Razamir Lahoka

Entry Two: Waking Nightmare How long have I been in this world now? Time seems to have no real value here. I've tried to keep track of how long I've been here in this journal, but I seemed to have lost track of the days. Day and night seem to come at will it seems. The war has seemed to stop now. These days I am plagued by images from my past. More specifically my brother. He taunts me now endlessly about the death of my love. He tries to confuse and torment me with images of her death. I know she lives, or I believe she does. Before I was taken I know I saw her alive yet he shows me images of her dead. Over and over he shows me her death. I can't let him break me down, I won't survive this place if I do. He shows me the death of my keeper friend. He blames me, he said it was my fault she died. If I hadn't let my love die, then she wouldn't have had to die. He continues to show me her death. He shows me how beaten and bruised she was, he claims these were my fault for attacking him. I don't know how much longer I can take this. Days drag on, and he shows me the death of my tribesmen. He blames me for their deaths. Each day I see a new one's death. It wears at my sanity, let this torment end. Night comes finally, it seems the torment has come to an end. Let these nightmares haunt me no more.

“Five years.. Five long years, stuck in what I can only explain in words as purgatory.” Before you is a large weather beaten and worn journal. The first entry is written clearly, and neatly. Entry One: Purgatory The last thing I remember is seeing her sit up but was it a trick of my mind? I can’t be sure considering how distraught I was. I remember speaking to her just before everything went to hell and Bahamut unleashed his wrath, but I can’t even be sure she is okay. It seems I have awakened in a world that looked very much similar to our own. At first I couldn't tell anything was different. As time went by I started to notice things were not right. I awoke to a fog covered landscape. It was as if everything had a fine mist over it. I looked around as things started to form in the mists. I called out hoping to be greeted by someone I knew, one of my tribesmen or even my lover. The only response I was greeted with was the business end of a gunblade. My body moved of its own will, my hand finding one of the many daggers I hand on, and let it fly like a screaming arrow through the mist. I was rewarded with a bloody spray and the last sounds of a man dying. My mind raced as went to search the fallen person. It was a Garlean solider; my thoughts quickly went to the worst scenario. Did the Garleans win? Why were they out here, could they be searching for survivors? I searched his person, and took his rations, and his supplies. It wasn't long before the sounds of more footsteps seemed to grow closer, as well as the sound of heavy machina. I ran into the mists hoping I would somehow be able to find my bearing and figure out just exactly where in the seven hells I was. Oh, how I couldn't have been more wrong. As I ran, the mists seem to thin out, finally giving way to a view that looked very familiar. It would seem at first that I was still on the same battlefield from that night. Every instinct I had told me this place had something very wrong about it. As I made it into the clearing in front of me the mists seemed to vanish all at once, leaving me in the wide open plains, underneath that damn red moon. It's accursed glow bathing the entire landscape in an eerie red, foreshadowing the blood that was destined to be spilled. A moment later, the screams of war, overwhelmed my senses. With my ears folded down, I scanned the scene unfolding out before me. This was the battle that happened that fateful night. What did I do to deserve this nightmare... The writing trails off...

I wont be posting here anymore after this. We (meaning me and my wife ie Razamir and Rhynka) have made an apology to the people we have offended on here as we never meant to. http://ffxiv-roleplayers.com/showthread.php?tid=3035&pid=37254#pid37254

To clarify we " me and my wife " are apologizing for our opinions that led to hurt feelings.

We would like to say this to everyone that feels we may have insulted them in some way shape or form. When we post on these forums that is never our intent. We merely wish to make our opinions known. We can not take back anything that was hurtful that we said, even though I'm not exactly sure what these things were, but as it has been pointed out, our opinions have seemed insulting to some. We can only ask that people forgive us, as that was never our intent. Whether the individuals that feel we have wronged them, or others, do is their own choice. We sincerely, and humbly make this apology to them. For those that wish to know what we are apologizing over it is this thread http://ffxiv-roleplayers.com/showthread.php?tid=2961

