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Eleni ( *hugs* Hi Eleni! ) already knows a little about my health issues, and I've mentioned bits here and there in various topics, so if I'm repeating myself I'm sorry. The short list includes: - Diagnosed with Acute lymphoblastic leukemia when I was only 4 years old. - Have many, many issues stemming from both the cancer itself and the treatments. Among them are multiple heart failures, lost most of my ability to hear (I can technically hear some sounds, but I'm legally considered deaf. So I can listen to some music, I'm just not hearing all of it and I have to look up lyrics to know what is being said, and that is if I can even hear them being said at all), no spleen and a compromised immune system both, constricted (and damaged) esophagus, minor brain damage and many, many other things ranging from chronic migraines to weaker bones and so on. - I'm allergic to some thing(s) in human blood. There is stuff in almost every other person's blood that causes serious problems if I need a transfusion, and any potential transfusion has to be treated before I can get it. - More recently, I've developed some issue with my nerves (not to be confused with panic attacks, which I also have). At first my doctors thought it was Fibromyalgia, but extensive testing is still inconclusive as to what the problem actually is. My legs are hit the worst. I really don't know how to describe it accurately, but it is sort of like a very intense feeling of "pins and needles" when your leg falls asleep coupled with both numbness and constant pain. Standing and walking are extremely difficult even with help of a cane or walker, but I'm too stubborn to give in and just use a wheelchair all the time. So yeah, that is the short list. I try not to let it get to me because, honestly, what is that going to accomplish? But I'm only human, and some days I'm going to be overwhelmed just like anybody else. There are some benefits to it all as well. I realized that I accomplished my life-long dream of being a mutant like in the X-Men comics on a technicality (unfortunately, no spiffy powers, though), my speech impediment from my hearing loss is often mistaken for an accent (a lot of people assume I'm British, though to be fair I do watch a lot of Doctor Who, Red Dwarf and other British TV), and I get to say weird things like "The doctors said I wouldn't live to see age 11, and I just turned 36 in October. So either I made it or I look REALLY good for a dead guy!" and things like that. One thing that really bugs me, though, is when people say things like "You are very brave!" and things like that. No, no I'm not. I just don't know anything different than this. I don't have a "normal" or "healthy" to compare to, this has been a part of my life for as far back as I can remember. If I'm anything, I'm stubborn, possibly delusional. :lol:

Like a lot of anime, the OP and ED will change as the story progresses and my character changes, but for now, I've got these. Main OP (English translation of lyrics are in the video's description on YouTube) Se-2l5A2wu4 And in the tradition of my favorite Super Sentai series Dekaranger, there is the "main" ED and an occasional "special" ED (like the ending of the episodes that focused on Jasmine and Umeko). ED #1 1M58d6niTNQ ED #2 85ViWb3aaag

Oh come on, it isn't THAT bad! Though I may be biased since the majority of my friends have always been women. And for some reason I'm considered "one of the girls" with them. And I've been the victim target subject of their practicing applying makeup on others in our youth (and I was pretty, dangit!). Anyway, to contribute to the topic, on the occasion that I have a female character, I prefer more subtle tones of makeup. It depends on skin tone, hair and eye colors, complexion and a few other factors, but I usually try to get a cute almost natural look rather than anything flashy (not that I have anything against flashy).

By Grabthar's hammer, by the suns of Worvan, you shall be avenged missed.

Update and stuff. Mom came home today, though the doctors wanted her to go to a nursing home until she got her strength back but she's stubborn. I really hope I'm up to taking care of her with my own health issues. Tried talking to relatives about it, got told that I'm being "selfish". Yeah, worried that I may not be the best person to take care of someone because I can barely walk and am on a ton of heavy meds and have crippling unprovoked panic attacks. Totally selfish on my part, right? :frustrated: *hugs* I'm so, so sorry. I've seen this happen to a lot of friends and it seriously makes me want to break someone's fingers or something, and I'm not really a violent person most of the time. I just can't stand it when people do stuff like that to artists.

To distract myself from my mom being hospitalized, I've been working on my Doctor Who fanfic called "I Am (NOT) The Doctor" about a man from an oppressed world who uses the legends of The Doctor and takes on the title to inspire his people. So I've been listening to fan versions of various Doctor Who songs, and I came to really enjoy this particular take on the main theme and am listening to it the most when I'm writing. 1KajDaM6_9Y

I'm choosing to believe that he didn't actually "die", he just shed his Earthly form and became Jareth full time. (But seriously, rest in peace, man. I'll miss you!)

