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Hello, Lililove I'm finishing up a few commissions this and next week and was wondering if you would be interested in commissioning me if my style is to your liking: http://ffxiv-roleplayers.com/showthread.php?tid=16040 I also remembered that your name was on the waitlist a few months before and I didn't get a reply, but if you are no longer interested in being on the waitlist, please let me know QuQ;;; I'm, um, actually having a harder time reaching most members, so I really appreciate your reading this. Thank you Hey! Sorry about not hearing back from me! I think that was when I got busy with a lot of family members and company being around and was also drowning in a lot of messages. I love your style and will message you tonight when I get home! Ah, it's okay--I understand that life happens QuQ Thank you for letting me know. Good luck with everything today and I'll be waiting patiently ^^

Hello, Lililove I'm finishing up a few commissions this and next week and was wondering if you would be interested in commissioning me if my style is to your liking: http://ffxiv-roleplayers.com/showthread.php?tid=16040 I also remembered that your name was on the waitlist a few months before and I didn't get a reply, but if you are no longer interested in being on the waitlist, please let me know QuQ;;; I'm, um, actually having a harder time reaching most members, so I really appreciate your reading this. Thank you

Ah, thank you so much for your interest O//A//O I'll add you right away and will notify you when it's your turn C: Thank you in advance for your patience!

Awww, thank you, I'll be honored .//u//. And thank you for letting me know--please take as long as you need to find a job--that's far more important--I'll be cheering for you >//u//<)b I don't update it as much as I used to, but I will try to soon, and will follow you back Thank you so much for the watch!

Hello! Thank you so much for your question! My commissions are always open, but I usually work through my waitlist. A few people haven't contacted me at all, so I apologize for the additional confusion QAQ If you are still interested, I can add you to my waitlist and notify you when more slots have opened up ^^ Please let me know ^^ And gosh, thank you so much for liking my art... I'm glad that my years of hard work paid off Q////Q As for original characters, I am fine with those Many of my commissions over the years have been for original characters. Thank you again for your comment and please let me know if you have any other questions ^^ I would love to be added to your wait list! My question is when you do a commission...is it sent to the person who ordered it or is it just online? Hello, I apologize for the extremely-belated reply Q-Q;;; I don't know why I'm not getting email notifications from here anymore QAQ If you are still interested, I'd be more than happy to add you to the wait-list, but if not, I totally understand ^^ To answer your previous question: I usually send my commissioners their commissions digitally through my stash site. Commissions are generally mixed media watercolor--some watercolor combined with some digital elements. No one has requested the originals yet, but if they did, I could send them in a mailer reinforced with cardboard for a small shipping fee usually about $4-$5 within the US. Please let me know if you have any other questions and thank you again for your time! C:

Gosh, thank you so much for your kind words, Leih Q//~//Q I've been doing my best to not let them get to me. I kind of regressed before I had ample time to reply to your advice and encouragement properly, but I'm slightly better now Q//A//Q)b Q//~//Q I just hope that as I'm writing this, that you're okay... *hugs* If you're not okay, please know that I'm cheering for you to beat it soon, and if you're well, I want you to know that I'm also here cheering for your future happy events C: *sends you moogles and nutkins* <33333

Omigoodness, for the longest time, I thought I was alone in my actions... Starting this thread helped me learn more from you and every one who's either also gone through or knew people who have... Thank you so much for your sympathy and for sharing your experiences Q-Q I haven't gotten medication for my depression and anxiety, but I did recently buy multivitamins to help deal with the imbalanced biochemistry. A few years ago, that was what worked, and I hope that it's not too late to give it a try again. But if things get worse and I can't progress with my work, I will definitely make an appointment with my doctor. I'm doing my best to cope with it now with what I can myself because I'm afraid of burdening anyone ;; I hope that it's enough if I put all of my willpower into it *^*)b And ahhh, thank you so much, Xerintha! *hugs you back* I'm cheering for you, too~! May all of the bad feelings go away so that you can continue what keeps you happy *sends you happy feels with a bunch of moogles and nutkins* <33333

