RP Confession Thread

[Dravus]

- I'm a bit of a perfectionist and chastise myself if I happen to make a mistake.

 

- The horrid chat bug where entire emotes risk being swallowed up before they reach those I'm role-playing with has made me quite paranoid. I'm always worrying whether an emote I've typed out has gone through, especially if it's fairly large.

 

- I love it when people approach me unexpectedly and tell me that they find my character interesting/that they want me to role-play with them. It's a big confidence boost and a great way for me to further connections. I always strive to do the same when and where I can if someone else's character catches my eye.

 

- The 'Highlander/Roegadyn Master Race' thing really bores me. It's one thing to bring it up as a joke but it's completely irritating when it's blatantly leaking into role-play based on biased OOC views. It's even more frustrating when it leads to situations where people treat any character smaller than their own as being weak and unattractive. Not all of us are so insecure that we need to play the biggest race possible and bring up how powerful they supposedly are at every turn.

 

- I'd play an elezen if not for their weird necks. I'd play a male au ra if not for their weird hips. I love how they look other than that but I just can't bring myself to take the leap.

[Oilbasedoleander]

5. I've... err... I've ERPed before. In AOL chat, on IRC. And, well... enjoyed it. And sometimes get into the mood for it even now and end up in this odd mental situation that ultimately results in me just quietly stewing in this weird quagmire of emotions. It's a combination of yearning and horrible ashamed embarrassment to go seeking what ultimately seems like little more than carnal wish-fulfillment. Not to mention that 2/3s of my characters are Lalafell and, thus, not the sort most would want to get that into that sort of situation with - along with my own still-inherent story-flow preference of wanting it to be romantically and organically driven if it ever happens rather than just ERP for the sake of ERP.

 

And yet I still feel super-awkward for thinking about wanting to have my characters get their rocks off from time to time. To the point that I've thought about just deleting this entire confession no less than four (five now) times while writing it. I just feel like... it makes me a horrible RPer due to the negative connotations put on ERP in general. And mean that even fewer people will actually want to RP with me because they'll think I'm just trying to get into their pants or something. :cry:

 

 

 

I look at it like I'm playing Sims. They woohoo in the game and I don't always make them woohoo with the intention of have a baby. Sometimes... those characters just need relief. Or show their love in a physical sense. 

 

But I also refuse to just ERP for the SAKE of ERPing. It has to be with someone who gets it and I'm comfortable with. And our characters clicked for longer than one RP session. Not that there's anything wrong with someone who plays a looser 'heat of the moment' toon, but it's just not for me.

 

I've played risque characters before, but they were just incredibly flirtatious and pretty much a damn tease. Haha.

[Tiergan]

One of the worst things you can do to me is copy paste me a tidbit of dramatic RP and then not tell me the rest of what happen after. Or tell me you have some big juicy secret about your character that you will be RPing soon and then ask: "Do you want me to spoil it or do you want to know now?"

 

I will either cave in an hour and demand spoilers immediately or I will live in torment of not knowing for days.

 

That said, I totally do the same thing to my friends all the time on purpose, because I am a terrible human being.

[Caspar]

Because of my pbp background, I'm used to planning things often. As a result I tend to assume nobody is going to misuse ooc info. I get that it spoils the surprise, but sometimes being kept out of the loop makes me anxious, as in my old communities that was seen as a sign of mistrust.

[Olofantur]

I will either cave in an hour and demand spoilers immediately or I will live in torment of not knowing for days.

 

That said, I totally do the same thing to my friends all the time on purpose, because I am a terrible human being.

 

This is what I imagine everyone looks like when they do that "Hey did you hear about this epic thing that you just missed and will never happen again and we're totally going to reference it all the time without telling you the joke?"

 

 

[Manari]

I suppose my biggest RP sin to confess lately is just... not wanting to RP. Back in 1.0 I RPed every single night, and it was awesome. But 1.0 was inherently more conducive to RP due to a few simple factors. Those factors mostly being that there was largely nothing to actually do in game, so RP was the obvious choice, and that the game in 1.0 had a TON of large empty rooms, buildings, huts, chairs, tables, entire sections of zones that were completely empty of NPC or any quests or any reason for people to go there what so ever, making them perfect for RP. In 2.0 its really hard to find any place in the open world that doesn't exist for a specific reason, thus causing non RP people to go there often.

