.. and I shall strive to do so."
43. What are your political views? "I believe that progress is the natural evolution of a civilization. I believe that traditions need to evolve just as technology needs to. I believe that the smartest, and the strongest of civilization should be the leaders, and set an example for others to follow. I believe weakness and trying to uplift hopeless cases are a waste of time, and nature will kill them off. I believe in a government that will do what is right.. not what is ethical."
44. What are your views on sex? "I was raised where love and affection were commonly shared about friends. The value of the body is equal to the value of the mind. The element of lust follows me with women, and my thought often are eager to quickly jump to the female figure and imagining the taste of her lips.. but if.. if a moment were to come in my life where I would value someone immensely of my own gender.. so will I value their body."
45. Are you able to kill? Under what circumstances do you find killing to be acceptable or unacceptable? "Yes. I believe I would be. I am no.. peace loving individual. I will kill if it needs to be done. However, I am not a butcher. I will kill only if my soul compels me to. Killing is acceptable when it is either needed, or feels appropriate. One needs to not rely on the morals of society, but of themselves...and neither be afraid of.. or immediately resort to, killing."
46. In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do? "Hold themselves back. Refuse to change. Refuse to dream. Refuse to evolve. Refusing to spread their wings. To prevent society from raising itself. This is the most evil deed of men. Disguised as a virtue."
47. Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love? "Yes. Absolutely yes. I believe that is the purest form of affection. Untainted by experiences or culture."
48. What do you believe makes a successful life? "If you feel as if you matter in the world. If you feel as if you have reached a pinnacle. If you feel as if that the reason you were born in this world was fulfilled. If you've lived up to your own expectations."
49. How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings (i.e. do you hide your true self from others, and in what way)? "I am as honest as any man could be. That is one of my values. We are creatures of truth, and the indecent, horrific act of hiding our faces and moods and feelings from others is a silly elementary fallacy and needs to stop. We need to be honest with one another.. and we need to be open."
50. Do you have any biases or prejudices? "Men and women who refuse to evolve. Men and women whom's cultures refuse to evolve. It does not take a genius to be able to decipher that."
51. Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it? "I am a man who consistently learns from his experience, and is ever evolving. Even if I were to tell you something I absolutely would not do, it would only count for right now in time. Later in life, I may have to do it, or even willingly do it for that matter. Therefore, I really cannot answer that. However.. do not expect me dancing a fool in the mud with face paint any time soon."
52. Who or what, if anything, would you die for (or otherwise go to extremes for)? "...I would die for progress. I would die to see my visions become reality. For others, not for myself, hence why I would die for it. Nothing would be happier in my book to die for that favor I wish to grant the world and it's people."
Part 5: Relationships With Others
53. In general, how do you treat others (politely, rudely, by keeping them at a distance, etc.)? Does your treatment of them change depending on how well you know them, and if so, how? "I treat others rather politely, and calmly. I am naturally curious of their personalities, and I tend to immediately try to form some kind of spiritual connection with them. I will be no stranger to their jests, or for that matter, being open and truthful. There is nothing holding me back.
As time passes, and the connection becomes stronger, I become increasingly motivated to treat their very existence with value, and am sure to let them know it. I intend to treat them with wonderful experiences and become a permanent shoulder to cry on.."
54. Who is the most important person in your life, and why? "I.. don't really have any at this point.. my father is only but a distant picture at this point.."
55. Who is the person you respect the most, and why? "I respect my father the most. Because of all that he's done and how he is such a happy and satisfied man despite the hardships he went through."
56. Who are your friends? Do you have a best friend? Describe these people. "Heh.. to have friends."
57. Do you have a spouse or significant other? If so, describe this person. "In a fantasy world, I may have one."
58. Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened. "Expecting me to just simply describe love.. and to tell you whom I've loved, look, I'm not a simple person, okay? Love.. is just weird. It feels weird and it makes you do weird things. It's the best.. damn feeling in the world.. is that enough?"
59. What do you look for in a potential lover? "I look for the solution.. I know that's a vague statement. Let me see.. I look for everything I would find in the element of hope for 'humanity'.. I look for an individual whom values me.. views me as preciously in this world as I do they.. I look for an individual with a mentality above the populace and the ability to dream and dive in the waters of life with me head first without fear..
