Kage

I think part of my issue with holding out is that one of my best friends in it is sorta holding out for me too. With the weekly lockout etc he's stuck in the core group while he'd love to help me out (and would generally prefer to). I've pugged coil 3 out of four times with at least one FC member except for this past week so it's been great except the first time was because the static couldn't come together at a good time that week and the other times I was with the people who generally are left pugging as well. It's sort of "man if only we weren't locked out we'd love to run it with you but this is also our best shot at it" so I understand why they (general not all) would rather I pug. @synaesthetic: You make wonderful points. ^^ To be very honest, Unity has been very welcoming and kind to me here on RPC. I really appreciated all of the advice and help everyone has given me (even though my own friends had.. helped me go on to make odder decisions about how to gear my BLM >_> <_< >_>). My friends and the FC have been of great help with the end-game area (everyone) up to the point where people start considering Ex primals and coil. I was pretty disheartened when they decided to run Ex primals as an FC last last Sunday. They had hinted or eluded to the fact that hey I'd get to try my shot at Garuda Ex because I'd mentioned having no luck with PF learning groups over it ("we can even take kage along then"). While people were logging on for it, my friends decided that I had reached the level so that I could tank Darkhold. During that time I had started to think that I'd be going with them. Upon exit the 4 party group disbanded, I got on vent and realized that when they said they were only waiting on one tank... they were literally only waiting on one tank. They already had all the DPS they needed (all better geared than I). I stuck around on vent and decided to do my PLD job quests but I eventually grew a little too bitter listening to them so I had to get off it so they would continue.

He's only been sending me /tells lately ;A; Where is my favorite miqo'te shoulder when a Lalafell needs it?! Not on the rail in Quicksand that's for sure ;o; I feel like at some point the growth of the FC stalled and while we all help each other (CT runs? Relic Runs? Oh we have X mats we can craft for gear for X person), those outside of the core group doesn't really do anything like Ex primals or Coil together. I feel like most of the people who do a lot of the pugging like I do who stick around do it cause, like me, they really enjoy most of their company. I just also feel extremely selfish because almost all of the members, especially my irl friends, have helped me a lot (in terms of dungeon runs, relic runs, mats, getting experience, etc) but outside of the higher content I feel like I'm left out because I'm not high i80s or i90. At the same time I understand that I'm not geared as high as they'd like or that I don't have the experience that they may like, but I feel that by pugging it I'm better off finding a steady group for me to get that experience. I'm not good with words and talking about things really make me scared to do it with friends ;A; I've had lots of dramallama incidents where one or a couple of us did the misunderstandings-the-anime thing... ._.; Why are you hiring spies? *suspicious!* Yes. I really want to progress through end-game. That's something I myself want but the attitude that I feel in the core group is that I have to PUG it to get to the level of being considered to go through it. So while I don't mind pugging it once in awhile if I couldn't meet the times... I don't want to live end-game like that. I want to be in a stable consistent environment where I know my place in that? I've found nice PF groups for T1-2 that I do now but I'd like to actually have a sorts of relationship with the people I do this part of the game with. If that makes sense. And part of wanting to have an RP FC is to help my lack of creativity and imagination. I always find it easier to be involved in peoples' plots than to... plot something? ; (As imaginative as a rock I am).

Wasn't sure if you knew ^^; Everything's been mostly OOC or chaotic antics and a lot of people have been joining that Kage hasn't met ICly ToT Will need to fix things. But alas I have the creative imagination of a rock. Hope you enjoy everything you get from RPC

I can't wait to see this. Kage certainly thinks Roen deserves it!

Kage tries! Nope. Lalafells just can't give you wonderful Roes a high five without jumping. Or you bending your knees..

I yearn to progress through the end-game content but the anxieties I have with PF (and my lack of success at it) really... hinders me. And at this point it feels like (in my opinion I can't say it's the truth of the FC group), that i'll never catch up so long as I'm not pugging and getting i90(+when 2.2 comes out) BLM before I can "eventually" or "maybe" find myself starting my own static within the FC... which is.. yeah I dunno not something I want to do? I want to get the courage to and yet I far enjoy doing content with friends than I do by myself in a PF group. ((And my FC's not actually an RP FC. In fact I only know of one friend who RPs and they're not in the FC... perhaps I've also grown to want one? I'm not sure if that's the case but once I hit end-game I really started to feel the disconnect between myself and the 'core static' group barring the people I see irl on a weekly basis.))

Kage himself hangs around in Ul'dah all the time. Mostly around the Quicksand... though lately it's been very popular and crowded. Since he sorta needs to get broken into... it's hard for him to really talk to people outside of a wave and a hello ;A; But OOCly if you have a question, I'd gladly accept /tells and willing to respond! I just.. sometimes get very busy and may not have what you're looking for but I can answer to the best of my abilities.