 

Now in 2.0 we have a ton of awesome things to use in RP like glamours and WAY more gear and new emotes and standing and sitting poses and facial expressions and our own houses and just all kinds of awesome stuff.... however, there's a ton of stuff I feel like I have to do when I log on every night, which is great for the game to keep people subbing to play, but bad for me and RP because now I feel like I just don't have enough time for it. Whenever someone asks me to RP I always feel like I can't because I have dungeons I have to run, or roulettes or daily quests or hunts or what have you.

 

I made Manari become a very reclusive and hard to find character, because that's pretty much how I've become as an RPer since 2.0 started.

[Hammersmith]

Mages/Berserkers/Summoners/Whatever that roleplays having a pocket "Win button" attack that is ultra powerful but they claim is VERY DANGEROUS TO USE.

 

And then have it work 100% of the time with no consequence to the user at all before or during the actual point of conflict where it matters.

 

So.

 

Not dangerous at all.

 

In fact perfectly safe to use and an excuse to try to bloat power levels ala DBZ.

 

I'd understand if like, after using it you had literally burned your hand off doing a super magical blast.  Or if, sometimes, instead of working, all your joints decided to reverse and you were crippled until it wore off on a 50-50 chance when you open the SUPER ULTRA CHAKRA GATE.

 

But no. It's always just way super overpowered Thing that they're justifying having by means of something that doesn't exist (the consequence/danger)

 

Thems my beef.

[Aaron]

Confession # idk -

 

When you see me afk staring at Eustace in the QS. I'm not really afking, im just watching you. . . Waiting. . . Watching. . . Waiting. . .for the right moment where I can un afk and breathe heavily upon your backside.

[EkheiBalduin]

1. Echoing upon what others have said ... there are lots of folk out there I'd like to RP with at some point. It's hard to break out of the Shy Guy mask and just ask people, because I'm certain that everyone loves a little context and it's just so nerve-wracking talking to strangers. And it always feels like I'm trying to break into a tight knit group of people who have been together for a long time.

 

2. Right now, I don't have the time. Being deployed and taking an online course takes up 95% of my time. The only reasonable place to discourse being Skype.

 

3. Well, at least I'm still the only Chocobo Inspector for the Flames that I know about.

 

4. I've been in the Sand Pearl for so long and I've only spoken twice or thrice. And that's only because there was a mistype or someone randomly started chatting OOC.

[ProvaDiServo]

1. I am so fearful of my typos that I often don't budge to RP with people, be they stranger or long time buddy.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FgcB7Lkvp44

 

2. I haven't made a wiki because I'm way self-conscious about my concepts, and community reception.

 

*DING*

 

3. I am more afraid of you than you are of me.

*DING*

 

4. I lurk about because I enjoy listening to peoples Stories.

*DING*

 

5. I have turned down Aya's waitress services, more than five times. (+5 Sins)

*DING*

 

6. Khimari no like

*DING*

 

7. I RP in cosplay glamour outfits

*DING*

 

8. I RP using obnoxious Viual effects like Darkside.

*DING*

 

9. My character names are not lore appropriate because fuck the rules.

*DING*

[Nero]

1). I'm not very good at suspension of disbelief and am unreasonably, anally strict on plausibility. Not lore adherence, mind, but plausibility. I'm okay with you being the half-dragon primal son of Bahamut and Ascian reincarnation of Xande if you can convince me with your justification. This means that I will nitpick the hell out of inconsistencies, transitions, and vague explanations or backstories to an unbelievably petty degree, and I can't turn it off.

 

2). My diction, sentence structure, and general word choices are often repetitive and my vocabulary range really isn't that good, and I'm quite self conscious about this. Thesaurus.com is bookmarked on my browser.

 

3). I'm more comfortable with simply coming up with general ideas and outlines than I am with translating those ideas into cohesive narratives or actual posts with actual writing in it. I'm more of a scenario writer than a script writer.

 

4). I will never do open world walk-up RP because I believe there is absolutely no quality control, and if I were to open RP, then I can and will retcon events and people that happen in said open RP if I were to find some of those things distasteful enough to do so.