To be inspired by them as well as to inspire them as well, I suppose.. like two dancing souls entwined in flame."
60. How close are you to your family? "Pretty close, but it's not like I had a choice.. I had to depend on them. They were my only friends."
61. Have you started your own family? If so, describe them. If not, do you want to? Why or why not? "I.. I would want to, yeah.. when I'm older. But.. to ask me, why? ..I don't know if I'm old enough to think about that yet, umm.. because I want to be a dad some day, when I'm strong.. and less of a fool.. with a woman I'd love till the ends of the earth."
62. Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help? "..I don't know. I have no one."
63. Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who, and why? "My father.. I just know he'd.. have to be there. Because he's a hero, right? So he'd be there.."
64. If you died or went missing, who would miss you? "..."
65. Who is the person you despise the most, and why? "There's no one person.. but I would say everyone in my childhood... and why? .. Do you remember the story about my barking?.. Add fifty more stories and there you go. Simple."
66. Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict? "I tend to argue. I have a fiery soul still, and one that begs to be heard, even in the midst of people who believe me to be wrong.
However.. I always end up awkwardly doing so.. I have this massive urge to shut up to avoid more hatred towards me.. I've had enough of that already."
67. Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations? "Yes and no.. it depends on the atmosphere. I tend to lead when it comes to the elements of life I excel at.."
68. Do you like interacting with large groups of people? Why or why not? "I am envious when it comes to large crowds.. because they all seem so happy and marvelous.. I tend to grow ever more shy, but.. I wish I like it. I don't like it. But I wish to. In a perfect world.."
69. Do you care what others think of you? "Yes... yes. My life is incomplete and.. empty, when I am alone. It is only through the appreciation of others that I stand tall with them. I do not trust my own judgement of myself.. even if it is positive."
Part 6: Likes And Dislikes
70. What is/are your favorite hobbies and pastimes? "I do enjoy the performing arts... when it comes to acting, and... dancing, and singing. Though I easily get embarrassed.. however, it tickles me to death, and I love it. I also love reading, and art in general.. the nightly walks and philosophy .. all of those elements combined makes up my passions in life."
71. What is your most treasured possession? "..My father's Couerl-Head Necklace that he passed down to me.. I do not wear it yet.. for I fear to be undeserving of it."
72. What is your favorite color? "Any shade of blue.."
73. What is your favorite food? "Marmot Steak."
74. What, if anything, do you like to read? "I dive deep into any kind of book involving the secrets of the past, a past in which we have yet to comprehend. The Allagan Empire.. anything about them, really. Anything about philosophy, or of.. predicting the future of society.
Though as a young man I was also fascinated with.. fairy tales. And novels. I understand that these stories were written from the heart, unlike how people act to each other nowadays so.. I treat stories as a more pure form of expressing feelings."
75. What is your idea of good entertainment (consider music, movies, art, etc.)? "A well done, top-tier play. Beautiful music from around the world... Gorgeous paintings.. the finest wines.. dancing.. the such."
76. Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? If so, why? Do you want to quit? "I drink a little bit more then people give me credit for.. I drink in order to get rid of my reasoning sometimes.. if you've been there, you would understand.. sometimes I need to say or do things that I couldn't without alcohol.. it's a shame that I need it, but..
I don't want to quit."
77. How do you spend a typical Saturday night? "Saturday? What's a Saturday? ..Every day was the same for me, for a long time. I was blessed enough to be able to attend plays and banquets, however.. those were fun."
78. What makes you laugh? "Anything witty. Anything that surprises me without threatening me."
79. What, if anything, shocks or offends you? "Barbarianism."
80. What would you do if you had insomnia and had to find something to do to amuse yourself? "Light a candle, and treat myself to spilling my thoughts in ink."
81. How do you deal with stress? "I don't. The ways I've tried to deal with it aren't suitable for this interview."
82. Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan? "When the emotions get the better of me.. I am spontaneous as all hell. But besides that, I always end up having a plan anyhow."
83. What are your pet peeves? "I absolutely despise lack of refinement. Filth. Dunces. Fools who are ignorant by choice and not by fault. Fools who do not think of consequences. Fools who have wronged me."
