RP Confession Thread

[SpiceTrader]

Aw man, I'm right there with you, Oroban!

 

1. I never take advantage of finding walk-up RPers because I don't want them to think I'm too forward...by walking up and attempting to RP with them. Not even getting into my many, many weird characters and quirks and interests--just walking up and saying anything strikes me as too invasive to attempt.

 

Similarly, 2., I rarely respond in-character to anything in game because my main Miqo'te is...kind of an idiot...and I'm quite self-conscious about people thinking that of ME before they realize it's just him. 

 

3. I would hunt all day for someone open to ERP, because I am confident in my abilities to stay classy and hold someone's attention with articulate and well-written smutty plot, but when it comes down to it, poor writing is a huge turnoff, and it appears my standards are too high. Still, I search...*wistful sigh*

 

4. Perhaps the worst of all--right now I just search and stalk in-character Tumblr pages looking for people who want RP partners, and I never, not once, have asked any of them for a chance. (Even though they look like they enjoy the same styles and themes as I do!)

 

Sounds like crippling shyness is the major failing of a lot of us here. You're all welcome to come bother me! Let's all stop being shy now.

[LadyRochester]

Confession #14?

 

I often complain about not getting RP but then don't RP when people ask me to. I'm a huge hypocrite. I bitch and moan about the possibility of people not liking me as a player or hating my character, get all fussy and insecure... Only to put RP with others for later because of [insert random excuse.]

 

For example:

 

Friend: " Hey Sasha, want to RP later?"

Me: "Hey, sorry, I'm a little busy right now."

Friend: "Oh okay."

 

*sometime later, in my thoughts*

 

Me: WHY DOES NOBODY RP WITH ME? THEY MUST HATE MY CHARACTER. I MUST BE SHITTY. EVERYONE HATES ME.

 

Friend: "... Want to RP?"

Me: "Haha, no, I feel tired."

 

[Gegenji]

Some RP I've had recently has brought to mind another little foible of mine that comes up with RP - I second-guess myself. A lot. I mentioned before that I worry about whether people want to RP with me or they'll have fun with me and all that. Well, that also somehow extends to after we've RPed. I'll find myself sort of worrying about this or that I did and wondering if I should have done something else or not done anything at all or was I unintentionally stealing the spotlight or some other manner of omigoddidiscrewupthey'llhatemeforever...

 

With how hard I get down on myself in general, I suppose it's no surprise that I oft wonder if people would want to RP with me at all. :blush:

[Oli!]

I want to RP lighthearted, fantastical adventures, but most people prefer to be serious.

 

Kinda bums me out a lot.

[Berrod Armstrong]

Oh. How could I forget this.

 

People roleplaying as major NPCs. The known main Scoins, Heavenswards knights, Iceheart ect. Canon characters basically.

 

I really find it disrespectful to fuck about with SE own creations :<

 

Not afraid to admit I will avoid interacting with these type of people.

Do people emoting getting a drink from Momodi count? Or people who post stuff like, 'Momodi handed over the key to the inn room with an exasperated look'. I'm very curious!

[Gegenji]

Oh. How could I forget this.

 

People roleplaying as major NPCs. The known main Scoins, Heavenswards knights, Iceheart ect. Canon characters basically.

 

I really find it disrespectful to fuck about with SE own creations :<

 

Not afraid to admit I will avoid interacting with these type of people.

Do people emoting getting a drink from Momodi count? Or people who post stuff like, 'Momodi handed over the key to the inn room with an exasperated look'. I'm very curious!

 

I think she means actually playing as them. Like, not just emoting talking to one, but they're acting as if they ARE Y'shtola or something. I haven't seen it myself, but I've certainly seen people who use other famous names. And I feel kinda bad that I automatically deduct mental points from them, even if they're not RPers. I just don't think Kenshin Battosai would be all that fun of a character to hang out with.

[Virella]

Oh. How could I forget this.

 

People roleplaying as major NPCs. The known main Scoins, Heavenswards knights, Iceheart ect. Canon characters basically.

 

I really find it disrespectful to fuck about with SE own creations :<

 

Not afraid to admit I will avoid interacting with these type of people.