 

5). I'm criminally guilty of spending a lot of time editing a post after I've made it. If it's a recap log of live RP, I will spend a decent amount of time editing it. A lot of the time I don't think too much before posting in both forum and live RP, which leads to me editing both endlessly after the fact.

[Pastry Army]

1) As much as I wish to be a bigger part of the RP community as a whole, I am a terribly shy person and am often intimidated when trying to approach people. This, mixed with poor time management, has left me with a small rp circle. It is something I am working on, but nonetheless it yet remains a problem for me. 

 

2) I despise and roll based system when it comes to small group combat/activities. No matter what, and despite knowing otherwise, it comes off as slightly insulting to me and leaves me with a feeling of not being trusted to handle my own characters reactions and responses. I work tirelessly to fine-tone and ever improve my character and her abilities and to let all the hard work put in be left up to a simple psudo-rng system leaves a bad taste in my mouth. 

 

The few exceptions to this have been in the necessary cases of larger scale events such as fight clubs and FC story-lines. Outside of these, I am the one to insist on free-form.

 

3) I am self-conscious of my rp to an almost unhealthy degree. To the point where a post could take twice as long to write as it should as I make sure every detail is correct.

 

4) I love ERP. And I admit that. I find it simply the most personal way to flex and grow a character at their most vulnerable. And I crave for opportunities to express such. Not to the point where I whore around the Qucksand but a certain longing has built up after a long time rping a Priestess, and a blind one at that.  A feeling of being  'untouchable' I sometimes want to itch.

[Caspar]

3). I'm more comfortable with simply coming up with general ideas and outlines than I am with translating those ideas into cohesive narratives or actual posts with actual writing in it. I'm more of a scenario writer than a script writer.

Ugh this is my scourge.

 

I can count the number of completed stories I've accomplished on one hand. The number of ones where I have a beginning and an end in mind, but only inklings of how to get from one to the other, outnumber them considerably.

 

Sometimes it's because of outside factors, but I think often times I just draw a blank and either need help or need to think harder.

[Asmodean]

The more I read... the more I wonder how the lot of us ended up here. So many people have the same confession, here and there. Now I'm look forward to rp again once I upgrade from ps3 so thanks for the confidence boost all.

 

Also I'll add this from my earlier post.

 

3. It have for me to make a character that don't have something in common with myself. Be it music taste, way of thinking or just some skill they have, there is at least one thing that links me to them. Lucky for me Asmo seems to the one of the few to only have a single link, that being are love of music.... even if its for different instruments.

[Dravus]

- Whenever I recognise someone from this site in-game I tend to emote at them with a hug, wave or cheer. Not whilst they're role-playing, of course, but I do hope it doesn't rub anybody the wrong way!

 

- I have a love/hate relationship with Linkshells. Eight really isn't enough and there's so many that'd I love to join but have no room for. Or I join one and it lacks much in the way of activity even when attempts at spawning conversation are made.

[EkheiBalduin]

Ooh! Have more to share!

 

6. I never actually thought about the timeline when I was building E'khei. Now that I'm trying to put everything together with some wiki additions ... it's a disaster. I can't have him join the Flames when he was 18, if the Flames don't officially exist until he's 21. Now ... I have to cram some things into a one year time slot. I'm sure everything will work out fine. :thumbsup:

 

7. I sometimes wish I would have played 1.0 (I wasn't aware of it at the time). Then I could have, hopefully, had all kinds of semi-lost lore regarding the Chocobo trade with Ishgard. Well, I'd hope it was more in-depth, but I highly doubt if the information existed at all.

 

8. I used to ERP several years ago. Now, fade to black is my best friend.

 

9. Yes, I do judge you if your grammar and spelling are horrible. The degeneration of English into text chat breaks my heart. "i c wut u 8 4 diner", literally makes me want to strangle someone. I, myself, am not perfect, but at least I try. Honest mistakes are fine, though, as most people tend to correct themselves.

 

10. Little emotes like the text smiley faces and such, have their place. It's definitely not in RP. Random chatter is fine. Just don't over use it. Some of the bigger ones are pretty cool, but dear lord, don't spam the thing everywhere. I'll probably blacklist you, just so I never have to see it again.

