Hey there, first let me say welcome to the site and ffxiv! I read your post and just wanted to say you're not alone. While I can't relate to having autism, I absolutely know the feeling of being shy and afraid of interacting with others, out of fear of being embarrassed or rejected. But the community of this site, and the game itself as a whole, have been extremely helpful and welcoming to other players.They don't mind helping or showing new players the ropes when it comes to RP or just questions about the game in general, so you don't have to worry about that. We all had to start somewhere, and all it takes is a small step to get started; from what I've read you've already done that! Anyways don't mean to prattle on. I say all this to say that you're not alone, and that you're very much welcome, at least in my book. If you're ever looking for someone to practice RP with, or just have questions about the game, I'd be glad to help if I'm able, as would others. Again welcome, and glad to have another fellow RPer on board