Do people emoting getting a drink from Momodi count? Or people who post stuff like, 'Momodi handed over the key to the inn room with an exasperated look'. I'm very curious!

Nah. I do not mind that! Makes the world feel more alive. It is not "I name my char Momodi, I copy her looks, and claim to be the one and only, and fuck you if you don't want me to roleplay a canon character."

 

Write your own story with what you are given, but do not go copy pasta someone's else's character. It is considered the numbero uno sin when people do it with player created characters, and I feel like the characters created by the dev team should get that same respect you know? It is not up to you to write the story of those characters.

 

What people do behind closed doors, or just make these characters for teh lulz to run around with it OOC, I don't mind. I get a good laugh about people recreating those character's looks ect, but as soon they treat it as their own character? Hell no girl, I'm outa here.

[Berrod Armstrong]

Oh. How could I forget this.

 

People roleplaying as major NPCs. The known main Scoins, Heavenswards knights, Iceheart ect. Canon characters basically.

 

I really find it disrespectful to fuck about with SE own creations :<

 

Not afraid to admit I will avoid interacting with these type of people.

Do people emoting getting a drink from Momodi count? Or people who post stuff like, 'Momodi handed over the key to the inn room with an exasperated look'. I'm very curious!

Nah. I do not mind that! Makes the world feel more alive. It is not "I name my char Momodi, I copy her looks, and claim to be the one and only, and fuck you if you don't want me to roleplay a canon character."

 

Write your own story with what you are given, but do not go copy pasta someone's else's character. It is considered the numbero uno sin when people do it with player created characters, and I feel like the characters created by the dev team should get that same respect you know? It is not up to you to write the story of those characters.

 

What people do behind closed doors, or just make these characters for teh lulz to run around with it OOC, I don't mind. I get a good laugh about people recreating those character's looks ect, but as soon they treat it as their own character? Hell no girl, I'm outa here.

Ohhh! I see! Thanks for the clarification! I see people with OOC characters like that but I don't really pay them mind. OOC toons can be whatever. I've never actually run into one IC before -- though I do see IC blogs and the like (usually made for shipping...eugh).

[Virella]

Oh. How could I forget this.

 

People roleplaying as major NPCs. The known main Scoins, Heavenswards knights, Iceheart ect. Canon characters basically.

 

I really find it disrespectful to fuck about with SE own creations :<

 

Not afraid to admit I will avoid interacting with these type of people.

Do people emoting getting a drink from Momodi count? Or people who post stuff like, 'Momodi handed over the key to the inn room with an exasperated look'. I'm very curious!

Nah. I do not mind that! Makes the world feel more alive. It is not "I name my char Momodi, I copy her looks, and claim to be the one and only, and fuck you if you don't want me to roleplay a canon character."

 

Write your own story with what you are given, but do not go copy pasta someone's else's character. It is considered the numbero uno sin when people do it with player created characters, and I feel like the characters created by the dev team should get that same respect you know? It is not up to you to write the story of those characters.

 

What people do behind closed doors, or just make these characters for teh lulz to run around with it OOC, I don't mind. I get a good laugh about people recreating those character's looks ect, but as soon they treat it as their own character? Hell no girl, I'm outa here.

Ohhh! I see! Thanks for the clarification! I see people with OOC characters like that but I don't really pay them mind. OOC toons can be whatever. I've never actually run into one IC before -- though I do see IC blogs and the like (usually made for shipping...eugh).

No worries, I should had perhaps worded a bit better in my first post D:

 

As for the eugh statement, I shall join you in unison making that noise till the end of days to express my feelings about that as well.

[Manari]

 

 

I think she means actually playing as them. Like, not just emoting talking to one, but they're acting as if they ARE Y'shtola or something. I haven't seen it myself, but I've certainly seen people who use other famous names. And I feel kinda bad that I automatically deduct mental points from them, even if they're not RPers. I just don't think Kenshin Battosai would be all that fun of a character to hang out with.

 

My character named Hajime Saito would totally agree with you on that one! Himura Battousai is totally a lame dude to hang out with.

 

But seriously, I always just assume the guy named Safer Sephiroth or Cloud Soldier is probably just a kid who is really excited and loves his favorite anime/game character so much he wants to look like him in all vidya gaems. And hopefully doesn't RP on that character.