[13uddy]

9.  Yes, I do judge you if your grammar and spelling are horrible.  The degeneration of English into text chat breaks my heart.  "i c wut u 8 4 diner", literally makes me want to strangle someone.  I, myself, am not perfect, but at least I try.  Honest mistakes are fine, though, as most people tend to correct themselves.

 

I have a possibly bad habit (depending on one's point of view) of reacting in character to people that type that way and ask things like "Are you having a stroke?" even if they are not in character themselves.  

 

I don't mind if someone is sending a quick message in shorthand while they are in the middle of some complex situation where they need focus and to keep the keyboard free.  But if someone is just standing around a safe area or trying to RP in nothing but shorthand?  Yeah, I'm going to get a twitch or three and respond in some smart-aleck manner.

[Masaki Moui]

Confession: Even though I spend a ton of time making a detailed character, I often find that the game interface hands me parts of my character I wouldn't have considered on my own. Sometimes the RNG system adds its own stroke in determining my character(s), even whether or not a character seems particularly lucky in various ways.

 

In other instances, the randomization of the game comes into play as well. The way in which Beastman Dailies may repeat for one character and not another and what could that mean character- or story-wise as time goes on. Do you acknowledge when your character keeps getting Brain Buster and beats up Kobold scholars? What do you do with that little bit of WTF the game keeps handing you?

 

Then there's the way loot drops in a dungeon, or series of dungeon runs. Some of the loot has imaginative names, like the Bow of Owls. Stuff like that adds a whole dimension of its own and seem to just be handed to a character with an insistence of 'use it somehow.' Or then there are times things don't drop no matter how hard I try to get them and that can say something about character too.

 

One day the chocobo races at the Gold Saucer gave me a whole new facet on one of my characters because of the luck streak involved. I couldn't have planned or anticipated that as it stood but it provided a very nice fit to a character that seemed in need of rounding out somehow.

 

The use of /random (or dice before random) has provided some of the most funny stuff. We were playing darts once in Buscarron's Druthers and when one of us completely missed the board with a bad role, Spenser of the Bottomless Cup spawned. On cue, we decided that the stray dart hit Spenser and he was outraged and went into his usual drunken fury. Proceed to FATE in character: make lasting memories.

 

Random weather: I've been caught in snow storms in the middle of field RP and it made a huge impact on the character moment. I've turned around during low-level mining to find Odin staring at me in the South Shroud. ('There's no FATE here ... wait ...')

 

I-I'm not in control nearly as much as I think I am and somehow I'm okay with that.

[ɴᴘᴄ]

I actually strongly dislike the appearance of this character, but I am resolved to stick with it, since every time I try to use a Fantasia the result ends up worse.

[FreelanceWizard]

I suppose I have a few of these...

1. I avoid RP situations that I'm pretty sure are going to rub me the wrong way OOCly... but I also sometimes avoid things that I know, but L'yhta doesn't, are going to bother her.
   
2. I assume most people dislike both me and my character OOCly.
   
3. For reasons 1 and 2 (really, more 2 than 1), I usually don't go to big events and I typically shy away from known RP hot spots. I tend to view my presence in such locations as an imposition on those already there.
   
4. This is why I don't typically drop in on friends in other FCs in their houses. I feel like I'm imposing on their RP.
   
5. I really don't like "internal monologue" -- those emotes that have a couple of words followed by several sentences about your character's mental state. L'yhta's not a mind-reader! :?
   
6. I probably accept more things ICly than I should.
   
7. I'm terrible about following up with people for RP if we don't set a specific time and date. This includes running plot arcs, even if it's my own plot arc.
   

[Eliane Dufresne]

1. I assume most people dislike both me and my character OOCly.
   
2. I probably accept more things ICly than I should.
   
3. I'm terrible about following up with people for RP
   

 

Largely in the same boat here. It's hard to convince myself that I'm not weirding out/annoying/boring people, either with my character or myself, so it's a challenge to interact sometimes. I really, really have to push myself outside of my comfort zone and probably make things worse or awkward in the process. It usually takes me a good month to finally relax around somebody, even if I've been interacting with them constantly. Thank you, all you patient people out there.