I feel like I might have misrepresented. A few friends/FC-mates (IRL or not) have definitely helped me in gearing up both as my main BLM and my secondary PLD that just hit 50 last week. It's been of help with the easier after-reaching-50 content but content outside of the HM primals... I've not. The only time I was invited to do Coil with them was "oh you should be geared for T1-2... well since we aren't going to have the static work this week we can do this" which really did help me gain the confidence to start Pugging T1-2 but that's all I've done since then. Pug. And... I don't know. I didn't join the game to pug end-game content. I'd rather make friends and progressed through the game than constantly and slowly pug away while I yearn for more. ((I've felt like I've done a lot more end-game and FUN things with the FoM LS than I have with the FC lately... and it's just something that I... expected? more from an FC?))

I've mentioned it a few off times with my closest friends that I run with more often. The ones I see almost every Friday ish before they have to do coil with the static. it's just something that wouldn't really happen if I wanted to do Ex primals or end-game things with them because they'll always have someone better geared than I am, etc. But I don't enjoy Pugging new things with people I don't know (it adds waaay too much anxiety for me) and the last times I've put up party finder groups for Garuda Ex it never even formed a group. My social anxieties are really coming into it #_#; I know I should be trying to PUG things more but it feels like since they have much better options (people on their 7th relics, 3rd or 4th job geared, etc) that I should find my own place. A little less than content as I yearn for more..?

Yep! Agreed!

This is pretty much all set up. As soon as I joined all of my irl friends were in a central LS and then there was a LS that my FC has used with others. At this point I'd be 90% out of the gate of leaving it... But I'm also worried that if I leave I'm not sure where to go and that my friends won't feel like I've betrayed them. @_@ Or used them and then left.

Perhaps people from FCs and those who might have been in a similar situation may have better input so I'm hoping that I can see what others' thoughts are on this. I'm currently feeling a little out of place or uncomfortable in the FC I am in. Perhaps I'm just not meshing well with what the FC is for. I joined the current FC I am in because practically all of my irl friends are in it (I'd say a quarter to a third of the actives in the FC are my irl friends and I). I came to FFXIV to enjoy the game with my friends. I currently do but now I'm at the point where I just don't... feel like I'm meshing with it well. Perhaps it's because I want to experience and learn to raid Coil with a group of friends and not have to pug it all the time because my FC's just small enough to really only support 1 static. Or that I also really want to involve myself into RP things and yet I lack the imagination or creativity to plot anything. At the same time, my FC and I do enjoy doing small things together such as tome runs between 3-6 of us. We did relic/HM primal runs on Sunday for a while together... A few have greatly helped me to get where I am at in the game as well. So I also feel like if I leave that it feels like I am betraying them. It's been something that has been bothering me for a month or so, at least around the same time I started to RP and join RPC @_@. tl;dr I really don't want to leave my FC behind and yet... I do. Thoughts? Advice? Opinions?

Welcome! As a lalafell in Ul'dah I can't say much about RPing as Roe... but I definitely would love to see more fem Roe around. I can definitely empathize with you about breaking the ice so to speak. Everyone I RP or interact with in the RP community think I've been corrupted by people but really it's just all about finding yourself being comfortable in it! I definitely found that place in the RP community in Ul'dah and Balmung in general.

FoM is technically both an OOC and IC RP LS... But there recently hasn't been big developments in RP plots after 2 went down right after another. It's mostly been Truth or Dare or Beach Parties... which needs to be fixed. We can talk about it later today~?

I had to back out but I also heard that it's going to be super crowded so that would've scared me

I didn't see if there was a response when I asked in the linkshell last night but what's the word on this?

Some ways to make it not an outright trampling of the Garleans due to sheer forces... Limit the amount of 'heroes' participating or you can have some set things in the plot that will work in the Garleans' favor? Emelie brought up an interesting idea about Garleans hiring people to help their side by keeping them ignorant or using specific ideals against them? I guess it also depends on how 'big' or 'small' the event may be

I am so, so confused now haha @_@;

Kage's hair is like... blue with red highlights. :blush: I'd say highlights are ok.

Well I'm just a little confused because as I quoted from journal Brayflox is gendered male in that text. So it just caught my eye.

How could you? T_T

I know a whole linkshell of people who would NOT be happy to see Ul'dah possibly going kablooey. :lol: It sounds like super fun. Kage would be most upset to see this happen and not do squat. He is totally not trying to touch dem wires though.

(( Me thinks that Lambert got really confident in himself over the 1 week since Lambert asked Kage for advice on his letter ;p ALSO. SUCH GOOD LETTERS ;A; ))

Imagine the rage. "Lol, thx for the Zenith Curtana, m8." FFFFFFFFFFFF- I'd be in that boat. But... but my Zenith D:! Or Elder Staff! "Thanks for Zantetsuken but I seem to have a lot of these for some reason."

Thancred has used knives/daggers in cutscenes. There was a truly epic one in 1.0. The question is why die SE choose now for Thancred to have two knives in the cutscene whereas before he only had one. I'm pretty hyped to try out Leviathan and Gilgamesh. I know Gilgamesh is a Full party trial (you can see 6 characters: PLD, WAR, SMN, DRG, WHM, BLM). But I really hope that the "he takes your weapon when you lose" is just text added for flavor...