[ZoktaiKhor]

1. I suffer from making at least 1 out of 20 characters a close remsemblence of me I still do it to this day. I like making it feel as if I'm in multi verse theroy so I see what would i decide or choose in this unverse how would I die? etc etc.

 

2. I love tension way too much with some of my characters.

 

3. I have a terrible habit of  lacking knowledge in what's canon and trying to geusstimate whats the closet thing to be allowed.

[Paradox]

Confessions, hm. Sure, why not. Wall of texts incoming.

 

0: I talk too much. WAY too much. I write walls of text because it was pounded into me you have to write in great detail for great justice. It's a thing for me, so. Yeah.

 

I: I confess I like creativity of all kinds, even if it doesn't jive with the rest of the world. Straight up. Unless someone is pretending they're I dunno..a Primal crossbreed, or a major lore or other Final Fantasy canon character or something impossible, chances are I'll play with them no matter how alien or odd their concept seems, because the Rp can often be very engaging in spite of, or even because of that. I'm very easygoing with conceptualizations because I believe Rp is 99% imagination, 1% everything else. Lorebending to an extent is fine with me, even if it's on the wonky side. Openly breaking is harder for me to accept, but I've found many good players who became friends of mine with concepts not 100% lore friendly either, and I wouldn't give those friends up for the world. You won't hear the words 'special snowflake' or 'edgy' from me about RP or people's characters, because it's disrespectful, and when I grew up as an Rper, we learned to respect each others creativity, not snub our noses at it because we didn't like one or two little details that didn't fit in our happy bubble.

 

II: I confess, I hate slice of life RP to death. I know a lot of people think it's the bee's knees to be the everyman and have a quaint little soap opera life to play, but as someone who came from a heavy combat/conflict RP background I find it really dull. No offense to anyone who plays it, just ain't my thing unless I really have nothing else to do and my characters have no one to piss off. That, and I already have a slice of life RP I do. It's called married life. >> I happen to be an everyman in real life, why would I want to RP what I am?

 

III: Like some others have said, I confess, I do ERP at times if the character's nature or story would make sense for it to occur, and fade to blacks to me are like a blank page in a book I'm reading. I also laugh at people who judge Rpers because they ERP of their own choice. If it's outside someone's comfort zone it's absolutely fine for them to not do it, their choice, but those who act like it's a cardinal sin and look down on or shame people for it (especially behind people's backs because most of them don't have the stones to say it to someone's face) just make me roll my eyes.

 

IV: I confess I love drama (IC). I love conflict. I love fighting, blood, violence, I love when someone's feelings are hurt, I love when two people who used to love one another hate each other. I love when someone dies in battle. I love when the bad guys win. I love when the world is destructive and cruel, and I love when there is no truly happy ending. I know that doesn't jive with some people's happy bubble, but I really love when things are terrible. I'm only happy when it rains. ..is it weird then that I don't really like GoT? Huh.

 

V: I confess I do all I can to have an objective view of whatever world I play in, and play by its rules. I try not to let my biases from the real world affect how my character views their world because I'm looking through their eyes, not mine. I try to remember no matter what, this is not earth, it's Hydaelyn or however you spell it. /Effort. It's hard sometimes, admittedly.

 

VI: I confess it's hard for me to play racist characters. Weird, I know. This kind of coincides with V, but it's subtly different. I mean, I can play a character that slings an occasional slur to provoke someone easily, but playing an actual racist is difficult because I've never had that mind set in my life. Hating someone just for how they look or how they were born is so alien to me, it's hard to do despite how I've tried in the past even trying to look at it through my character's eyes.

 

VII: I confess I got my start in RP with tabletop D&D, 2nd edition with some old 1st edition flavor. I started at age 13, 23 years ago. I've loved tabletop games for many long years, though I've always preferred freeform combat (but that's neither here nor there). I also confess as an addendum that my favorite tabletop system is Pathfinder or AD&D 2nd, tied. It's just so good.

 

VIII: I confess I hate kidnapping/abduction/torture and rape as drama plots with a vengeance. The whole abduction/(gender here) in distress/rape/torture as drama is bad, and you should feel bad if you do them on a frequent basis. Not because of the subject matter (though for some that alone can be a reason), because sometimes shit needs to get real. But because I have run across only a handful of people in over twenty years of RP that have actually managed to play the severity of any of the above situations in the seriousness they need to be taken in order to have impact. Kind of the same as playing true villains. It takes a certain mature approach that the majority of people don't have.

