Sailor July

I don't see how playing a character with a mental illness / illness / handicap is insulting? Unless it's done in a gimmicky way to poke fun or the player isn't showing what it's really like. I have had a few blind characters, and I don't believe anyone has ever been offended in other MMOs, though I think the FFXIV community is a bit more strict. I've also played characters with mental illnesses, as well and the same applies. Role-playing is an art. You're a writer. Playing a character. There have been TV series', movies and books that have these kinds of characters but (again - unless it's gimmicky or stereotypical / completely misinformed) and rarely do you hear about people getting all offended.

Aw, don't be anxious, Zyrusticae! There will always be people offended by this RP or that RP, and there will always be people who support those RPs as well. From what I can tell, you're researching and respecting and that's what really counts, I think.

Since it's part of the topic, I do think - again, just my opinion - that my mental illnesses are a part of my personality. I don't like them. I don't want them. But having them in my life in my past and now my present equal them being part of who I am. There are bad and good things that have come because of them. Their presence in my life has become part of my personality for better or worse. I see a psychiatrist and a therapist, and I do take medication. This is something I am actively working on. But that doesn't change the fact that it's a part of me, and an important part of me.

Here is my opinion and my opinion only. :love: I suffer severely from bipolar disorder, OCD and anxiety; I suffer mildly from social anxiety and PTSD. My wife suffers severely from bipolar disorder, anxiety and social anxiety. We've both suffered from these mental illnesses since childhood. I say this so you know that I'm not just giving an opinion without history. I think, as long as you know / research the mental illness, and don't use the illness as a joke, it's fine. It's really all based on the person, their character and the role-play. I think in some cases, a character's mental illness tendencies can be cute. My wife has played very shy, stuttering characters. I have played characters who have OCD tendencies. Just like a game character, anime character, etc. there are certain types of moe. TL;DR: Know and or research, be respectful. P.S. I think having characters who have mental illnesses, are LGBT, are religious or non-religious, etc. make the game that much more fulfilling. It's important for there to be 'more of us' (take 'us' as you will, it's different for everyone) in the gaming world. P.S.S. I just wrote this Tumblr post last night, after Jen and I finished an anime based around the struggle of suffering from social anxiety. I feel it's relevant. Ignore if you don't.

