Nyagi's Journal

[Ghostinthecat]

(I would like some help with IC dates if it's possible to be accurate to a 'T', otherwise for now this will be a journal dated in real world format because this is a current and ongoing document.)

 

(Foreward)

 

**Nyagi does not know how to write properly so I will try to depict her lack of writting skills as best I can, however if it is impossible to read or too inconvenient, I'll rewrite events in my typical storytelling format in order to hold a better a more entertaining read. I hope it works out though because -eventually- Nyagi will get better at writing and slowly become affluent in expressing in her journal, but with any luck, I'll successfully be able to express her growth as the days progress and so what will intentionally start out as a difficult and poorly worded autobiography/journal, will lead into what I hope her to be as a self-educated leader, who's stroke of the pen is as flawless as her blade work will become as she too grows in that aspect.**

 

(I'll re-edit this post if ever there is an update/change to what needs to be said here, otherwise read on to the latest post and I hope you all enjoy glimpsing into Nyagi's life.)

[Ghostinthecat]

Dated: (lore equivalent) Dec. 26th, 2014

 

"So I guess Im starting a jornal, a diery or somthing... I dont no. Why am I even doing this? Maybee Im just feeleng (some pen taps) voolnerabell? I can hardlee right as it is, my hand is shaken now. This problee is a waist of time..."

[Ghostinthecat]

Dated: (lore equivalent) Dec. 27th, 2014

 

"First bell of the day and I heer I am skribling in this thing. Maybee I sholdint hav ben so quik to abandon Tyaa... gods no I problee wold be tahkin to her abot my problems insted of skeratching on this payper... I sond like a crayzee person, tahkin to herself."

 

(later entry)

 

"I shold make a note if I loose this thing, that I want too leev som record of myself for gods no's why... and I want too say mor... but it feels weird riting in this thing. It's like Im leeving bred crums for somone to follow... I gess Im doing this becuz Im, honestlee, kinda scared and if somthing were to hapen. I dont want to be forgoten. *hastly scratched* --But this feels stoopid nonetheless.--"

[Ghostinthecat]

((Dang, lol. Just want to say writting intentionally poorly is downright physically painful and difficult as hell to do.))

 

Dated: (lore equivalent) Dec. 28th, 2014

 

"I thenk seeing as Im agan, returning to this book... this papeirus? (papyrus) bound in Aldgoat lether, problee tells me Im ether going insane, or I dont know... It has a certan comfort, putting my thots somplace other than swurling in my hed.

 

I met late the other day a lalafell, Roorookee? (Rurukki Ruki) who claims too be a "wordsmith"... maybee she can help me with my riting. I do feel beter putting my thots heer, but I'v had beter luk restling a peeyoogill (pugil) with my bar hands than I am restling this paper."

 

(later entry)

 

"I want to go bak to the inn but this is feer... the reson I so hastlee piked up jornal riting... is becuz Im being stalked by a murderer... they want my hed. --Gods, cant get a grip. My hand is shaken agan. Why did that scare me so much? ...Ul'dah is a hole different level of dangeross... Id trade back to just deeling with rogues in Limsa on my own for ever... --no. I just need to get a ahold of myself."

 

(later entry)

 

"Almost erased that last bit. I gess Im the onlee person reding this so I shold be OK. Kind of helps even putting my feer on this paper."

[Ghostinthecat]

(I might drop the poor spelling. If I am on a roll, I might just have her suddenly be a lot more confident in her writing and for sake of flow, not bother putting in artificial errors. Some sections I tried to maintain the spelling error stuff, but meh, good thought, hard to follow through. My OCD has never felt so bad than trying to write well by writing poorly.)

 

Dated: (Lore Equivalent) Dec. 29th, 2014

 

"Wel, I guess thers a bunch of stuf that hapened today. I ended up talking to Karase, a Keeper who dances for a living? He said he'd start teeching me and Tyaa the ways of the old tribes, and today he folowed throogh with his promiss with the first oficial lesson.

 

Oh, you should have seen how many Keepers showed up that day. I can't really remember their names too good, but there was a second born, another female that'd been taken in before like Karase was willing to do with me and Tyaa. Oh! and Xha showed up, haha, albeit he was hiding in a corner. He seems really timid but I dunno. There's something about him that strikes me funny. I'll keep testing him and see if he don't nudge into be something worth pursuing. I always wanted to find a little dimond in the ruf.