 

IX: I confess that I don't often try to get involved in random RP because despite a lot of people having 'walk ups' in their info, I get ignored when I walk up. (I know, this isn't just a me thing). But I mean even by people who don't know me for the dick I can be. >> You walk up and start a conversation, get blown off, then they start yammering away at someone they know or that's in their FC like you never even tried. It's enough to swear you off of open world sometimes, but I keep trying. Maybe I like the abuse, meh.

 

X: I confess that I have a very bad short term memory, which kind of messes up RP sometimes. It's been damaged over the years. I literally have forgotten whole Rps I've done after a day or two has passed, and I genuinely am shit-horrible at remembering names. I have people on my friends list I repeatedly forget and have to ask 'who are you again?'. Yeah, my short term memory loss at times can be that bad. It gets really frustrating sometimes.

 

XI: I confess, godmodders don't really bother me at all like they do other people. Even the 'invincible' ones get tired if you counter them enough with their own medicine. It's actually kind of great for a laugh when you make their brains bluescreen or you frustrate THEM for a change. Good times. Plus, sometimes they just don't know any better and you can help them get better. :3

 

XII: I confess, I like anime style/magical physics and the suspension of disbelief in things like combat and can't stand when others just plain out mock people in a *fantasy* game for using said things in their RP. Gritty realism and plausible physics is fine, but we're in a high fantasy game with races that couldn't biologically exist with our own real world physics, creatures that can make matter into energy while violating all the conservation of energy laws, and where the laws of thermodynamics do not stop you from launching big fuck-off fireballs by waving a magic stick. Also, Godbert. Anyone who plays in a world with all this and has a problem with someone jumping a little too high or punching hard enough to crack a few stones if they've had enough training is nitpicking, and they need to RP in a more realistic setting. Not, you know, Final Fantasy.

[Dis]

4.) I ERP.  I ERP because it's just another form of writing for me.  It's fun, it's often times funny, the scenes can be anywhere from awesome character development fodder to having me laughing so hard with the dialogue that I can barely see the screen, and it's just enjoyable to write.  I even allow this in scenarios that have questionable views: adult lalafell, characters who are adults in Eorzea but wouldn't be adults in the real world (15+), so long as it fits the theme and is part of legitimate character development, and all of the players are over the age of 18.

 

5.) I spend a lot of time wobbling over character concepts, especially where the lore is concerned.  I want to make a character who fits well within the lore, but I don't want to feel so constrained by it that I can't create.  This means I spend too much time on creation and tweaking, and not enough time really playing my character, or even the game.  That can be frustrating.

 

6.) I'm always too nervous to approach people who have 'walk-ups' in their search info, despite the fact that they genuinely let other people approach them.  I always worry I won't be interesting enough, or that they'd rather find something else to do with their time.  I have a decided lack of confidence in my writing skills lately.

 

7.) I flake out sometimes when I'm RPing with people and another person joins.  This means I end up sitting and reading as a spectator more than writing myself, because I just find enjoyment from watching others RP, even if I'm not interacting with them. 

 

8.) The oddest thing I've ever RP'd is a glowing rock.  I did this for almost two hours once, and had players laughing so hard they were crying over voice chat, begging me to stop.  It was also one of the best RP's I've ever done.

[LadyRochester]

VIII: I confess I hate kidnapping/abduction/torture and rape as drama plots with a vengeance. The whole abduction/(gender here) in distress/rape/torture as drama is bad, and you should feel bad if you do them on a frequent basis. Not because of the subject matter (though for some that alone can be a reason), because sometimes shit needs to get real. But because I have run across only a handful of people in over twenty years of RP that have actually managed to play the severity of any of the above situations in the seriousness they need to be taken in order to have impact. Kind of the same as playing true villains. It takes a certain mature approach that the majority of people don't have.

 

I'm only annoyed in this case if they do shit like this and then they make their characters just walk it off as if it never happened. You know, being all casual like:

 

"Oh yeah, I was kidnapped a few weeks ago, I got saved though, haha."

