Daeva

Since coming to this server to actually roleplay and not just do content it's been one hell of a ride even if I've played other MMO's and MUD's before at a young age. From someone who has been there... Taking a chance to walk up and start talking to someone is so worth it. You won't always strike gold (as explained below) but I've met incredible people that make it worth it over my time playing! Lately it's just the dedication of roleplay. You can't really just talk to someone random and be like "ermahgerd-wanna-do-long-plot-together?" cos that doesn't always work. Schedules. Job. Family. OOC. Being out of practice takes a lot of confidence outta you so I'm still trying to figure out how to connect A to B and approach someone about a serious RP and since I'm new... I wonder if I won't have anywhere to fit in since everyone has their own groups/storylines going on. I wanna be included but I don't wanna intrude, yanno? I had to find out the hard way that there are some undercover people who are all about the badonk and it really made me wonder if I should tone done Daeva's personality. I'd become friends with a person and we'd eventually plot something while ooc chatting and doing some content. They seem hella cool at first until I either don't agree to something they want (usually some "u want some fuk???" smut that comes in WAY too early in our plot and feels unecessary) or start flirting with me oocly (usually involves them asking weird questions and treating me like I'm Daeva or just as flirty as her *SPOILER ALERT-I'M NOT* In the end they'd ghost on me or just drop out of contact and move onto someone else. Real classy, mang. For awhile I thought it was my fault and with me just wanting to fix things I approach them to hash it out but it really just ends in arguing or them making fun of me for not being jive with their "needs". I know I don't have to do things if I'm not comfortable but it still stings, a lot, bc you really believe that they were interested in being your friend. I also feel like hot garbage bc I can't be at every event in my current FC cos I'm usually out and about or still pushing OT at work :c Not something I can really change since real life > roleplay. Silly I know but I can't help but wonder if I'll just fade in the background if I miss everything cool that happens.

Yeesh. So before this thread just becomes a thread of belittling and eventually gets closed down cause folks wanna go at each other or OP for expressing frustration.. I told this to another person who posted something like this on Tumblr. Not sure if you're the same person or not but I'm gonna try to say the same thing of along the lines of hey I totally get it Because we've all been in a rut before and if we don't have friends we've made from another game or RPING in a game full of folks you don't know, it becomes intimidating and lonely for folks. Some people don't remember those times or deal with it another way. (Personally I throw myself in FFXV and just chill with friends and family.) Anyways! It takes a step at a time and some of these folks who happened to be helpful posted some good guidelines but I think you'll be fine if you start small. So! If you're around on the evenings or don't mind PMing on here, feel free to throw me one for RP. Dae is pretty social, talks to anyone and I've met a few people who went through extra mile to include me in plots and contacts. (Ruran, Mae and Alred are a few people to name.) Trust me, Dae could use more buds! I'm moving at the moment and the holidays are coming up but I wanna help.