Part 7: Self Images And Etc.
84. Describe the routine of a normal day for you. How do you feel when this routine is disrupted? "My normal day consists of waking up.. eating breakfast with the family, then piano practice.. by the mid day I am out and about and probably getting abused because of my blood. I drink my aftertoon tea back home while fibbing about the black eye and then it's dance recital, where no girls wants to hold my hand.
By evening I fib about the other black eye and then it's dinner. Afterwords I am up for vocal practice. Which I had probably done earlier before while being punched in the face.
Then I have the rest of the evening myself behind a locked door. Any break from this routine is fully welcomed, as I was thinking of actually speaking to my fluffy canopy bed the other day. If you detected satire in this, congratulations, but there's a lot of truth to this."
85. What is your greatest strength as a person? "I... see things from outside the looking glass, and dare to spread my wings.."
86. What is your greatest weakness? "..That what others have said about me in my past became who I define myself as."
87. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? "..I would get rid of these ears and tail.. if I couldn't do that.. I would change the part of me that self-loaths over my past memories... then I could move on."
88. Are you generally introverted or extroverted? "Intro-..Extro-.. I don't even know."
89. Are you generally organized or messy? "Organized."
90. Name three things you consider yourself to be very good at, and three things you consider yourself to be very bad at. "I am very good at soul-to-soul conversations. I am very good at beautifying. I am very good at expressing my feelings.
I am very bad at coping with stress. I am very bad at moving on from past pains. I am very bad at being my father."
91. Do you like yourself? "..."
92. What are your reasons for being an adventurer (or doing the strange and heroic things that RPG characters do)? Are your real reasons for doing this different than the ones you tell people in public? (If so, detail both sets of reasons…) "My reasons involve only the past nineteen years of suffering that I experienced being sheltered. I want to see the world. I want to see and live in the world and be treated not like garbage or like a king, but like a PERSON.
I want to see how people live. I want to see the horizon from somewhere else beside my damn home! I want to venture and I want to cross the roads that my ancestors did! I want to see everything! .. I want to improve life in all that I can and be the angel of healing to society!
...In public, I suppose it's easier to say.. that I do this because I want to."
93. What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime? "I want to outdo my father.. and live up to the reputation of those brilliant individuals of a higher plane that walked this planet so long ago.. so that when I die, I may rest with them. Or better yet.. to learn from their mistakes.. and rise even higher! And pull all of humanity up with me!"
94. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? "I see myself.. no longer a stumbling lamb.. no longer brought down by the weight of his youth. I see myself on the field of war but unafraid and even still, untouched.."
95. If you could choose, how would you want to die? ".. I would want to die on the very floor of .. the result of my dreams coming true. I would want to die seeing.. my visions come to life.. I want to see them like how a father wants to see the face of his child right after its birth.. before I take my last breath.. I want to see that heaven, before I see any other."
96. If you knew you were going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left. "If I knew I was going to die... I would.. I would tell everyone how much I loved.. despite whether or not they loved me.. I would write down the very elements of myself and my dreams for the world.. in hopes that someone would carry it on for me.
And then I would end it before the 24 hours were over.. for there would be nothing left for me to do besides wait. I've done enough waiting in my life."
97. What is the one thing for which you would most like to be remembered after your death? ".. I would want to be remembered for.. blazing the way. Blazing the way for progress and for better lives for all of us. To set an example for everyone like my father did.. to be known as a man above men who inspired everyone to be all whom they could be.. a man worth mourning for when he died.. a man who deserved it."
98. What three words best describe your personality? "Ethereal. Visionary. Beacon."
99. What three words would others probably use to describe you? "Complicated. Conflicted. Heartly."
100. If you could, what advice would you, the player, give to your character? (You might even want to speak as if he or she were sitting right here in front of you, and use proper tone so he or she might heed your advice…)
Listen to me.. Ryanti.. stop thinking about it. Stop thinking about how you're going to be happy. Stop thinking about what it's going to take. Stop thinking about trying to be like your father, or like the Allagans. Stop doing that. Stop thinking yourself as nothing and stop trying to be everything.