POETRY! :moogle: So, I wrote this many years ago, but it's still a favorite as I prefer darker poetry. ♥ So passionate. A glorious heart, so full, so happy, Will once so soon go down so gory Beating fast with blacked chains, To me it is much more then games. A happy heart is red and pumping, A saddened heart is black and pounding. Many ideas and thoughts race through me, Scaring me for all eternity, You ask me what; I tell you why, oh how I wish to get by. I want to put my fears to ease, However, they are as cold as a frosty breeze. A single shiver runs right through me, as the darkness closes around me, I want to know just how, just why, but I will do my best to get by. Sometimes I sit and wonder o' the pressure I go under, I sometimes wish for darkened days because that is the only way, I stand so shocked at the rumble of thunder, which is my heart so fill of bother. So many ideas and thoughts in my head, keep me awoken whilst lying in bed, I want to sleep, to ease my mind, but sleep escape's me at this time. Three o' clock, the sun is still hidden, The dark clouds fill the sky and ridden, me of the so full bright moon. The birds are sleeping sound and peaceful, Their singing not ringing so dim and delightful. The sky is not a dark, deep blue but instead black through and through. My heart and the sky share a similar thing, The color and emptiness it does bring. Again, my hearts rumbles, the echoes do mumble, Through my body as I lay so humble. Not knowing what or where I am, I feel so lost and so I am. A spark within me is all I have, of what I used to be. Blackness and troubles all about are now all that consumes me. I wonder all night of where I had lost, that joyful feeling I had brought, The time I cannot remember, the feeling must be lost forever. I know now as I lay in bed, all these thoughts running through my head, One day I will be found and saved, I shall no longer feel so grave. However, until then, I dream of when, the feeling of joy shall return, I know that when I finally feel, the sunlight upon my skin, it will burn. I am used to the darkness, the empty skies; I am used to sitting and wondering why. However, my life will soon turn over again, I will be lost and so confused, but my soul will no longer bruise. I do not know just how, or just right when, but I will feel joyful once again. Here's a poem I wrote for Jen and I a few years ago, about the Red String of Fate. ♥ [align=center][align=left]We walk together, hand-in-hand through the deepest boughs of hell. But we smile together, as we face the hate, because this we know so well. We've been through hell and back again, a team of two and one. For we are two people, two hearts, two souls - but together we are one. We've faced demons of lies and minions of greed, soul-biting torture and words that bleed, but together, through it all, the lies, the hurts and sorrow - together we have faced hell and laughed, at the thought of a new tomorrow. Together we are in paradise, no matter where we are. In you I find my comfort and truth and the love that I hold dear. In you I find my strength and words, that others cannot hear. We're bound by invisible string, a bright red around our wrists and fingers,our souls are united in a way of forever, so no matter where we are - it is bliss. Do not fear those who harm you, my dear, for they do not have the key, to the place that's deep inside of you, that place that's only for me. Do not worry about tomorrow, because we're here today - do not worry about their words, their pain, for I'll defend you every day. For you show me love and care, support and understanding The only one who has heard my thoughts, felt my love, tasted my kiss and known me. Together we're unstoppable, no matter the time or price. So take my hand and together we shall walk away from this burning place.[/align] [/align] [align=center] [align=left]Now for rap! I'll censor a LOT of this, but... [/align] In the mood for sake, kanpai Bitches like me, hard to come by Nicki’s an idol, call her senpai I’ll go up against anyone, an eye for an eye, better try your hardest ‘cause I’m so fly My heart’s on my sleeve, ya don’t gotta pry, I speak my mind 'cause I ain’t shy, playin’ with words like I’m Bandai, hope they don’t mind me usin’ their name, oh my [align=left]and... [/align] I'm a horrorcore wh*re, yeah I love gore, I want more. My favorite killer's Jack the Ripper, yeah I'm a fan of the sinners, wanna get into their heads, find out why the dead are dead. What did you do with the liver? How did you seduce her? What poison did you slip in her booze? What did you do with her ****s? Pain's insane, which is sane in my head, can't explain. F**k flowers, give me blood; f**k romance, r**e in the mud. Baby girl, you know what my luv is, let's be psycho together, watch horror, twenty-four seven, this is heaven. I have a list, that's just the jist, won't say more than this. People who f**k me over, wanna see them go under, my heart is beating louder than thunder. It's natural. It's ancient. Revenge, the best payment. F**k yeah, I'm even a mental health patient. Nothin' to hide, psychotic pride, a knife in each hand, bitches beware. Do you hear that? No? Silent and deadly, like Michael and Freddy. Jason and Hannibal. Maybe become a cannibal. This is the truth, I'm f**ked in the head, stories before bed of decapitated heads; mysterious unsolved, killers involved, you won't know from my look but don't judge a book by the cover, 'cause I keep my insanity straight under covers unless I'm in the middle of a rage, than I rip out a page and if you f**k with me, it's a mistake, 'cause I have tools to use and skills to abuse and don't you know that horror's a helluva muse? and... Yo, I'm Jhu'lie, spittin' coolly, helpin' my girls get a little unruly Now listen up, lemme mention that y'all have been under an illusion, I know there's some confusion, but I'm tellin' you truly There's an intrusion, invasion, a pink haired bitch from another dimension! Rappin' hardcore, from Outer Space, watchin' y'all scramble, there goes the master race! Hittin' your cities, so you'll be displaced, sittin' with my girls while we lay waste, ruin this place, it's your disgrace, but it's just our taste Yo, if you're still alive, you'll wish you were dead, 'cause I told my honeys to grab their holographic minis, strap on their *******s and start f**kin' yo heads! We're buildin' this place like a Playboy Palace, feelin' a little light-headed like Alice, maybe it's the Absinthe, workin' on a callous as I knock back another shot, actin' so careless. I'm the Queen of my people, the baddest Bitch, leader of my ladies and f**ker of Martian Bunnies! [align=left]Finally, for now... My wife has a big blue dinosaur stuffed animal I bought her and she asked for a rap about him! [/align] Yo, his name is Richard, he's blue, a GM for Blizzard, don't you dare think he's a motherf**kin' lizard, he's a Ravasaur, got that - wh*re? Don't like Richard? There's the door. He doesn't care 'bout other bitches, don't want more, he's got all he needs right through this door door door. My baby girl, she wanted a rap, 'bout this Ravasaur who don't take no crap, so I promised I would and I knew that I could, so I'm doing, I'm here so hear this, it's about Richard, he's rare like an epic, but his quality's pale gold, like that of an Artifact. We got him from Hogle, that's a zoo near here, yeah, he's fiercer than a motherf**kin' momma bear. She knew she wanted him, soon as she saw him sittin' there. So of course, cha-ching, baby girl didn't want no bling the only thing she wanted was Richard - and I ain't gonna make a dick joke - and all I could picture was her smile, knew adoptin' this Ravasaur would be so worthwhile. [/align]

This is really interesting, because I was thinking of something similar earlier. I don't support SJWs or feminism (I am an equalist), however I don't actively look for those posts and start yelling in people's faces because they do! I think you need to put yourself on the other end of stuff like that. Everyone has that which they do and do not like. I may not associate with some people because of their beliefs, but I don't try to change them either. I wouldn't want people to yell at me for supporting LGBTQ rights, for instance. Plus, yelling does nothing. If you want to actually change the world, lead by example and don't expect everyone to follow you, we're not all the same and that's a good thing.