 

Or, even worse, those who do the "false fear" scene for attention, like...

 

"Oh no... I--I was... R-raped!" Two days later, you find them going "Oh no, I was raped!" And flirting with a random dude, using the fact the character was raped as some sort of... "Hook"

 

I'm aware many RPers don't do this, but as a psych. student and someone who has known people in that reality, that attitude is cringe-worthy.

[Paradox]

VIII: I confess I hate kidnapping/abduction/torture and rape as drama plots with a vengeance. The whole abduction/(gender here) in distress/rape/torture as drama is bad, and you should feel bad if you do them on a frequent basis. Not because of the subject matter (though for some that alone can be a reason), because sometimes shit needs to get real. But because I have run across only a handful of people in over twenty years of RP that have actually managed to play the severity of any of the above situations in the seriousness they need to be taken in order to have impact. Kind of the same as playing true villains. It takes a certain mature approach that the majority of people don't have.

 

I'm only annoyed in this case if they do shit like this and then they make their characters just walk it off as if it never happened. You know, being all casual like:

 

"Oh yeah, I was kidnapped a few weeks ago, I got saved though, haha."

 

Or, even worse, those who do the "false fear" scene for attention, like...

 

"Oh no... I--I was... R-raped!" Two days later, you find them going "Oh no, I was raped!" And flirting with a random dude, using the fact the character was raped as some sort of... "Hook"

 

I'm aware many RPers don't do this, but as a psych. student and someone who has known people in that reality, that attitude is cringe-worthy.

This. Like. Okay, if you're an adventurer, got kidnapped by bandits or something for a ransom and your friends came to save your ass, then the trauma would probably be mild at best, because let's face it. Eorzea's a harsh place. Shit does happen. But yeah, with rape or torture, real traumatizing, fear creating events, the 'walk it off' thing annoys me to no end.

[allgivenover]

The whole abduction/(gender here) in distress/rape/torture as drama is bad, and you should feel bad if you do them on a frequent basis.

 

I call these RPers "drama arsonists". I firmly believe you can attach any subject material to RP and as long as it's treated with the gravity and respect it deserves rather than a quick way to generate attention and a pity party for your character, then it can be done well.

 

But if you set your own character on fire often and then have them bounce back to "full health" so you can set them on fire again I will cease RP with you entirely.

[Paradox]

Confessions, hm. Sure, why not. Wall of texts incoming.

The whole abduction/(gender here) in distress/rape/torture as drama is bad, and you should feel bad if you do them on a frequent basis.

 

I call these RPers "drama arsonists". I firmly believe you can attach any subject material to RP and as long as it's treated with the gravity and respect it deserves rather than a quick way to generate attention and a pity party for your character, then it can be done well.

 

But if you set your own character on fire often and then have them bounce back to "full health" so you can set them on fire again I will cease RP with you entirely.

Yeah, that's what I'm referring to. Kidnapped and tortured, suffers trauma for IC months/years? Good idea. Gets kidnapped and tortured every two weeks because you have nothing else to do and you want attention? Bad idea.

[Stormwind]

1) I bend the lore because I can. I like pulling it to the furthest reaches of plausible (and maybe not entirely plausible) because since I play an inventor and scientist I feel I have to, otherwise I'm just a technician. I do try to come up with reasons everything that I design would work in canon, but I feel if I didn't push the boundaries, then it's not interesting.

 

2) I feel no remorse at having ICly punched primals and come up with ways to do it, see point one. I don't MSQ RP so I don't claim or use echo, or the blessing of light, but I did ICly create a way to avoid tempering and I don't regret it. For me, part of Final Fantasy is about punching gods in the face, so hell yes I'm going to do it.

[Vale]

Mm... hmm. RP confessions. I've been RP'ing for about a month now, so fairly new to it still.

 

1. Vale is my first character and he started out dark and broody. However, over time he evolved into someone that's generally friendly and sarcastic since he's found ways to suppress his darker feelings. Now... he just tends to make friends fairly easily and I often find him being stuck as the center of attention in group RP. Not what I had planned for him at all and it can be a bit overwhelming at times.