So discussing their senses, which make them stand apart from the typical human with kitty ears and tails concept. Such as their strength, and to what limit how much stronger than a human they are, their flexibility and agility compared to said humans. Their sense of smell which is the equivalent of a blood hounds nose ie follow a scent that is 300+ hours cold. Which makes them far superior trackers than humans. Their eyes which are better than a humans, and their ears, which can hear more than a human. This is limiting? Considering there is no set standard for these, wouldn't it make sense to discuss these topics, and get a collective opinion on the matter, so you wont have people saying they cant do that or this, or that is god-modding or meta-gaming. Your right CULTURE of the race, is nice to build upon, but focusing solely on the mating of said race, isnt all there is to its culture. Their daily habits, the food they eat, their music, their art, their writing, their language, considering the miqot'e have their own language none of the other races can speak, they changed their language so the other races could talk to them, and adapted to the more common tongue. the list goes on and on. Considering culture originally meant the cultivation of the soul or mind. Things like I said would be more fitting to their culture. I think if you want to focus on the "culture of the race, it wouldn't be solely on the habits of their mating. I liked your post, but seeing as it seems to mix qualities of both keeper and seeker, ie female leader when seekers are a patriarchal ( Male leaders) society and keepers are a matriarchal (Female leaders.) Im not sure how the mating habits really influenced it at all. As you have stated Nuhns aren't typiclaly leaders, but considering the whole of the seeker culture is patriarchal it would only make sense their leader would more than likely be a male.

I have to agree, with you NKato. Wholeheartedly on the fact that this topic comes up way to often on forums and in chat. Even as an example this thread is getting more replies than many IC ideas / hell even greeting post by new people. I agree there is being to much read into this one topic, when there are many other things about the seekers that could be speculated on. Hell for one such instance their nose, as per SE " have the noses of hounds." If you bring this topic up, you are shot down as being a metagamer or even godmodder. But to have yourself be a nuhn and have an ic reason to try and "mate" with as many females as possible, which could possibly turn very bad icly, will likely turn out to have more metagaming than the use of their nose. Before anyone wants to argue that it wont be metagaming/godmodding, take into account people that would abuse this will generally only rp with your character if they think they have a shot at getting something. Otherwise you will be totally invisible to them icly. Which mean they will be taking ooc knowledge of the fact that your character will or wont do something for them and use it to determine whether their character will even acknowledge you icly. That or they will use blackmail to try and force you to rp with them, such as " if you don't do this I wont rp with you anymore." I doubt this will be done aloud, but in some form or another it boils down to that statement. Now before anyone says they have to agree, yes they do, but lets take this into account, say your character has a nuhn, and your nuhn is challenged and beaten icly by a tia character. Okay you now have a nice new shiny nuhn. Perhaps your character had feelings for the other nuhn, who is now dead/banished/crippled etc. Now because of whatever reason or another your character isnt going to be to happy with said new nuhn. Your either going to be ignored, if you dont want to be a part of that "breeding" process, or you will get the ooc statement of, if you dont want to do that, i just wont rp with you. As mentioned above. Because lets face it, there are people who would use this to their advantage, Yes there are people who will not even try to rp with you if they arent able to get something from your character. Not saying these people are bad people, they might be your friends oocly but when it comes to rp you will be invisible to them. tldr = Why are people focusing on the mating so much of this race, when there are many more aspects to focus on, str/stam/agi their senses ie noses, eyesight, hearing. etc. Unless alot of people are planning on doing just this " breeding." Should it really matter if not? I personally think , if any aspect of the nuhn thing should be focused on is their other duties, such as protecting their lands/ clan members, hunting etc.

Love the story keep up the awesome work ^ . ^

As for my alt Kojin This would be the most suitable theme I can think of for him. I changed my mind. This is Kojin 's Theme. 6oRcRjPT9_U

v6Ssg-i4T4I 0V7aUT13qtM This would be Razamir's Theme. I love listening to this when rping with him. I have many songs that I listen to depending on the scene etc.. but as far as a theme goes, this is my choice for him. Also the second seems to fit him very nicely as well.

Looks awesome! I love how Raz turned out. And you said you couldn't draw guys.

Gambit and Rogue were my two fav comic book heros. Still to this day I love these two.. It really makes me sad how they portrayed him in the origins movie. I just loved his flare, and how he was always the smooth talker. And Rogue, other than being my fav was Rhynka's fav as well.

i think this is a great idea. Keep up the good work.

Pure awesomeness. Keep up the good work Rock. I know we will be rolling an alt on Gilgamesh, seeing as we have not decided where we will be going yet. If you need any help, I would be willing to give what help I could. And I agree new rpers are the life blood of the community. Which I give you all the more props for being willing to take in and help as many as you can.

I agree with Rhynka, I would like to see both sides of the playing field, as I have met some really cool rpers who have said they wish to stay on Gilgamesh, as well as some really cool people who are going to Balmung. That being said, I did vote for Gilgamesh but I havent made my decision either way. After getting a look a each community "IF" there is another server, I will then decided where my main will go.