I love Tumblr with a passion, so I feel so sad when I see people knock Tumblr down like it's a horrible place. I know amazing, open-minded and supportive people on there. However, there are people on Tumblr, who are horrible. I treat my Tumblr like it's my little place on the web. I talk about what I like and don't like. Some people are against my hobbies and beliefs, and that's okay - I'm not there for them. If someone is targeted because they're speaking their minds, on their personal place, I feel like that is a form of bullying on its own. What you're talking about, though, sounds like people who name and shame and or act vile towards certain people, a group or the community as a whole and I think that is wrong. There's rightful free speech, and then there's being an asshole. I can't say who does or does not belong here, but if they dislike the people and or community so much, than there's no real point to stay. It's toxic for them, and for people they may hurt and I say that as someone who has been on the end of having toxic friends and being a toxic friend because of mental disabilities.

(Copying this from a previous thread~!) I'm 5'4" and overweight, with little muscle, though I can hold my own with pure force. My goal is losing weight, eating better, building muscle, working on flexibility, boxing, marital arts, and yoga. Jen and I don't have money for a gym membership (plus hello, social anxiety) or exercise equipment, so right now we're setting up an exercise plan that we can do with just our bodies and stuff such as weights, medicine balls, etc. We also love weaponry, so we each have an axe, cold steel training swords and Jen just bought a shinai and I'll be buying one soon. We practice fights with the swords and will with the shinai as well - the axes are way too sharp to use against each other, but good practice by themselves. So, that's my fitness story so far!

I'm 5'4" and overweight, with little muscle, though I can hold my own with pure force. My goal is losing weight, eating better, building muscle, working on flexibility, boxing, marital arts, and yoga. I think I would fit in with a Monk-in-Training, and maybe Druid as a second class! I'm excited to try this! Edit: Sadly, there is no way I can afford that. ;.; Oh well.

Since it's so actively on my mind... People who blame rappers for what goes on in the world (this could be kids acting up in school to more serious events.) People who think what rappers rap about equals who they are as a person. People who are so offended by rap in general. I rap. I also am a huge fan of Eminem, as both an idol as a rapper AND a person. I hear so much crap about how his music is so bad, how he's so horrible, blah blah. The same goes for other favorites. It's ridiculous.

It's open~!

Ahhhh, this is SO much like what my Necromancer from Guild Wars 2 does. I would absolutely LOVE to be a part of this!!! Sounds brilliant.

:love:.:love: Goodness, your style is absolutely amazing!

This is my favorite LS! :love:

There for her to drink out of.

Can I list some pleasures even if I'm not guilty? :evil: Kink (that's all I'll say! It's more of a lifestlye, but still a pleasure) Rap, especially Eminem Speaking of which... Lots of celebrity crushes and animated crushes ALL THE FANFICTION and it's usually fluff or smut Yuri and Yaoi LOTS of coffee Hours and hours on Tumblr Laughing loudly, on purpose, specifically like "AH-HA-HA-HA-HA!" to annoy my wife Petting all the cute toys in the store, much to the annoyance of my wife Visual Novels Spending WAY too much money on Steam ...and probably lots more.

Me please! >o<

I wanna be Skype friends! I'm sailorjulyxo!

I'd love to join! Character name: Jhu'lie Bai'lee.

<3 My Little Pony!!! Also, I agree that the friendship = power is more Western. Anime like Sailor Moon, Tokyo Mew Mew and other magical girl / magical abilities type series' are based around awakening and or learning powers. /otaku

[align=center][/align] THANK YOU, FRANZ, FOR THE SAILOR OUTFIT!!! :surprise: :moogle:

First of all, yay Sailor Moon fan! Let's be friends! :love: Anyway, character wise (in other MMOs as I am still learning FFXIV's lore)... I have had characters whose powers awaken, for instance a fire Elementalist whose home was attacked and she and one other person were inside, and that frightening situation awakened her and she scared off the attackers. I have also had characters who were born with their powers, for instance a Mesmer who summoned the illusion of pretty glowing flowers as a small girl, and as she got older, she studied and practiced until she could do much, much more. My character Jhu'lie, my FFXIV main, is a Lancer and doesn't really have any powers right now. Her skills are purely psychical for the moment.

Animal hats ahoy! Here's my fox spirit hood, with paw pockets! Here's my more cutesy fox beanie!

Ah~! I'd LOVE one of Jhu'lie, please!!! Your style is AMAZING, and that includes your sketches! :love:

As someone who is learning Japanese, I love your name Desu!!!