 

2. He's already managed to get married. I never had any plans for this to happen, nor did I even try to push his plot in that direction. It just... happened. The character he ended up meeting was perfect for him and after some things occurred he just fell for her before he realized it.

 

3. I tend to do paragraph RP in most situations (exceptions apply based on the environment I'm in) because I enjoy crafting a detailed, vivid scene. I find that I'm turned off by people who make tons of typos or offer nothing substantial in response to the massive scene I just crafted. I'll often find a way to bow out if someone does these things and I'll probably avoid RP with them in the future.

 

4. ERP is fine and I have no problem with it. I see it as natural character progression for adults (at least, I'd hope they'd want to sleep with each other at some point in the relationship!) and Vale has participated in it himself. I tend to be very detailed and explicit, drawing on my own real life experiences when I'm crafting these scenes. OOC, though, I can be fairly detached and I might be watching a youtube video or something while it's happening.

 

 

I was going to write more, but then I realized that it was less of a confession and more of me ranting... which would defeat the purpose of the thread. So I cut it short.

[K'nahli]

2). My diction, sentence structure, and general word choices are often repetitive and my vocabulary range really isn't that good, and I'm quite self conscious about this. Thesaurus.com is bookmarked on my browser.

 

5). I'm criminally guilty of spending a lot of time editing a post after I've made it. If it's a recap log of live RP, I will spend a decent amount of time editing it. A lot of the time I don't think too much before posting in both forum and live RP, which leads to me editing both endlessly after the fact.

 

Oh God, that first one especially is just SO me ;;;;   And I'm not half as well-spoken as you are. I really, really wish I had not only a greater grasp of a lot more descriptive terms so that my tags didn't feel so damn repetitive, but also the ability to employ them in a readable manner. Whenever I am trying to describe character actions and dialogue I just... get so caught up with trying to express the small details that they come off as too "technical" and don't read well at all.

 

Ugh....  *frustrated*!

[Melodia]

#4) I sometimes see people in game who I see posting here a lot and in my head squee like a superfan seeing a celebrity. I've passed some folks and literally stopped dead in my tracks just to look at them (Jancis, Edda, Ciel...just a few that spring to mind) and then bolt because I'm too scared to say hi. "They wouldn't dare speak to someone of my lesser rp status." That's what goes through my head. Irrational as hell but that's they my silly brain works.

[Caspar]

#4) I sometimes see people in game who I see posting here a lot and in my head squee like a superfan seeing a celebrity. I've passed some folks and literally stopped dead in my tracks just to look at them (Jancis, Edda, Ciel...just a few that spring to mind) and then bolt because I'm too scared to say hi. "They wouldn't dare speak to someone of my lesser rp status." That's what goes through my head. Irrational as hell but that's they my silly brain works.

Ugh that's so me. I see someone (hell I'm in FC with a few) and I freeze up, or hesitate to initiate rp. I get so nervous about it, and yet it's very unlike me. It's because of them I started to rp again, but I feel I don't need to make such a big deal about it, or ill get too nervous to play..

[Martiallais]

#4) I sometimes see people in game who I see posting here a lot and in my head squee like a superfan seeing a celebrity. I've passed some folks and literally stopped dead in my tracks just to look at them (Jancis, Edda, Ciel...just a few that spring to mind) and then bolt because I'm too scared to say hi. "They wouldn't dare speak to someone of my lesser rp status." That's what goes through my head. Irrational as hell but that's they my silly brain works.

 

Haha I do this too! Usually I end up sending a /wave or /hug or shooting over a whisper like 'hey omg I recognize your name!'

 

...all while hoping I don't sound like the big dork I feel like I'm being.

[K'nahli]

Oh God, me too ;_;   We're all so sad.

 

Edit:

Granted I don't see that many names, but it's usually the same few I spot every so often but I'd never dare interrupt them with so much as a "hi!". How dare such a thought even cross my mind!?

 

(I was worried my post was too short, haha).

[Caspar]

I'm confident I can write well enough to interact with anyone on the server. It's just their personal story lines often are really private. It leads me to believe I am unwelcome, and that intruding would be seen as rude. Plus, it's just weird to me to find someone through the wiki and then try to play with them, since I must concoct a scenario, which I really don't mind, but it makes me think I'll come off as an obsessed fan. ^_^'