Be.. you. The you, that you have in there, Ryanti, is immensely special and unique because of how your mind turned out to be. Use THAT. Be YOU. You have 'it' inside of you, you need to relax! Don't think too much about it! Just do! The beauty in yourself will come out of hiding if you just let it all go!
1.What is your full name? "Ryanti Veanysus."
2.Where and when were you born? "Ul'Dah, 1559."
3.Who are/were your parents? (Know their names, occupations, personalities, etc.) "My father is the greatest living being alive who fought in the Flames. He symbolizes everything about a man that I desire to be. My mother runs our dinnerware business... she loves me but she is overprotective of me."
4.Do you have any siblings? What are/were they like? "No, as far as I know... That is always something I think about. From time to time."
5.Where do you live now, and with whom? Describe the place and the person/people. "I live in our Family Estate.. the rooms seem infinite as the space inside them.. I live with my Mother, and my Father... and we have four servants of the home, including a Butler, whom is reaching a high amount of years but... always had a warm smile."
6.What is your occupation? "I am in the Officers Training School for the Immortal Flames."
7.Write a full physical description of yourself. You might want to consider factors such as: height, weight, race, hair and eye color, style of dress, and any tattoos, scars, or distinguishing marks. "Yes.. well, to please those who would know, I am rather tall for a Miqo'te.. around 5'9''. My weight is about 136 phulms. I am a Hyur and.. ughn, Miqo'te half-breed. My hair and eye color are that of my father's. A pearly white, and aquamarine eyes. I prefer soft clothing, and I dress as a miracle of nature should dress. I adourn myself in which I believe showcased the miracle of myself existing."
8.To which social class do you belong? "The Upper Class. Such as they say."
9.Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses? "I-I'm not sure.. I haven't really been out much. I think that would require me being in the pit of nature.."
10. Are you right- or left-handed? "I write with my left hand, though I fight with my right."
11. What does your voice sound like? "A drop of silver on a completely still patch of water."
12. What words and/or phrases do you use very frequently? "Here's to the wind!" "I am a Veanysus." "It's nothing." "Let fate decide my own."
13. What do you have in your pockets? "A Ceruleum Pocketwatch.. a cleaning equipment for my sword.. a pen.. a traveler's journal, and a formula guide."
14. Do you have any quirks, strange mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics? "Sometimes I tend to become a bit germophobic and ultra-hygenic, scoffing at filth, whether it be physical or mental.. sometimes I tend to fear the idea of sunburn, and yet still ignore my injuries like a stubborn one indeed. Sometimes I tend to go to big lengths to prevent permenant scarring.. and yet still I am unable to fully overcome my squeemishness."
Part 2: Growing Up
15. How would you describe your childhood in general? "A hell disguised as heaven. A lonely, unfufilling, sensation of being stuck. Where the lack of friends and sense of time passing got to me."
16. What is your earliest memory? "Standing in the living room, playing. Running around. Being hyper.. the images of my father and mother in the room with me... the only memory I ever have of being hyper."
17. How much schooling have you had? "All the best in private tutelage. Sacrifice your youth for obtaining the book knowledge of someone that be accused of witchcraft by the less educated if he stepped out of his house and said too much."
18. Did you enjoy school? "I did not at first. But as I grew.. I began to. I enjoyed the philosophy of what knowledge can do to man. To society as a whole. However, it stole my teen years. Just as my family name stole my childhood years."
19. Where did you learn most of your skills and other abilities? "I learned them from myself, as I grew up with too much time on my hands. I learned all of my.. performing arts from being forced, however. Such is the woes of higher education for those gearing up for high society. All of my physical training was brought onto me from my destiny of following my father's footsteps in the military. That was a wake up call..."
[b]20. While growing up, did you have any role models? If so, describe them[/b]. "My father.. he is everything I desired to be. Strong. Handsome. A leader. Someone who lifts the reigns of man on the same level as himself whenever he is around people. He set an example for everyone, including myself. Other then that.. I suppose the Allagans and the Garleans.. but I would get in trouble if I mentioned the ladder."
21. While growing up, how did you get along with the other members of your family? "I did not see my father much.. he was always away.. when he would come back, it would always be those blissful few days for me, that kept me going. My mother.. we love each other. But... I can't relate to her. There is something there, whether it be her ears or tail or my own.. there is this, distance.. that keeps me from being nurtured by her."