 

I'm really flexible with RP though and I feel like as long as it's plausible, it's cool to roll with it. I'm a bend-it-but-don't-break-it kind of person when it comes to lore and character concepts, and for me fun/inclusivity takes priority over realism or following the rules by the book. It took me forever to accept this, though. Instead I'd lurk in various RP discussion hubs and see people complain about things like, "everyone is a noble, nobody should do that because it should be rare" or, "everyone's character is overpowered, nobody gives them weaknesses" and panic, and I wound up making my first character irredeemably boring in response. I've finally hit the point of, "screw it, I'm done with this, let's just have fun".

 

And finally? I suck and always draw inspiration/abilities from other characters I like because I'm an unoriginal hack. <.<

[Kaiz]

5: I ERP and support ERPers. I don't get why it bothers other RPers so much. It's all just different kinds of fantasy.

 

6: I'm rarely ever satisfied with my character backstory or personality, but I don't know how to solve it so I just leave it and hope my character 'matures well'.

[Tortles]

1. I really don't like "internal monologue" -- those emotes that have a couple of words followed by several sentences about your character's mental state. 
   

 

• I am guilty of internal monologuing a lot, and I'm glad to see this comment posted! I always wonder if it annoys people. I do it for a few reasons. It's a way to me to explore my character's thoughts by getting something out into writing, rather than letting it swim around in my head. Sometimes a situation doesn't call for speaking or acting, so I want to show that I'm engaged in and aware of the situation by contributing a post. I don't mind that it's revealing anything, because to me it's similar to how you'll see cutscenes of a part of the story that you're not physically present at. It's a snippet more for the player than the character.
  

• I have have a bias in favor of characters with traditional names, appropriate to their race. I know there are always exceptions, so the execution of any deviations is very important to me. It's one of those things I accept for the sake of getting along and roleplaying.
  

• I don't like in-character race changes, but accept them for the sake of getting along. I would prefer if someone retires their previous character concepts and creates a new one.
  

• I am into ERP, and I get pretty anxious about it. My anxiety is mostly about what other people will think, and not actually having any personal problems with it. It's not something I try to pick up quick flings for though, and prefer it with some in-character build-up, or at least an opportunity to get a feel for how the other player roleplays and writes.
  

• I am fine with a mean/bitchy character who is played by an agreeable player. I am turned off by mean/bitchy characters who are played by mean/bitchy players. My roleplay is social time, and I like to spend my time with decent people who I get along with. I'm not here to entertain jerks.
  

[Dravus]

5: I ERP and support ERPers. I don't get why it bothers other RPers so much. It's all just different kinds of fantasy.

 

So long as it is safe, consensual and with a clear separation between IC and OOC then I doubt many people have a problem with it. The people who do have an issue with it aren't entirely wrong, though. It's not something to be proud of and wear as a badge of honour. If people want to ERP? Cool. Go ahead! Just be subtle and keep it behind closed doors.

 

More people need to realise that technically they shouldn't be doing it at all. At least not in public chat channels. Doing so is liable to get someone banned. 

 

On a side note, after talking with a few 'outsiders' looking into the role-playing community they've told me that it isn't so much the fact that role-players engage in ERP that bothers them - it's the fact that a lot of themes explored within ERP are, well, pretty creepy.

 

There's some pretty good reasons as to why there's a stigma attached to ERP. Putting aside the poor quality of a lot of the 'hook up ERP' that goes on within the Quicksand...there's the fact that a lot of ERP is a direct vehicle for people to get off on some rather bizarre fetishes or just manipulate those perceived as vulnerable.

 

So it's not as simple as 'omg how cud any1 ever h8 erp, i can do wat i want'.

[Kellach Woods]

2) The fucks I give about ERP are so damned low I straight up used a time I did as a backdrop for a mini-thing that happened to Kell. Why? Because it made for an interesting story and it happened.

 

3 - I'm extremely contrarian. Enough that I straight up WILL do something to piss you off if I feel you're just being a pedantic prick over lore. I've already got a plan for a WHM precisely because everyone around here are like "you can't do that!" or "you can do that but I just won't RP with you!"

 

4] Any little thing that happens to Kell OOC or IC can be considered "canon" as far as I'm concerned. I'll go out of my way to modify it so it makes sense maybe, but it'll certainly be done.

 

#5 I often get the feeling people are intentionally avoiding me due to OOC behavior.