Need lots of hugs. My mom has been really badly sick for a while, and I've been taking care of her (which with my own health issues has been very difficult). However, she's been VERY very stubborn and refused to eat very much, and last month the doctor told her she was malnourished. Try as I might, I still couldn't get her to eat much. I can barely stand on my own two feet, so it wasn't like I could just hold her down and force feed her, you know? Today she ended up being taken to the ER and is being kept at the hospital. On top of malnutrition and a few other issues, she also apparently has pneumonia. I thought she seemed sick lately, but when I tried to suggest going to the doctor she would get violently aggressive. I've been so panicked all day that I've had to take the maximum dosage of my already high dose anti-anxiety meds and I've been, shall we say, "praying to the porcelain god" quite a few times today. I'm just so terrified that things are just going to get worse or that they are going to find something else is wrong. Our family has a history of bad health issues (I'm a cancer survivor, and so are both of my biological sisters and several cousins, and there are numerous other major health issues across our family). And on a somewhat selfish note, I'm also pretty hurt that she doesn't want me to come see her. I can't drive, so I can't just show up. She also made sure to explicitly tell my sisters and my grandparents NOT to bring me to the hospital. I don't know if she's worried about my compromised immune system or if she's mad or what because she won't tell me.

I get the same feeling playing human characters, so I almost understand how you feel. Playing fantasy races are like breathing to me, but playing a human... It feels a lot like this:

For a few years, I've wanted to play the brother of a twin sister played by someone else. It might sound like a fairly simple concept, but I just don't have anyone I currently feel close enough with to try building up that kind of relationship. Most of my old RP friends are either in games I don't or won't play or have drifted away from RP for the time being (such as those busy with both young kids and a job or three), and I haven't really grown super close to anyone here yet. I'm sure the opportunity will present itself sooner or later, it just hasn't yet. Obviously I could just say my character has a twin sister, but where is the fun in that? I would also like to eventually try something like a formerly great warrior who is now old and senile, and he sees everything as if it were a grand quest or epic battle. Even something simple as fighting a low-level Mandragora would seem to him as if he were fighting a horde of demon infested giant Dragon Hybrid Mandragora of Doom. It wouldn't be difficult for him, he just doesn't see reality for what it is.

In the interest of "spoilers"...

Currently, the only Chocobo my character has IC is Omelette the Chocobo chick (Wayward Hatchling minion). As I mentioned some time back in another thread, the name is because he didn't realize this was an egg about to hatch and said to the egg "You're going to become an omelette" as he cracked it open. He spoils it, with Omelette being one of the few beings he is willing to share his sweets with, so eventually it will be replaced by the Heavy Hatchling. I haven't decided yet, but I MIGHT eventually replace that with the Fat Chocobo mount some time down the line (I own that mount and other mounts, I just haven't had my character acquire his own mount IC yet).

I voted "other", not because the other choices didn't quite show my preference options, but I like a decent mixture that wasn't really represented by the available choices. For instance, I do like to RP a comic relief or just silly character, but not in a completely comedic RP style at all times. It has to feel organic to the story (be it my character's or the story that my character just happens to have a part in), and sometimes there will be drama, romance, action, etc. I also like a mixture of plot RP and just random freeform RP. I prefer freeform, but that can be boring if there isn't a little excitement thrown in once in a while. In fact, one of my favorite RP developments of one of my old RP characters came about AFTER a plot had finished and my character and another were grieving the loss of a mutual friend. It led to my character meeting his new best friend (as well as me meeting one of MY closest friends in that character's player). As the old saying goes, variety is the spice of life. I find the same holds true for RP for me as well.

My Midlander is a little frustrated that he can't seem to woo any of the Highlander or Roe ladies. Probably for the best since they would crush him like a bug (not that he sees it that way).

I'm working on a really dorky Doctor Who fanfic (STOP LAUGHING AND ROLLING YOUR EYES!) that takes place over the course of several of the Doctor's incarnations, so I'm listening to this spiffy medley of almost all the past versions of the Doctor Who intro music up to 2010. CurvbOxXbhA

I choked on my Sprite laughing when I read that and now I can't get the mental image of an anime Goldberg coming out to the ring chanting variations of his own name over and over out of my head. And I think I'm going to rename my Machamp now. I wish I could remember all the wrestlers I've met. Nobody recent, but I met several indie and WWF wrestlers in the 80's when I was going through treatment for Leukemia when they would visit hospitals. I used to have a ton of autographed pictures, but they ended up misplaced when we moved in the mid 90's. I do somewhat remember meeting Andre the Giant and making him laugh because I said when I grow up I either want to be big like him or a cyborg.