22. As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up? "An Allagan. I just wanted to be some sort of... higher being."
23. As a child, what were your favorite activities? "I remember fondly...I used to enjoy tending to the garden in the back yard. I remember vividly having to.. help my mother do it. I would sit there with the box of seeds as she planted them..
I remember punching through the air, trying to imitate what I saw in the city.. of the fighting men. But my kind of punching always ended up turning into some kind of meditative flowing movement..
I believe the only thing that.. I still do is stare out of my folding window. Every single night. Track the moon phase, track the stars.. track the men and women entering and leaving the city. Trying to remember them. Trying to simulate the ways of the world using only my head... those, were the good memories of my childhood, I suppose."
24. As a child, what kinds of personality traits did you display? "I.. was a lot more energetic. A lot more bold and a lot more fiery. I believed in everything and anything.. and I had faith."
25. As a child, were you popular? Who were your friends, and what were they like? "Absolutely not, I was treated like waste. Like impure, which I am. My blood is dirty and I was treated as a dirty object would be in a world of pristine cleanliness.
I had one friend, and he was like the only kind of possible influence that kept me from offing myself. Does that make sense? I don't know.
He's dead. My parents were the only ones that treated me with any decency.. that told me they loved, and... gave me a sense of safety at home."
26. When and with whom was your first kiss? "I can't believe this.. people take such things for granted that they ask me questions like this as if it was the norm to have that experience already! Stop teasing me with things I may never have!"
27. Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity? "I said stop! Believe it or not, there is such a thing as individuals whom never had the privileged of being valued by somebody else enough to be touched!"
28. If you are a supernatural being (i.e. mage, werewolf, vampire), tell the story of how you became what you are or first learned of your own abilities. If you are just a normal human, describe any influences in your past that led you to do the things you do today. "The influence of being sheltered for most of your life allowed me to observe the small things in life become the big things. From looking in the looking glass from the outside in, I see the world through different lenses. That different perspective in life influenced my behavior today and defines a large part of who I am on the outside."
Part 3: Past Influences
29. What do you consider the most important event of your life so far? "The day.. I don't wish to talk about it, actually."
30. Who has had the most influence on you? "My father. He has painted everything in my life picture that I desire."
31. What do you consider your greatest achievement? "... I think, just... I don't know, really.. I don't think I have any.. really."
32. What is your greatest regret? "... Letting him go."
33. What is the most evil thing you have ever done? "I looked upon absolutely heinous acts with dead eyes and ears.. those kinds of things, they don't sensitize me anymore.. I grew up with them... my thoughts and my actions, sometimes.. I am very evil in many ways, really."
34. Do you have a criminal record of any kind? "No. I was a good boy."
35. When was the time you were the most frightened? "I.. can't remember. It was some years ago.. But just trying to think about it.. I don't want to. I really don't want to...I can't remember."
36. What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you? "I was once stripped of my clothing, collared, and forced to bark for people lest they lash me dry.. being forced to act like an animal.. and the such. Far from the only time.. but probably the worst time."
37. If you could change one thing from your past, what would it be, and why? "That I was born a pure Hyur Midlander. So that my entire life could be rewritten. So that my life wouldn't have been such hell."
38. What is your best memory? "My first memories. When my dad was home and my mom was smiling and I was their golden boy.."
39. What is your worst memory? "I think of bad things, and ...I have a feeling that something very bad happened but.. I can't, I don't really know. If it was real or not.. or if I'm remembering it correctly.. I remember a face, that of an angel's.. that's all."
Part 4: Beliefs And Opinions
40. Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic? "Pessimistic.. but not by nature.. not by nature at all. It was forced on me.. and I'd rather see the greener side of the lot if I'm allowed to."
41. What is your greatest fear? "That I... am nothing. That my purpose on this world is.. nothing."
42. What are your religious views? "I believe that there are higher forces on this planet and I intend one day to be able to communicate to them on a high enough footing to be able to do so.. though I do not blindly worship any god and expect favors, or dance for them like puppets.. I expect them to come to me. I expect to EARN their favor.. and I shall strive to do so."