 

But the lesson, right. Karase says that females are the ones in charg of providing and leeding for the tribes while the males typicaly take care of their young. He taught us about the meaning behind naming offspring the way they do. Females are given a unique name at birth to signify the beginning of a new tribe matriarch. Males receive the mother's name with a suffix to signify which born son they are in the tribal line. So had I'd been born a male, I might have a major clue to my family I lost. Nyagi is all I ever knew to call myself since I was little. But I don't know my last name. I might never discover who my tribe was.-- but! That aside, Karase's lesson was quite the eye opener. I feel as though I've gone through some sort of paradigm shift. Keepers of the Moon revere females... we are like a reflection of Menphina or something in their traditions. So kind of explains why I'm a bit of a firecracker when I feel I'm being looked down on. Karase also mentioned that it is not always, but typical that Keepers maintain a sort of... polyamorous lifestyle? Within the tribes, I guess it's practiced amongsted peers to have fleeting and multiple romances with others, not necessarily as solely committed to one lover. Not in the sense like Hyur people practice. So that's something to mill over. I feel like it'd be natural, if anything. I mean, goodness, I play games so much with all sorts, maybe it'll be the same to take it that next step further..? I sense a moral dilemma approaching, but for another time perhaps...

 

I'm sure there were other revelations in that lesson, however this is by far the longest entry I've put in my journal to date and I've still much to discuss. The hour draws late and the next bell is just beyond the horizon so I will try to be succincted.

 

I was surprised when Tyaa said she didn't want to do the tribal stuf with me, after I'd acepted the ofer. Karase had said some kind of odd things here and there, probably hinting to a hidden ilk towards anything and anyone outside of Keeper tradition, but I'm going to play hells' advocate and assume it's just because of how passionate he is in preserving the Keeper traditions. He almost crossed a line, seeming to attack Ninifae's friend, whom I think is Leih'a, I don't know, call it a hunch, haha. But he was probably just perplexed at to how a hyur/keeper mix even adapts to society. I guess to some it just comes off as really odd. I mean personally, it probably is a threat to culture and tradition to mate with others outside of race. It's like a saying I picked up years ago from a goodie two-shoe adventurer: "Just because it's possible, does it make it right?" -- I forget the reason he said that, but I think it applies here. I mean, if I started popping out kits that ended up not being kits but little blue Roegadyn's or heaven forbid, lalafellin kits..? That kind of seems just too weird for me to even tarry on the thought. Not to mention, I mean, what would it do to the little one? Being brought into a world where neither society would accept them? It wouldn't be fair. --Ah, well ranting aside... I promised to be succincted, gods damn it, haha. Just one more thing, little bookie.

 

Tyaa and I finally had come to a head with our fighting. Oh how embarrassed I was though in the midst of it, because Xha had shown up at one point to let me vent... Anyways, I got mad at her again, and asked her to go. Then she, once again, follows me when I didn't want her to follow... it was a mess. I'm just going to cut out all the fluff and jot down that I finally gave up and reconciled with Tyaa later on that night. Tyaa came to me later that night while I was at the Quicksand, and just apologised... I guess I finally broke down after that. I don't think what I was mad at her for was worth the point of pushing her away. I think if there were something actually wrong between me and her, it'd come up with renewed clarity or if it was just me having an off week, we'd move past it. Either way I dragged Tyaa away from the drone of the Quicksand and spoke frankly with her at the fountain in the Steps of Thal. I guess being just straight forward was all she wanted because when I finally worked in my head what was wrong, and then expressed it to Tyaa, I felt like we finally understood each other a bit more. So I'm going to just let bygones be bygones and give it another try. I mean, she loves me so I shouldn't push her away for feeling that way towards me.

 

Anyways, I'm about to faint from exhaustion. Looking at this compared to what I wrote before, it's kind of embarrassing the earlier entries. Oh well... but goes to show how awesome today was."

[Ghostinthecat]

(I'm having a character redesign. This is up for fun to read and I might continue the story later, but meh, it's not something I'm feeling and so I'm gonna drop this to alternate reality status and not to be taken ICly)