I haven't actively watched wrestling since just before the end of WCW and WWE being two separate companies. It wasn't that I grew tired of it, but I moved and didn't have cable for a couple of years after, and by the time I did I just sort of fizzled out and felt completely lost. But this year I've been drawn in to watching for one reason or another, such as Sting appearing on WWE (that really took me by surprise after how long he had said no). I still love watching old matches and special events, as well as those "Best of" of wrestlers I liked back in the day, but I'm only just now getting back in to watching with any sort of regularity and I don't recognize most of the people. Even some of those I do recognize are different than I remember. I will say that my favorite wrestler of all time is Mick Foley. He wasn't as skilled as many others, but the man poured his blood, sweat, tears and miscellaneous other body parts into his craft. I even watched "Wife Swap" with my mom when he was on and I HATE that show (and I'm not too fond of watching TV with mom either because she talks the whole time).

October 9th - Scott Bakula from "Quantum Leap" and "Star Trek: Enterprise" - Brandon Routh (hey, we share the same first name, too!) from "Superman Returns", "Chuck" and "Arrow" - Brian Blessed, who is in too many awesome things to list, but includes such franchises as "Star Wars", "Flash Gordon" and "Doctor Who" - John Lennon from The Beatles - Tony Shalhoub, from "Monk", "Galaxy Quest", "Men in Black", "Wings", the voice of Master Splinter in the original live-action TMNT film franchise and many others.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't laugh, but I can't help it because I'm pretty accident prone at times and have lit myself on fire making dinner, boiling water for tea, putting out my mom's cigarette (I had a bandage and splint around my finger for stitches and wasn't thinking because I was trying to do three things at once)... I could list a bunch more times, but you get the idea. And that doesn't even include the other injuries I've had while making dinner or other stuff. I'm glad you're (reasonably) okay, though. I hope you're feeling better by now.

Hey. Those instant curry packets aren't that bad... Oh, don't get me wrong, some instant curry packets ARE good. But they only sell this one kind in my town and that specific kind is just terrible. Sorry for not clarifying that!

I haven't had any form of curry in YEARS. I want some badly, but every time I mention it, the people around me say "Dude, you can't have spicy food, remember" and I facepalm since not all curry dishes are of the super spicy variety. That is like saying all chicken is fried chicken, or all peppers are hot peppers. It just isn't accurate. Unfortunately, there are no restaurants with curry dishes in my area and nobody I know makes curry dishes. And since I'm not allowed to cook (long story), I'm left without any options for the time being. The closest I can find is this awful prepackaged stuff that tastes like processed sludge, and that is not a suitable substitute even if it wasn't too spicy. I wouldn't feed that stuff to my worst enemy.

The price seems pretty consistent with many similar licensed products like that. I'm not disagreeing that it is high, just that it doesn't surprise me. If I had that kind of funds to spare, though, I'd definitely grab one. I may put these on my Birthday/Christmas list.

[align=center]Things I Like About the Site[/align] - Good resource in general, a one-stop place for lore info, game info, etc. - Good place to meet others and talk about stuff, be it the game, RP or just generally talking. [align=center]What I Like About the Mods[/align] - They seem very even-handed compared to mods on many other forums. I don't have a lot of personal experience with the mods, but their posts when they need to step in are head and shoulders above those of mods on many other sites. For example, I don't see a lot of mockery when asking someone to tone down or lay off a topic. - They also seem like generally decent folks. [align=center]What I Like About the Community[/align] - For the most part, they seem like good people. - Lots of helpful folks when it comes to needing help, be it help building a character, help finding lore, a hug if you need it, help hiding the virtual bodies, and lots of other stuff. - Overall good sense of humor. - Variety. There are people of all sorts here, and that makes things feel like a real community rather than just an online High School clique. From where people come from, what kind of personality they have, what style of RP they play and so on, there are just so many different kinds of people here. - And finally, they haven't chased me off. I'm not the most intelligent guy in the world, I may not have the best grammar and quite frankly I might seem like an overgrown child at times, but people here have been patient and helpful. I actually feel comfortable coming here and talking with the community, which is unfortunately the exception rather than the norm in my experience.

*waits his turn to give a hug* High School was probably one of the most stressful experiences of my life, and I'm a cancer survivor. I hope things ease up for you soon! *hugs* As far as I know, I don't know anyone personally affected, but it still breaks my heart that it happened. I'm still half hoping that I'm going to wake up and find out it was all just a bad dream.

I don't drive because with all my medications I feel it wouldn't be any different than driving under the influence of alcohol, and we didn't have public transportation where I used to live, so I was quite frequently stranded at my jobs. To make matters worse, my jobs were never within reasonable walking distance of where I lived either, so walking home wasn't an option. Fortunately, if push came to shove, I usually only had to wait an extra hour or two to get a ride home from a coworker or my boss after they clocked out. Worst case scenario, I just had to walk about an hour to a friend's house for a ride or to crash on their couch. But most of the places I worked were pretty cool and my coworkers and bosses were usually great, so I was never all that upset about being stranded.