43. What are your political views? "I believe that progress is the natural evolution of a civilization. I believe that traditions need to evolve just as technology needs to. I believe that the smartest, and the strongest of civilization should be the leaders, and set an example for others to follow. I believe weakness and trying to uplift hopeless cases are a waste of time, and nature will kill them off. I believe in a government that will do what is right.. not what is ethical."
44. What are your views on sex? "I was raised where love and affection were commonly shared about friends. The value of the body is equal to the value of the mind. The element of lust follows me with women, and my thought often are eager to quickly jump to the female figure and imagining the taste of her lips.. but if.. if a moment were to come in my life where I would value someone immensely of my own gender.. so will I value their body."
45. Are you able to kill? Under what circumstances do you find killing to be acceptable or unacceptable? "Yes. I believe I would be. I am no.. peace loving individual. I will kill if it needs to be done. However, I am not a butcher. I will kill only if my soul compels me to. Killing is acceptable when it is either needed, or feels appropriate. One needs to not rely on the morals of society, but of themselves...and neither be afraid of.. or immediately resort to, killing."
46. In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do? "Hold themselves back. Refuse to change. Refuse to dream. Refuse to evolve. Refusing to spread their wings. To prevent society from raising itself. This is the most evil deed of men. Disguised as a virtue."
47. Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love? "Yes. Absolutely yes. I believe that is the purest form of affection. Untainted by experiences or culture."
48. What do you believe makes a successful life? "If you feel as if you matter in the world. If you feel as if you have reached a pinnacle. If you feel as if that the reason you were born in this world was fulfilled. If you've lived up to your own expectations."
49. How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings (i.e. do you hide your true self from others, and in what way)? "I am as honest as any man could be. That is one of my values. We are creatures of truth, and the indecent, horrific act of hiding our faces and moods and feelings from others is a silly elementary fallacy and needs to stop. We need to be honest with one another.. and we need to be open."
50. Do you have any biases or prejudices? "Men and women who refuse to evolve. Men and women whom's cultures refuse to evolve. It does not take a genius to be able to decipher that."
51. Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it? "I am a man who consistently learns from his experience, and is ever evolving. Even if I were to tell you something I absolutely would not do, it would only count for right now in time. Later in life, I may have to do it, or even willingly do it for that matter. Therefore, I really cannot answer that. However.. do not expect me dancing a fool in the mud with face paint any time soon."
52. Who or what, if anything, would you die for (or otherwise go to extremes for)? "...I would die for progress. I would die to see my visions become reality. For others, not for myself, hence why I would die for it. Nothing would be happier in my book to die for that favor I wish to grant the world and it's people."
Part 5: Relationships With Others
53. In general, how do you treat others (politely, rudely, by keeping them at a distance, etc.)? Does your treatment of them change depending on how well you know them, and if so, how? "I treat others rather politely, and calmly. I am naturally curious of their personalities, and I tend to immediately try to form some kind of spiritual connection with them. I will be no stranger to their jests, or for that matter, being open and truthful. There is nothing holding me back.
As time passes, and the connection becomes stronger, I become increasingly motivated to treat their very existence with value, and am sure to let them know it. I intend to treat them with wonderful experiences and become a permanent shoulder to cry on.."
54. Who is the most important person in your life, and why? "I.. don't really have any at this point.. my father is only but a distant picture at this point.."
55. Who is the person you respect the most, and why? "I respect my father the most. Because of all that he's done and how he is such a happy and satisfied man despite the hardships he went through."
56. Who are your friends? Do you have a best friend? Describe these people. "Heh.. to have friends."
57. Do you have a spouse or significant other? If so, describe this person. "In a fantasy world, I may have one."
58. Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened. "Expecting me to just simply describe love.. and to tell you whom I've loved, look, I'm not a simple person, okay? Love.. is just weird. It feels weird and it makes you do weird things. It's the best.. damn feeling in the world.. is that enough?"
59. What do you look for in a potential lover? "I look for the solution.. I know that's a vague statement. Let me see.. I look for everything I would find in the element of hope for 'humanity'.. I look for an individual whom values me.. views me as preciously in this world as I do they.. I look for an individual with a mentality above the populace and the ability to dream and dive in the waters of life with me head first without fear..
To be inspired by them as well as to inspire them as well, I suppose.. like two dancing souls entwined in flame."
60. How close are you to your family? "Pretty close, but it's not like I had a choice.. I had to depend on them. They were my only friends."
61. Have you started your own family? If so, describe them. If not, do you want to? Why or why not? "I.. I would want to, yeah.. when I'm older. But.. to ask me, why? ..I don't know if I'm old enough to think about that yet, umm.. because I want to be a dad some day, when I'm strong.. and less of a fool.. with a woman I'd love till the ends of the earth."
62. Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help? "..I don't know. I have no one."
63. Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who, and why? "My father.. I just know he'd.. have to be there. Because he's a hero, right? So he'd be there.."
64. If you died or went missing, who would miss you? "..."
65. Who is the person you despise the most, and why? "There's no one person.. but I would say everyone in my childhood... and why? .. Do you remember the story about my barking?.. Add fifty more stories and there you go. Simple."
66. Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict? "I tend to argue. I have a fiery soul still, and one that begs to be heard, even in the midst of people who believe me to be wrong.
However.. I always end up awkwardly doing so.. I have this massive urge to shut up to avoid more hatred towards me.. I've had enough of that already."
67. Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations? "Yes and no.. it depends on the atmosphere. I tend to lead when it comes to the elements of life I excel at.."
68. Do you like interacting with large groups of people? Why or why not? "I am envious when it comes to large crowds.. because they all seem so happy and marvelous.. I tend to grow ever more shy, but.. I wish I like it. I don't like it. But I wish to. In a perfect world.."
69. Do you care what others think of you? "Yes... yes. My life is incomplete and.. empty, when I am alone. It is only through the appreciation of others that I stand tall with them. I do not trust my own judgement of myself.. even if it is positive."
Part 6: Likes And Dislikes
70. What is/are your favorite hobbies and pastimes? "I do enjoy the performing arts... when it comes to acting, and... dancing, and singing. Though I easily get embarrassed.. however, it tickles me to death, and I love it. I also love reading, and art in general.. the nightly walks and philosophy .. all of those elements combined makes up my passions in life."
71. What is your most treasured possession? "..My father's Couerl-Head Necklace that he passed down to me.. I do not wear it yet.. for I fear to be undeserving of it."
72. What is your favorite color? "Any shade of blue.."
73. What is your favorite food? "Marmot Steak."
74. What, if anything, do you like to read? "I dive deep into any kind of book involving the secrets of the past, a past in which we have yet to comprehend. The Allagan Empire.. anything about them, really. Anything about philosophy, or of.. predicting the future of society.
Though as a young man I was also fascinated with.. fairy tales. And novels. I understand that these stories were written from the heart, unlike how people act to each other nowadays so.. I treat stories as a more pure form of expressing feelings."
75. What is your idea of good entertainment (consider music, movies, art, etc.)? "A well done, top-tier play. Beautiful music from around the world... Gorgeous paintings.. the finest wines.. dancing.. the such."
76. Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? If so, why? Do you want to quit? "I drink a little bit more then people give me credit for.. I drink in order to get rid of my reasoning sometimes.. if you've been there, you would understand.. sometimes I need to say or do things that I couldn't without alcohol.. it's a shame that I need it, but..
I don't want to quit."
77. How do you spend a typical Saturday night? "Saturday? What's a Saturday? ..Every day was the same for me, for a long time. I was blessed enough to be able to attend plays and banquets, however.. those were fun."
78. What makes you laugh? "Anything witty. Anything that surprises me without threatening me."
79. What, if anything, shocks or offends you? "Barbarianism."
80. What would you do if you had insomnia and had to find something to do to amuse yourself? "Light a candle, and treat myself to spilling my thoughts in ink."
81. How do you deal with stress? "I don't. The ways I've tried to deal with it aren't suitable for this interview."
82. Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan? "When the emotions get the better of me.. I am spontaneous as all hell. But besides that, I always end up having a plan anyhow."
83. What are your pet peeves? "I absolutely despise lack of refinement. Filth. Dunces. Fools who are ignorant by choice and not by fault. Fools who do not think of consequences. Fools who have wronged me."
Part 7: Self Images And Etc.