Thank you, Lililove Q//~//Q I do feel a bit bad because it can get out of control sometimes...and can be kind of unprofessional on top of my anxiety. I wish there was a way I could put it in my Terms of Service...because I always don't want to worry commissioners...but at the same time... I'm usually trying to recover and either get sucked in by the negativity or by...the art itself in an attempt to regain my love for art @-@;;; I tend to offer complete redos of any botched commissions (for everyone in the FFXIV community, at least), but...the anxiety makes me kind of uncertain... I'm doing my best to cope, though, and have instead made a tumblr for everyone to keep track *A*)b in addition to getting back to volunteering at the hospital (I've been able to make patients smile, so that's always a plus). Thanks again, Lililove, for your advice and encouragement Q//~//Q

Q//~//Q Gosh, thank you so much, LiadansWhisper... I'm going to take your advice >A<)b Thank you for your kindness and support, too O//~//O I will definitely let you know (and ahhh, your words speak the truth--I wish I had more backbone to tell off that kid ;; ). And I'm doing just that OuO)b <33333 Thank you again for spreading good feels!

Wow, I'm really happy to know that you have 99% positive ratings, though (It's quite mean-spirited of that 1%, however. Good thing negatives are so rare for you ;; I'm sure that you worked hard to obtain your skills, and you don't need people spreading lies like that... I can sympathize with that Q-Q I had 1 commissioner a few years back lie about my business practices when he made up an imaginary person to slander me...and I barely started doing commissions back then, so there weren't many positives or anyone who would be willing to stand up for me. I was already depressed and overworked before he posted it up, and after I responded to him, he privately berated me like I was trash. Even the sole project I worked on for another client on those same forums had all of my art pulled and replaced even though they initially liked my work. As a freelancer yourself with so many positive ratings and highly valued skills, I hope that you never, ever have to come across anyone like I did, this type of "client from h***" Q^Q I'm quite grateful when people tell me "take as much time as you need, I understand..." But those were very similar to what he said long ago, and he ended up treating me as subhuman... I'm still very fearful of that, but my limited time, energy, social anxiety and risk of further depression make it all the more difficult. I'm trying, though... I love creating art, and I can't thank everyone enough, including you, for all of your advice and encouragement.

Thank you so much, LystAP Q//A//Q I'm still touched that you have it for your portrait ./////. And thank you--ahhh, but gosh, I know that you have the potential to create even more awesome things! O//u//O)b Q//~//Q And again, thank you, LystAP. I'm taking small steps in the face of some hardships, but it's far better than where I was before. I greatly appreciate your encouragement, patience and understanding.

Thank you so much, Roen Q//^//Q It was definitely a great joy being able to draw Rae and to know that you really liked your commission .////. I'll do my best to listen to you and every kind soul who has commented Q//~//Q My art professor also said something to those lines about pricing...so I just have to get over this bubble of negativity and take yours and everyone's advice to heart. Thank you again, Roen. I'm barely taking small steps forward after taking a few backwards, but I'm definitely going to do my best to feel better so I can continue making more people happy with my art C:

Q//~//Q Awwww, thank you so much, Aya... ;/////; I'm going to do my best to focus my motivation on everyone's smiles at the end of each commission, like I did before. And gosh, thanks QuQ)b I'm definitely working towards starting and finishing more commissions so that I can add more options people may like ^^ It's already a lot of fun inching towards the start of every commission--just have to keep at it as often as I can C:

Q^Q Aww, thank you so much, PhantasticPanda... It's just been hard feeling that I wasted my elderly parents' efforts (I've never had grandparents because my parents were already over middle age and their parents had already passed by then), but I'm going to follow your advice. They supported me regardless of my successes or failures in art, and the best thing I can do is move on from my mistakes and improve. And thank you so much for sharing your college experiences with me, too, PhantasticPanda... I remember feeling that way. I found that so long as you take your time into figuring out what you really want to do, like you said, that any time seen as "lost" before will just be like time you put in for your future. So long as you're happy and can afford the necessities and tiny rewards every now and then, I think that's what matters at the end of the college road C: I hope that everything's well for you now, though, and if not, please know that I'll also be cheering for your happiness and successes, too ^^

Gosh, Caspar... Thank you so much for your kind comment and all of your encouragement (even if you say you're not good at it--it sure picked me up a lot Q//~//Q). ...I...honestly...find it very difficult to say anything positive about myself...but... Thank you so much, Caspar, for seeing the specks of good in me. I want to do my best to be like you described so that I can move on to do nice things for others. It really means a lot to me that so many trusted me with their beloved characters, and I don't want to let them down. Thank you again, Caspar. I'm going to try harder to get over this social anxiety/depression slump and communicate properly C: