RP Confession Thread

[Volk]

#4) I sometimes see people in game who I see posting here a lot and in my head squee like a superfan seeing a celebrity. I've passed some folks and literally stopped dead in my tracks just to look at them (Jancis, Edda, Ciel...just a few that spring to mind) and then bolt because I'm too scared to say hi. "They wouldn't dare speak to someone of my lesser rp status." That's what goes through my head. Irrational as hell but that's they my silly brain works.

 

Jancis, Edda, and Ciel are celebrities. Do not look them in the eyes and no flash photography, pls. (I joke, they are all wonderful and friendly people ! You should not hesitate to say hi !)

[Edda]

#4) I sometimes see people in game who I see posting here a lot and in my head squee like a superfan seeing a celebrity. I've passed some folks and literally stopped dead in my tracks just to look at them (Jancis, Edda, Ciel...just a few that spring to mind) and then bolt because I'm too scared to say hi. "They wouldn't dare speak to someone of my lesser rp status." That's what goes through my head. Irrational as hell but that's they my silly brain works.

 

Jancis, Edda, and Ciel are celebrities. Do not look them in the eyes and no flash photography, pls. (I joke, they are all wonderful and friendly people ! You should not hesitate to say hi !)

No joke, Ameline and I RPed last night - although we all know Mel was referring to Edda Vincents. Unrelated, I generally feel like crying when someone asks me to RP, even if I have a tough time believing it, I consider it a huge honor. I'm sure most RP celebs feel the same way, so don't hesitate.

[Coatleque]

[... ](Jancis, Edda, Ciel...just a few that spring to mind)[...]

[...] Jancis, Edda, and Ciel are celebrities. [...]

[...] Unrelated, I generally feel like crying when someone asks me to RP [...]

 

I am also intimidated by Jancis and Edda and often cry when they ask me to RP with them >_>

[Aya]

They are both intimidating and super-nice at the same time!!

[LadyRochester]

Back off bitches, I'm Edda's #1 fangirl.

 

You can be #2.

[Oscare]

[raises Edda foam finger, sips from Jancis sippy hat while wearing a "I <3 Ciel" shirt]

[Telluride]

Confessions, eh?

 

I got terribly, thoroughly sucked into three goals for Heavensward: getting BRD to 50 (done), getting MNK to 50 (I'm at 49), and riding the wake with MNR until I made 60 (done) and made as much gil as I could. I've multiplied my fortune by a factor of seven since the expansion dropped, but I got sucked into the Red Scrip grind...

 

Why does it matter? Because it all sucked the RP right out of me. It's only in the last week that I've felt able to start breaking out of that grind, with the realization that poor Nathan has pretty much lived and breathed by 11pm/11am Eorzea time everyday (and if you are a max level miner, you know what that means...). I wanted that Red Scrip gear. I still want it.

 

In the interim, my main RP partner had a schedule change that's left us having trouble scheduling time, and Soliloquy has rather dissolved because I haven't taken up the slack to try to rebuild it / keep it going. I even missed the Celebration of the Builder. Me, who has NEVER missed one ever before, missed one. It doesn't sound like much, but those who know me might recognize that as a big symptom.

 

I've talked / passed by several folks with whom I've RPed a lot before and... well, the grind just called me back. It's only been this week that I realized that I don't NEED to keep up the pace anymore. Everything else I want from the game can be obtained at a casual pace, now (since I'm not planning to do Alexander anytime soon, nor do I really have any reason to get more gear for the single purpose of... running Alexander more)

 

So... I've slacked off, and I've felt stuck in that self-fulfilling prophecy of wondering if I can catch up, feeling intimidated by the effort I know is involved, and getting mired in the downward spiral it creates... and I'm the same person who's been able to walk into the QS any old time and pretty much RP with anyone, at the drop of a hat.

 

Of course, this week it's been trying to get the Moonfire Faire outfits for a number of alts, and even with the Battered Fish, that takes time. Having one of my parents in the hospital for a week, who was just released last Sunday, didn't help either.

 

So, yeah, my confession is that I've felt stuck in the mire and stupidly intimidated by the sheer effort I'll need to try to get back in good with everyone I used to do more with, and rebuild those bridges. But, the truth is there ain't no way to get started except by getting started, so I'm gonna try. Now, where can I find a good fire to light under the ol' arse...

 

And I don't even really know Edda to know whether I oughta be a fan or not, but I do try to keep an emergency, inflatable fainting couch should I get too close to Jancis

[Volk]

[... ](Jancis, Edda, Ciel...just a few that spring to mind)[...]

[...] Jancis, Edda, and Ciel are celebrities. [...]

[...] Unrelated, I generally feel like crying when someone asks me to RP [...]

 

I am also intimidated by Jancis and Edda and often cry when they ask me to RP with them >_>

 

Psh! I was giddy to take silly screenshots w/ you a few times, let alone rp with you once !

 

EDIT - RELEVANT:

[Elaris]

Yes, I too have made some goals in game that had been keeping me far too occupied. I really do not want to fall far too behind again like I did ARR. Heck when the expansion launched, my characters were all still at the 2.1 story line because I had no interest in continuing no matter how many people would tell, " zomgz it sew gewddd " Seriously, many people would tell me it was so good in that sort of way. I actually did catch up with one character, in fact I got 3 of my characters to Ishgard which was not a fun grind. I been keeping myself far too busy to RP, and whenever I contact people to RP they seem to be very busy too with " keeping up " too which is not a bad thing.

 

Otherwise I have seen several confessions that would apply to me in this thread. Such as Quality of life RP will always be secondary to me as I prefer adventure and conflict and just open world/dungeon diving RP. I do not ERP, I have tried it in the past but my ERP partner got far too creepy which really turned me off from it completely. My characters are all inspired from my GW2 & SWTOR characters I had in the past. It's too bad I was not able to complete their overall stories but hopefully with FFXIV I can. I will do walk ups if the player has it listed on their Character Info, but only if they are alone really. I do tend to lean more toward the /tell before I approach though just in case the person is actually AFK, I know I wander away from my keyboard often and it can be awkward talking to a person not exactly there.

[I'nhalki]

I'm always worried that my RP is extremely boring and slow when I RP with new people.

[S'imba]

I'm always worried that my RP is extremely boring and slow when I RP with new people.

Yeah I always feel the same way...especially when I get ooc requests for people to want to RP with them, cause it makes me afraid I'm not going to live up to their expectations. Kinda makes me glad I'm not one of the famous people, since I can only imagine them being bombarded with constant requests.

[Oroban]

Now I want to harass all the shy people for RP. Except I'm shy too. Foiled again. D<

(For example of that RP celebrity thing, I was on a skype call with a friend when I saw Edda AFKing the other day and it popped into my head to mention it. I don't know why.)

[Aaron]

Since we're on the topic of ERP.

 

Confession is every time I go somewhere I pray to god almighty there's a ERP session happening nearby and they mistell if only once and I can clearly read it.

[111]

Since we're on the topic of ERP.

 

Confession is every time I go somewhere I pray to god almighty there's a ERP session happening nearby and they mistell if only once and I can clearly read it.

Or you could join in. 

 

/em rubs on butt

[Kurt S.]

Since we're on the topic of ERP.

 

Confession is every time I go somewhere I pray to god almighty there's a ERP session happening nearby and they mistell if only once and I can clearly read it.

 

They are out there. Just look, like I did once upon a time

 

....

 

.... then manderville'd the living shit out of em.

 

Wonder if the hovel still has tenants.

[Vale]

Since we're on the topic of ERP.

 

Confession is every time I go somewhere I pray to god almighty there's a ERP session happening nearby and they mistell if only once and I can clearly read it.

The closest I've come is when I was discussing a particularly... raunchy bit of ERP I'd come across (not me doing it, but others) with someone in private. Some slightly disturbing stuff. Accidentally posted in /ls instead of /p and I think I scarred a bunch of people for life with the details

[Flickering Ember]

• I am guilty of internal monologuing a lot, and I'm glad to see this comment posted! I always wonder if it annoys people. I do it for a few reasons. It's a way to me to explore my character's thoughts by getting something out into writing, rather than letting it swim around in my head. Sometimes a situation doesn't call for speaking or acting, so I want to show that I'm engaged in and aware of the situation by contributing a post. I don't mind that it's revealing anything, because to me it's similar to how you'll see cutscenes of a part of the story that you're not physically present at. It's a snippet more for the player than the character.
  

 

This may as well be my confession. I do internal monologuing. However, I also have zero shame for it. Here's the honest truth: I am not a good writer. Actually, I very rarely do writing prompts and even more rarely do I write up short stories for my characters. I do like reading people's stories but I don't do it as often as I could.

 

I'm not really here to read and write stories, though. I'm not an English major, I don't write fanfiction, and I'm pretty sure my grasp on essay-perfect English is deteriorating as I get older. I see RP as a lot different than writing a story. It is a "story" in a sense, but I see it more as getting to participate in a living world.

 

What does this have to do with internal monologuing? Well, my personal belief that internal monologuing can be the result of 'eh' writing skill. Though, it's also going to dip into time restrictions as well. I am not going to sit there for several minutes, trying to describe perfectly what my character's facial expressions are.

 

Not at all, I am going to bluntly state what my character is feeling so you can get a rough idea what their expression looks like so our RP doesn't take longer to get through. (I know I personally don't have all the time in the world) Though, with body language being much more of human communication than words, a lot of what you should be seeing is indescribable. 

 

I put a lot of importance on facial expressions because 1. I don't think RPers focus on the non-verbal aspects of characters enough and 2. A lot of communication from humans lies in their reactions, rather than their words. 

 

 

TL;DR If I am internal monologuing, it's because I want you to imagine that 'internal monologue' as a facial expression. I always try to give others something more substantial to work off of too, as I can also see the frustration of not getting enough to react off of. 

(Confession turned into ranting a little bit but eh. You don't have to like it but those are my reasons!)

[Jana]

Since we're on the topic of ERP.

 

Confession is every time I go somewhere I pray to god almighty there's a ERP session happening nearby and they mistell if only once and I can clearly read it.

 

This seems to happen to me EVERY TIME I EVER TALK ABOUT ANYTHING LEWD

 

I don't even ERP on this game (though it's more the fault of my spaghetticat character than anything else)!

[111]

Since we're on the topic of ERP.

 

Confession is every time I go somewhere I pray to god almighty there's a ERP session happening nearby and they mistell if only once and I can clearly read it.

 

This seems to happen to me EVERY TIME I EVER TALK ABOUT ANYTHING LEWD

 

I don't even ERP on this game (though it's more the fault of my spaghetticat character than anything else)!

 

I don't think a night has gone by that Jana hasn't misstelled some vaguely sexy link to another linkshell.

 

It's why we keep her around ;D

[Melodia]

Since we're on the topic of ERP.

 

Confession is every time I go somewhere I pray to god almighty there's a ERP session happening nearby and they mistell if only once and I can clearly read it.

Or you could join in. 

 

/em rubs on butt

/em swoons as she watches

[Aaron]

Since we're on the topic of ERP.

 

Confession is every time I go somewhere I pray to god almighty there's a ERP session happening nearby and they mistell if only once and I can clearly read it.

Or you could join in. 

 

/em rubs on butt

/em swoons as she watches

Now now ladies please,  not in public. <3

[Telluride]

Since we're on the topic of ERP.

 

Confession is every time I go somewhere I pray to god almighty there's a ERP session happening nearby and they mistell if only once and I can clearly read it.

Or you could join in. 

 

/em rubs on butt

/em swoons as she watches

Now now ladies please,  not in public. <3

 

Just another day in the pub scene. Add a few shots and some mood music and you're good to go. Bard available for hire.

[Kaiz]

edit: Ignore me. I somehow forgot there was 11 more pages to look at.

 

... wait, I can use this!

 

Confession: I often post before reading the whole thread

[Lilia Lia]

Actual confession incoming.

 

I confess that, if anything about your character's backstory is something I find ridiculous or implausible, then I am probably going to avoid any kind of in-depth RP with your character regarding their background.  The result is that I am likely never going to have a deep and profound personal connection with your character, even if it would have made sense for that to happen in the context of our relationship.

 

So I guess this comes down to me being very critical of people's character backstories, maybe a little more than I should be.  It's just because I actually do avoid situations or stories that don't have credibility in my eyes because they're harmful to my immersion.  But it's definitely closed off some opportunities for me and caused me to alienate a few people.

 

(Also, I'm not proud of it. I think it's something I need to work on. That's why I consider it a confession.)

[Lilia Lia]

• I am guilty of internal monologuing a lot, and I'm glad to see this comment posted! I always wonder if it annoys people. I do it for a few reasons. It's a way to me to explore my character's thoughts by getting something out into writing, rather than letting it swim around in my head. Sometimes a situation doesn't call for speaking or acting, so I want to show that I'm engaged in and aware of the situation by contributing a post. I don't mind that it's revealing anything, because to me it's similar to how you'll see cutscenes of a part of the story that you're not physically present at. It's a snippet more for the player than the character.
  

 

This may as well be my confession. I do internal monologuing. However, I also have zero shame for it. Here's the honest truth: I am not a good writer. Actually, I very rarely do writing prompts and even more rarely do I write up short stories for my characters. I do like reading people's stories but I don't do it as often as I could.

 

[...]

 

If I am internal monologuing, it's because I want you to imagine that 'internal monologue' as a facial expression. I always try to give others something more substantial to work off of too, as I can also see the frustration of not getting enough to react off of.

 

I want to speak to this a little bit.  I don't think internal monologues are inherently bad and I wish people would stop spreading their opinion on this matter as though it were some kind of objective standard.  I know the difference between what my character can see and what I can read.  I know that if your character's post reveals a bit of their feelings that this is just to add enjoyment to the scene or give me insight into your character.  I actually really like it, too.  It's not bad writing, it can be very good writing and it can make the scene more enjoyable.

 

There are people I RP with who make use of internal monologue and literary techniques like Free Indirect Discourse which I'm sure drive some people crazy, but I love them.  It helps me understand the character and it helps me interpret the scene.  It gives me context for the way their character is acting, expressing themselves, and so on.  It's an aid to my imagination, regardless of whether my character herself gleans anything from it.

 

I'd say you should continue to tastefully internally monologue and people who don't like it can just deal with it.  Don't go overboard, be reasonable, and stand up for yourself if people criticize it as though it's a flaw.  It's not.

 

It's also, I think, a good avenue for introverted characters who want to keep their RP interesting. It's sure a lot more interesting than watching how many adjectives you can cram into a description of them leaning against a wall with their arms crossed, or taking a sip of beer.