84. Describe the routine of a normal day for you. How do you feel when this routine is disrupted? "My normal day consists of waking up.. eating breakfast with the family, then piano practice.. by the mid day I am out and about and probably getting abused because of my blood. I drink my aftertoon tea back home while fibbing about the black eye and then it's dance recital, where no girls wants to hold my hand.
By evening I fib about the other black eye and then it's dinner. Afterwords I am up for vocal practice. Which I had probably done earlier before while being punched in the face.
Then I have the rest of the evening myself behind a locked door. Any break from this routine is fully welcomed, as I was thinking of actually speaking to my fluffy canopy bed the other day. If you detected satire in this, congratulations, but there's a lot of truth to this."
85. What is your greatest strength as a person? "I... see things from outside the looking glass, and dare to spread my wings.."
86. What is your greatest weakness? "..That what others have said about me in my past became who I define myself as."
87. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? "..I would get rid of these ears and tail.. if I couldn't do that.. I would change the part of me that self-loaths over my past memories... then I could move on."
88. Are you generally introverted or extroverted? "Intro-..Extro-.. I don't even know."
89. Are you generally organized or messy? "Organized."
90. Name three things you consider yourself to be very good at, and three things you consider yourself to be very bad at. "I am very good at soul-to-soul conversations. I am very good at beautifying. I am very good at expressing my feelings.
I am very bad at coping with stress. I am very bad at moving on from past pains. I am very bad at being my father."
91. Do you like yourself? "..."
92. What are your reasons for being an adventurer (or doing the strange and heroic things that RPG characters do)? Are your real reasons for doing this different than the ones you tell people in public? (If so, detail both sets of reasons…) "My reasons involve only the past nineteen years of suffering that I experienced being sheltered. I want to see the world. I want to see and live in the world and be treated not like garbage or like a king, but like a PERSON.
I want to see how people live. I want to see the horizon from somewhere else beside my damn home! I want to venture and I want to cross the roads that my ancestors did! I want to see everything! .. I want to improve life in all that I can and be the angel of healing to society!
...In public, I suppose it's easier to say.. that I do this because I want to."
93. What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime? "I want to outdo my father.. and live up to the reputation of those brilliant individuals of a higher plane that walked this planet so long ago.. so that when I die, I may rest with them. Or better yet.. to learn from their mistakes.. and rise even higher! And pull all of humanity up with me!"
94. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? "I see myself.. no longer a stumbling lamb.. no longer brought down by the weight of his youth. I see myself on the field of war but unafraid and even still, untouched.."
95. If you could choose, how would you want to die? ".. I would want to die on the very floor of .. the result of my dreams coming true. I would want to die seeing.. my visions come to life.. I want to see them like how a father wants to see the face of his child right after its birth.. before I take my last breath.. I want to see that heaven, before I see any other."
96. If you knew you were going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left. "If I knew I was going to die... I would.. I would tell everyone how much I loved.. despite whether or not they loved me.. I would write down the very elements of myself and my dreams for the world.. in hopes that someone would carry it on for me.
And then I would end it before the 24 hours were over.. for there would be nothing left for me to do besides wait. I've done enough waiting in my life."
97. What is the one thing for which you would most like to be remembered after your death? ".. I would want to be remembered for.. blazing the way. Blazing the way for progress and for better lives for all of us. To set an example for everyone like my father did.. to be known as a man above men who inspired everyone to be all whom they could be.. a man worth mourning for when he died.. a man who deserved it."
98. What three words best describe your personality? "Ethereal. Visionary. Beacon."
99. What three words would others probably use to describe you? "Complicated. Conflicted. Heartly."
100. If you could, what advice would you, the player, give to your character? (You might even want to speak as if he or she were sitting right here in front of you, and use proper tone so he or she might heed your advice…)
Listen to me.. Ryanti.. stop thinking about it. Stop thinking about how you're going to be happy. Stop thinking about what it's going to take. Stop thinking about trying to be like your father, or like the Allagans. Stop doing that. Stop thinking yourself as nothing and stop trying to be everything.
Be.. you. The you, that you have in there, Ryanti, is immensely special and unique because of how your mind turned out to be. Use THAT. Be YOU. You have 'it' inside of you, you need to relax! Don't think too much about it! Just do! The beauty in yourself will come out of hiding if you just let it all go!
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